Kiss Me Deadly
.Mystic.Loser.
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Summ: 'It all started with one kiss. One glance. I fell apart inside, Tenchi... I can't be complete without you.." Ryoko falls apart when Tenchi leaves her for someone else. * Ryokos POV*
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"Its cold, tonight." Your voice seemed like the wind, so gentle, so fresh, but it could be so bitter and heartbreaking...
"Yeah, I know." I replied carlessly, settling my back against the wall of the Masaki house. I hadn't come inside all day. All night. Im suprised you noticed at all. You make your way towards me. I can tell how you're feeling.. I can hear you breathing, your footsteps, even your heart as it beats. I wonder...who it beats for..
You put your hand on my shoulder, and speak to me like a father would to a stuborn child. Your voice is so soft, warm and gentle. So friendly. Is that all I'll be to you? A friend? A stuborn child?
"Ryoko, you should go inside. It's getting late."
"Im not tired."
"Ryoko." Its not a command. Its more of a sigh. As if your tired of dealing with me and my childish ways. I can feel it wrap around my heart. Its choking me, and you don't even get why. I can't stand your naivety! I can't stand you anymore Tenchi!
I jerk away from your hand. Your gentle voice. Your soft glances. I tear away from everything I ever felt for you.
"Ryoko.." you say my name again.Its like you're pleading now.Your voice hangs in the air, hovers over my head, and casually slips around my neck like a noose. Im choking on your voice, your movements, your touch.
"I wish I could tear away from everything i felt for you." I whisper. You dont hear, or choose not to respond. Its all still inside me. It hurts worse and worse with every beat of my heart. I can still hear every little breath, every little murmur, every beat of your blessed heart, that I wish I could hold in my hands. Its tearing me apart inside. I can't breathe..Im choking.
"Come inside, lets just..go to bed Ryoko!" you say, rubbing your head. "Its been a long day.."
Are you scolding me?
Thats rich.
I don't know what comes over me, but for a minute, I believe I did tear away from the new Ryoko. I could never get *mad* at you before..but now Im overflowing with rage. Im so mad..Im trembling.
"Ryo..Ryoko?" you say, suprised. Im shaking. Do you think its grief? Do you think Im just too cold? Tired? What excuse do you have now?How can you explain my behavior? Avoid my eyes? I hate you Tenchi. I hate you for making me feel this way. Feel complete, yet so worthless. I can't be..without you!
I can't.
And it kills me.
Because you're my everything...
and I mean nothing to you..
Sinking to my knees, I cant fight back the frustrated tears. They nip at my sensitive yokai eyes until I release them.
"Do you remember that night..Tenchi...The night you said you loved me.."
"Ryoko.."
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It was late. I had been out all night again. I didn't expect anyone would care. You all gave that up, didn't you?
I phased through the door, why bother opening it and making unnessicary noise? Floating to the couch, I collapsed, burying my face into a pillow.
"Ryoko?" you whispered. My head snapped up, and I looked at you, as you stood in the doorway of the hall and the living room. My heart skipped a beat.I sat up, uncomfterble.
"T-Tenchi?" I stammered like alittle girl. It sounded all too much like something Ayeka would do, so I quickly added, "What are you doing up, you naughty boy?"
You sighed, and sat down. "You had me really worried."
I threw you a cheesy fake grin, "Really?"
"Where were you all night? Its almost one o'clock! And no note?"
"Relax Tenchi. Gee, I didn't know you cared." I laughed sarcasticly, proping my legs up on the table.
"Ryoko.." you sighed. You'd think, that after all the times you've said my name, it would have lost its effect, but it still makes me stop right in my tracks, my heart quicken, then burst in happiness, no matter what the cause. When you say my name..it sounds so musical. I've tryed saying my name like you do, so softly, so gentle.. but I only sound clumsy and spaced out like Mihoshi.
"You've never stayed out this late before."
"I was just taking a walk. Honest Tenchi." I say, feeling slightly sorry for making you worry. Then it happens, our eyes meet. I can't breathe, as we sit there, for what seems like hours, staring at each other. But as quick as it came,the moment is gone, and Im left..cold..barren.You switch your eyes to the floor.
"Tenchi.." I whisper, placing a hand on your shoulder.
"Ryoko..I.." but you can't finish your sentence, I've already forced my mouth on yours.
Your hand made its way around my waist, your other dug into my shoulder. It was an odd arrangment, but somehow our bodies fit together perfectly. You were kissing me back. It felt strange at first. Diffrent, yet so natural. We belonged together. Your lips parted, your tounge darted across my lower lip ever-so softly.It was akward, but perfect. I chuckled without breaking the kiss,granting your tounge permission to enter.
I have been kissed plenty of times, by plenty of men. Some I don't even remember their names. I did what I had to, to get by. It was unplesant, but so was working for that bastard Kagato. I never enjoyed my life until I meant you. Even though kissing was something so old to me, and usually I associated it with some unpleasant duty that fell into my lap because of my appealing form and face, this kiss-this akward,clumsy little kiss, that was probally your first,- was something diffrent. Something special. Like nothing I've ever felt before.
It all started with that glance. That kiss. Before I knew it you were carrying me to your room. Still kissing me. I could hear your heart beating. I could hear my own. They mingled together, creating an eerie symphony. It played out our whole relationship, from the day you woke me up, to now. It all made sense.
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I woke up that morning, tangled in your sheets. Clothes scattered, forgotten around the room. The sunlight stung my eyes, dancing across my exposed flesh, across the snow white sheets, across your angelic face. Half laying, half sitting, I prop myself up on my elbows, head in my hands. I can still hear your heart beat. Its so calm..so serene. Just like you.
Your eyes flutter open, and you look up at me, looking down at you, and for a minute, Im embarssed. Embarssed you caught me staring at you. Embarssed I didn't stop you from going to far last night. Embarssed for kissing you, enticing you, loving you.
"Ryoko.." you whisper, yawning.
"Im sorry." I said, looking away.
"Its okay, Ryoko..its as much my fault as yours." You brush a strand of light blue hair from my face and wrap your arms around me, and for one perfect moment, everything is okay.
"I love you, Ryoko."
"I love you too, Tenchi."
(tbc)
.Mystic.Loser.
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Summ: 'It all started with one kiss. One glance. I fell apart inside, Tenchi... I can't be complete without you.." Ryoko falls apart when Tenchi leaves her for someone else. * Ryokos POV*
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"Its cold, tonight." Your voice seemed like the wind, so gentle, so fresh, but it could be so bitter and heartbreaking...
"Yeah, I know." I replied carlessly, settling my back against the wall of the Masaki house. I hadn't come inside all day. All night. Im suprised you noticed at all. You make your way towards me. I can tell how you're feeling.. I can hear you breathing, your footsteps, even your heart as it beats. I wonder...who it beats for..
You put your hand on my shoulder, and speak to me like a father would to a stuborn child. Your voice is so soft, warm and gentle. So friendly. Is that all I'll be to you? A friend? A stuborn child?
"Ryoko, you should go inside. It's getting late."
"Im not tired."
"Ryoko." Its not a command. Its more of a sigh. As if your tired of dealing with me and my childish ways. I can feel it wrap around my heart. Its choking me, and you don't even get why. I can't stand your naivety! I can't stand you anymore Tenchi!
I jerk away from your hand. Your gentle voice. Your soft glances. I tear away from everything I ever felt for you.
"Ryoko.." you say my name again.Its like you're pleading now.Your voice hangs in the air, hovers over my head, and casually slips around my neck like a noose. Im choking on your voice, your movements, your touch.
"I wish I could tear away from everything i felt for you." I whisper. You dont hear, or choose not to respond. Its all still inside me. It hurts worse and worse with every beat of my heart. I can still hear every little breath, every little murmur, every beat of your blessed heart, that I wish I could hold in my hands. Its tearing me apart inside. I can't breathe..Im choking.
"Come inside, lets just..go to bed Ryoko!" you say, rubbing your head. "Its been a long day.."
Are you scolding me?
Thats rich.
I don't know what comes over me, but for a minute, I believe I did tear away from the new Ryoko. I could never get *mad* at you before..but now Im overflowing with rage. Im so mad..Im trembling.
"Ryo..Ryoko?" you say, suprised. Im shaking. Do you think its grief? Do you think Im just too cold? Tired? What excuse do you have now?How can you explain my behavior? Avoid my eyes? I hate you Tenchi. I hate you for making me feel this way. Feel complete, yet so worthless. I can't be..without you!
I can't.
And it kills me.
Because you're my everything...
and I mean nothing to you..
Sinking to my knees, I cant fight back the frustrated tears. They nip at my sensitive yokai eyes until I release them.
"Do you remember that night..Tenchi...The night you said you loved me.."
"Ryoko.."
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It was late. I had been out all night again. I didn't expect anyone would care. You all gave that up, didn't you?
I phased through the door, why bother opening it and making unnessicary noise? Floating to the couch, I collapsed, burying my face into a pillow.
"Ryoko?" you whispered. My head snapped up, and I looked at you, as you stood in the doorway of the hall and the living room. My heart skipped a beat.I sat up, uncomfterble.
"T-Tenchi?" I stammered like alittle girl. It sounded all too much like something Ayeka would do, so I quickly added, "What are you doing up, you naughty boy?"
You sighed, and sat down. "You had me really worried."
I threw you a cheesy fake grin, "Really?"
"Where were you all night? Its almost one o'clock! And no note?"
"Relax Tenchi. Gee, I didn't know you cared." I laughed sarcasticly, proping my legs up on the table.
"Ryoko.." you sighed. You'd think, that after all the times you've said my name, it would have lost its effect, but it still makes me stop right in my tracks, my heart quicken, then burst in happiness, no matter what the cause. When you say my name..it sounds so musical. I've tryed saying my name like you do, so softly, so gentle.. but I only sound clumsy and spaced out like Mihoshi.
"You've never stayed out this late before."
"I was just taking a walk. Honest Tenchi." I say, feeling slightly sorry for making you worry. Then it happens, our eyes meet. I can't breathe, as we sit there, for what seems like hours, staring at each other. But as quick as it came,the moment is gone, and Im left..cold..barren.You switch your eyes to the floor.
"Tenchi.." I whisper, placing a hand on your shoulder.
"Ryoko..I.." but you can't finish your sentence, I've already forced my mouth on yours.
Your hand made its way around my waist, your other dug into my shoulder. It was an odd arrangment, but somehow our bodies fit together perfectly. You were kissing me back. It felt strange at first. Diffrent, yet so natural. We belonged together. Your lips parted, your tounge darted across my lower lip ever-so softly.It was akward, but perfect. I chuckled without breaking the kiss,granting your tounge permission to enter.
I have been kissed plenty of times, by plenty of men. Some I don't even remember their names. I did what I had to, to get by. It was unplesant, but so was working for that bastard Kagato. I never enjoyed my life until I meant you. Even though kissing was something so old to me, and usually I associated it with some unpleasant duty that fell into my lap because of my appealing form and face, this kiss-this akward,clumsy little kiss, that was probally your first,- was something diffrent. Something special. Like nothing I've ever felt before.
It all started with that glance. That kiss. Before I knew it you were carrying me to your room. Still kissing me. I could hear your heart beating. I could hear my own. They mingled together, creating an eerie symphony. It played out our whole relationship, from the day you woke me up, to now. It all made sense.
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I woke up that morning, tangled in your sheets. Clothes scattered, forgotten around the room. The sunlight stung my eyes, dancing across my exposed flesh, across the snow white sheets, across your angelic face. Half laying, half sitting, I prop myself up on my elbows, head in my hands. I can still hear your heart beat. Its so calm..so serene. Just like you.
Your eyes flutter open, and you look up at me, looking down at you, and for a minute, Im embarssed. Embarssed you caught me staring at you. Embarssed I didn't stop you from going to far last night. Embarssed for kissing you, enticing you, loving you.
"Ryoko.." you whisper, yawning.
"Im sorry." I said, looking away.
"Its okay, Ryoko..its as much my fault as yours." You brush a strand of light blue hair from my face and wrap your arms around me, and for one perfect moment, everything is okay.
"I love you, Ryoko."
"I love you too, Tenchi."
(tbc)