Hey guys…. don't worry I am going to finish the others but for now I'm trying to write fics with parings that don't exist. For a fact Darry/ Ponyboy I think the love between them is deep. Maybe natural, but I tend to use my imagination. I also haven't come across Dally/Johnny's either. I mean Johnny was the only one that he really loved. Oh well here you go.
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Title: My Heart
Author: TameLion
Pairing: Darry/Ponyboy, Johnny/Dally
CHAPTER 1: I see clearly
Summery: Love has different meanings. Love is shared through Family, friends, and lovers. But what if your definition of love between brothers was changed? And what if it wasn't? Love is lost…love is found.
WARNING: THIS STORY CONAINS SLASH, INSENSE…. I THINK YOU GET THE IDEA. IF YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT SLASH IS. IT IS WHEN STORIES OUT OF REAL BOOKS ARE WRITTEN & SWITCHED AROUND TO THE WRITERS SATISFACTION AND IT CONTAINS HOMOSEXUAL CONTENT BETWEEN CHARACTERS IN THE BOOK. IN OTHER WORDS BOY ON BOY ACTION BETWEEN CHARACTERS WHO USUALLY WOULDN'T.
DISCLAIMER: I don't own jack. I'm poor, broke…penniless so don't expect anything. And anyways I did put a warning on this and you made the choice to read it. Your fault.
CHAPTER 1
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Our house hasn't been alive since I came back. Even though the gang acts as nothing bad had ever happened, I can see through their masks. I don't know how I learned to read people. Maybe it's the whole experience that matured me. At least I know that much. I watch them joke about their peers, the Socs…. etc. I am unable to join them.
I don't want to seem as if I'm putting myself up there, but all I can do right now is worry about Johnny. He has been one of my closets friends ever. Closer than Darry and I once were. That brings up another subject. The scene where I clang helplessly to him the first time I had seen him since the accident replayed in my mind over and over. I felt so guilty. Imagine how he must have felt. A month ago I wouldn't have even thought he cared.
I jolted in our leather couch as a hand landed itself on my shoulder. Johnny? No, It was Darry. He still had his Jacket from the Football team on, so I guess he just came from work.
" Hey kid, how come you ain't with they rest of them?" He motioned his head towards the dinner table. Nothing fancy, mind you. Us hoods aren't exactly rich.
I shrugged, by now they were use to my silence. " I don't feel like talking."
He dramatically sighed. Even though he had accepted the new me, he wanted me to be that same person I was before all the mishaps started. " Come on, " pulling me out of the chair by my hands, he led me into me and Soda's bedroom. " We need to talk. I mean really talk." The door was closed, so my escape route was blocked. He had already thought of that.
" Ok." It was more of a rasp. I don't like talking much about how I felt. It just made the feeling I've tried to suppress become too strong for me to hold. He patted the spot next to him on my twin bed. Suddenly the air around me grew tense. I took the seat unwillingly.
Of course he noticed. " Don't worry about anything. I won't ask anything that will offend you. I just want to see if you're ok. Are you?" He scooted closer to me and rubbed my sagged shoulders. Does he have to be so affectionate?
" I'm fine. Just worried about Johnny… and Dally. " The words didn't seem to have an effect on me yet. My older brother stared at me. I was growing accustomed to that stare. I wonder what is going on through his Icy Blue eyes. He is the only person I can't figure out. Coincidence? No. I had not even bothered to get to know him more after our parents died. The more I know about someone the better they are to read. Isn't that a sad fact? He's my brother for Christ sake.
I rested my head on his shoulder. I was at least making an effort to act more like a brother towards him then I did in the past. He pulled me into I hug. I was shocked at first. Things were progressing faster than I thought between he and I. I settle into his arms, surprisingly I felt safer than normal. I guess this is my new solitude. I also noticed his hard toned muscle again my chest. They were hard and chiseled. Lucky him, those muscles made him look hard and tough. I have lost that already. Since Johnny cut my hair and bleached it. I choked back a sob at the mention of him.
Darry suddenly pulled back. " You ok kid?" He search my eyes. Without thinking I developed him in my arms and pressed my face against his chest. I let out a sob or two. I lost track of time. Darry rubbed my back reassuringly. Even though this was what I was trying to hold back, it felt good to release it. By the time I had finished I was asleep in my bed. Darry was there….holding me in his sleep……
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(Dally's POV)
He was still asleep by the time the doctors finally let me see him. He is bad shape, real bad shape. Why'd you have to do it Johnny. You wouldn't be in this situation if I hadn't looked out for you more. I knew blaming myself wasn't going to solve the problem, but it did assure the responsibility I had.
I have been sitting here for hours, I'm surprised the Nurse hadn't come in here to usher me away. I leaned forward and brush off a lingering strand of hair .Even in his sleep he is Majestic.
I'm worried even more about him since his parents will be coming here. Don't get your hopes up, they don't give a shit about. At the moment the gang and me are his only family. My restlessness was getting the better of me. I stood up and paced around the room. What if he doesn't make it. How can I live without him? No, I shook my head. He won't die .If someone who could live through 16 years of abuse can survive this.
Climbing in the bed , I got under the covers and snuggled up close to him. I don't care if the nurses found me like this. I've been through to much to care about anything else. All I know is that the one person who I love is at a dying stake. And I'll do anything to keep him alive.
Snaking my arms around his body and grasped his limp hand and clutched it tightly. Leaning my weight forward I pressed a light kiss on his lips and slumped back into the hospital beds. No sooner than I hit the pillow did I fall asleep.
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Well that's m y first chapter .Did you guys like it? I mean I had no plan but I must admit it did come out well. I'm not in the mood for doing 3,000 words today. So I'll just do a short chapter for now .R& R