Ah, Ichiru-san, how wonderful to see you again...

I had often said when he had came to visit me, in the times when Shizuka-sama wasn't using my body.

He always was so kind to me, so nice, helpful and loving.

I could only with for such a brother as he.

Thought, I thought of him more then just a brother.

But he was so pledged to Shizuka-sama.

I wasn't so pledged to her at all.

I had agreed to let her borrow my body, just to be closer to him, then the offer Shizuka-sama told me.

Ah, Ichiru-chan, how I hope that you would look at me in a different way.

I had many times thought that, hoping that he could read my thought.

Yet he couldn't.

He wasn't a vampire,

He was nothing more then a human that had drunk Shizuka-sama's blood.

Then there is his brother.

Such a cold person is he.

Yet I carve for him as well.

They look so alike.

I had mixed them.

They, indeed, are so alike.

I was sad to know that Shizuka-sama was dead.

Yet, I was happy that she was dead.

Now he could be with me.

There wasn't any Shizuka-sama to keep us apart.

Yet she still held us apart.

He went to her husband.

There, I wasn't able to follow him.

He left me, not even saying 'goodbye'.

Maybe his brother will keep me company.

I can't be with him.

He hates vampires, even thought he is one, himself

I left the academy.

Yet I still asked others to keep me informed of what had happened there.

I felt them merging together, as one.

I understood that they are not meant for me.

Maybe, I'll find another one for myself,

Or, I'll remain alone.

Alone, thinking of them, yearning for them, forever.

Kurenai Maria.

A/N: This is a itty bitty something that I had written very long time ago. I don't know whether to call it a drabble or not, but I remember that when I wrote this, it felt alright to write this so short, though at that time I thought that a chapter must be 1k words long (now the word count has raised itself to 2k). It is not like I'm fixed to writing everything long, but too often I find short things lacking. I hope you decide that it isn't like that for these 300smth. words.