One last time
A/n: if you couldn't tell (which im guessing you couldn't) this is a bandit Keith fic...yes a bandit Keith fic . . . I happen to like him very much so flames will be used to keep the bugs away. Um yes this does have mentions of guy liking guy, but I wouldn't call it Yaoi . . . it's just Keith's thoughts towards yugi. Anyway I hope you like so please proceed ^^
In this complete darkness I always expected to find pain . . . not now . . . it's strange, I feel the blood being drained away from me . . . I feel myself go numb as it leaves, but there is no pain. I always thought death would hurt more than this . . . but instead I find peace, solitude like this is the once place I can go to be happy.
I suppose this is what I deserve for all the difficulties I caused. I knew he never hated me . . . no one such as himself could hate anyone . . . not even me . . . he was always kind to others, never putting one down . . . maybe that's why I bullied him . . . I knew I could get my way . . . but oh how I need him . . . more than ever...it's bizarre to think someone such as myself could want such a sweet boy like him . . . he could never want me . . . he may never hate me . . . but he could never want me . . .
And now here I am at the complete mercy of Marik . . . he controlled me, manipulated me, used me, and stole my pride . . . but I still live on in the heart of the boy I can never have . . .
It was all a game to me. Duel them, break them down, show no mercy, then take whatever prized possession they may have . . . now I see I was wrong . . . using others, like Marik used me, was not the way to get love.
It seems everyone just hates me; Pegasus humiliated me, twice! Joey humiliated me at Duelist Kingdom and Marik used me. Am I really that useless as everyone sees me? For the first time I weep in the cold and lonely place I lay in . . . Why won't death just take me now? Save me the agony and despair of leaving this world . . . I am already not of it anymore. But as I said before . . . this is my punishment for all the agony and despair I caused others while I was of this world . . . is this what I am to become? A worthless soul lost to the hands of never?
Yugi . . . that sweet and innocent child I fell for . . . Why? I don't know . . . maybe because I knew that with him all my troubles would slip away . . . drinking wouldn't be a concern and all my pain and misery would slide into nothing . . .
But here I am lost and lonely without a care in my heart . . . Oh God . . . take me now . . . I have suffered long enough . . . I am not even of this body . . . just thoughts, hopes, fears and feelings.
If I was granted one wish . . . just one wish, it would be to see Yugi one last time, to see him smile . . . maybe even to hear him laugh . . . to make him laugh . . . one last time . . .
A/n: if you couldn't tell (which im guessing you couldn't) this is a bandit Keith fic...yes a bandit Keith fic . . . I happen to like him very much so flames will be used to keep the bugs away. Um yes this does have mentions of guy liking guy, but I wouldn't call it Yaoi . . . it's just Keith's thoughts towards yugi. Anyway I hope you like so please proceed ^^
In this complete darkness I always expected to find pain . . . not now . . . it's strange, I feel the blood being drained away from me . . . I feel myself go numb as it leaves, but there is no pain. I always thought death would hurt more than this . . . but instead I find peace, solitude like this is the once place I can go to be happy.
I suppose this is what I deserve for all the difficulties I caused. I knew he never hated me . . . no one such as himself could hate anyone . . . not even me . . . he was always kind to others, never putting one down . . . maybe that's why I bullied him . . . I knew I could get my way . . . but oh how I need him . . . more than ever...it's bizarre to think someone such as myself could want such a sweet boy like him . . . he could never want me . . . he may never hate me . . . but he could never want me . . .
And now here I am at the complete mercy of Marik . . . he controlled me, manipulated me, used me, and stole my pride . . . but I still live on in the heart of the boy I can never have . . .
It was all a game to me. Duel them, break them down, show no mercy, then take whatever prized possession they may have . . . now I see I was wrong . . . using others, like Marik used me, was not the way to get love.
It seems everyone just hates me; Pegasus humiliated me, twice! Joey humiliated me at Duelist Kingdom and Marik used me. Am I really that useless as everyone sees me? For the first time I weep in the cold and lonely place I lay in . . . Why won't death just take me now? Save me the agony and despair of leaving this world . . . I am already not of it anymore. But as I said before . . . this is my punishment for all the agony and despair I caused others while I was of this world . . . is this what I am to become? A worthless soul lost to the hands of never?
Yugi . . . that sweet and innocent child I fell for . . . Why? I don't know . . . maybe because I knew that with him all my troubles would slip away . . . drinking wouldn't be a concern and all my pain and misery would slide into nothing . . .
But here I am lost and lonely without a care in my heart . . . Oh God . . . take me now . . . I have suffered long enough . . . I am not even of this body . . . just thoughts, hopes, fears and feelings.
If I was granted one wish . . . just one wish, it would be to see Yugi one last time, to see him smile . . . maybe even to hear him laugh . . . to make him laugh . . . one last time . . .