You're so useless.
You get angry. You stand your ground and tell them that isn't true.
Just another stupid unloved orphan.
You feel your anger grip your chest like an iron clamp, you're outright ready to yell at them.
All you do is bring pain and disaster.
You stop, your arm drops dead to your side.
Nothing but a waste of space.
You want to scream that no, they're lying, that's not true. But your voice is caught in your throat.
No wonder you were abandoned by your parents.
You feel yourself start shaking as you press your hands over your ears to try to block out the noise.
You're just a piece of trash.
You sink to your knees, hearing a scream that doesn't sound human until you realize that it's your own voice.
Everyone that comes near to you only gets hurt.
You're about to break into pieces, but you feel a warmth on your shoulder.
You don't have a family.
You slowly raise your head. You're wrapped in warm arms and smiles.
We'll be your family, then.
You rise to your feet with their help. The two are smiling at you, they're your first family.
Nothing ever lasts.
You get knocked back all of a sudden for some unknown reason. You look at your friends in shock and horror.
I'm sorry, we have to leave you.
You see your 'father', his blond hair in disarray and glasses shattered as he is led away in chains.
It's like tradition, we can never seem to stay.
You see your 'brother', he's fallen at your feet, shock frozen in his eyes as he bleeds away.
Why didn't you save us?
You see your 'family' now staring at you. You're scared, you're clenching your hair by now.
You knew this would happen, why didn't you stop it?
You're crying again, like all those years ago, shaking your head frantically as you scream into the void.
Here, take my hand.
You hear a voice so warm and tempting. You see three new people standing there, a new family.
You can be a part of us.
You see all three have their hands outstretched, and they're all smiling at you so sweetly.
You'll never have to feel alone again.
You can no longer resist, your own hand reaches out to take their's.
Why did you hurt us?
You see a flash of red, and suddenly the only thing on your hands is warm, sickening blood.
Why are you doing this to us?
You see them, broken to the point they shouldn't be alive. They're looking at you with tears in their eyes.
You could have stopped this, why didn't you?
You're ready to cry again. The hatred in their unwavering gazes is overwhelming.
But then again, you deserve it.
You finally give in to the voices. They're right, you deserve this hate and pain.
You'd be better off dead, you don't deserve to live.
You're crying and screaming again, you feel a sharp pain in your chest. You're dying, and you know it.
Why're you screaming? What's wrong?
You shoot up in alarm, the three from before are looking at you worriedly again.
Did something happen? Are you alright?
You see the genuine concern in their eyes, they care, they want to know why your tears won't stop falling.
You can tell us, you know we're always here for you, right?
You feel another pain in your chest - Panic. Was this a second chance to save those you love?
We're practically family, you can tell us.
Your panic only increases. Family. No, they can't be family. If they're family, they'll only get hurt.
Don't start this cycle all over again.
You don't even think twice - You jump to your feet and flee, ignoring their cries of telling you to wait.
You love them, you wouldn't do anything to hurt them.
And that's why you stay away from those you love. And that's why you build this wall around yourself.
Author's Notes: I HAVE RISEN FROM THE DEAD WITH YET ANOTHER LOUSY STORY WHOOPS
Sorry for being inactive for so long hahaha I don't even have an excuse for this one
I tried a different writing style but I think I butchered it up badly sorry
Also the first family is meant to be Kristoph and Clay, while the second the Wright Anything Agency, haha... ^^;
Anyways please R&R it'd help a lot. And yeah flat monologue/words/whatisthis is flat.