Magnus POV
In Magnus Bane's relationship theory, everything is so simple.
'No matter you want to step in or step out, my door is always open. But please do not just stand at there or not moving at all, as you are blocking the door. Just step aside, so other people can come in.'
Quite true and make sense, right?
Magnus used to be a very SIMPLE man when comes to the RELATIONSHIP.
But when we talk about the LOVE…
Magnus certainly will feel the heartache at first, then doubts about that later.
Is it possible someone else will fall in love with Magnus sincerely?
Or is it possible for Magnus to open up his hearts again, and let anyone come in?
In fact, Magnus already locked his heart for over centuries, after a woman who called Camille broke his heart cruelly, piece by piece and never bother to comfort him after that. Although after all, Magnus still believed in love. But the sad thing is Magnus began to let his guard up so high to prevent himself accidentally fall in love with the others.
Love can be hurt.
The pain it caused is so real until Magnus not dare to experience it anymore.
Magnus truly understands how amazing the love can be, and he also knows how cruel the broken love can be. As a warlock, Magnus should own endless life. Thus, heartbreaking broken love experience at one time is enough already. Started from that day when Camille left Magnus behind, Magnus decided to lock his heart and be cautious when comes to the love.
But as we know, all the things will get changed because time passed, and the world keeps changing. This is exactly what Magnus thinking right now. He seems had changed his mindset slowly too.
After centuries of being lonely, Magnus finally meets another person who makes him wish to fall in love again.
Alexander Gideon Lightwood.
Son. Brother. Shadowhunter.
And, also is the one who makes Magnus feel alive again.
Observe the tall, black hair, handsome Shadowhunter secretly at the corner of a wall, Magnus smirked and thinking himself.
'Maybe this time Alec won't break my heart.'
Magnus willing to give Alec a chance to walk into his heart.
Or maybe…
Magnus is the one who should be the leader to lead Alec opens up his heart.
Obviously, Alec is gay.
As a very sensitive guy, Magnus realized the truth after he captured Alec's tension face, during the short conversation between Alec and his sister Isabelle with many 'secret hints' inside. The hints which people who have a lot of life or love experiences might notice only.
Of course, Magnus who already live a long life is one of them.
Magnus, a bisexual warlock. He can sense people's sexuality, even some of the people fight so hard to deny it or hide it, like Alec. But it's doesn't matter, because Magnus just can know it.
Alec is full of secrets.
Magnus wonders how many sides of personality that Alec has.
Alec looked so gorgeous when he fighting demons, looked so fine when he talking and walking. Alec has an angelic smile and a face that can kill Magnus in one second when Alec feels happy. Alec also has the ability to make Magnus feel heartache by his innocent sad expression.
Looking at Alec's disappoint or sad face, even with just one glance, Magnus felt himself drown by the sorrow. Magnus doesn't know how long has this been going on. But Magnus willing to do anything for Alec, he wants to make Alec smile again. If there is anything Magnus can do, he will certainly do for Alec.
Yes, Magnus Bane likes Alec Lightwood.
It is a kind of intuition, or maybe just simply like a north and a south pole. Magnus doesn't know why he is attracted by Alec. He couldn't help himself to keep noticing Alec. Magnus wants to know more about Alec, even he didn't know the reason.
Magnus cannot control himself.
He keeps thinking about Alec in every single moment. Every day. Every night.
And, now in this room. With Alec together, Magnus feeling relieved and excited.
"Oh, Alec, Alexander. How come you looked so… Wow~!"
Magnus whispers in low voice. He can't help himself but keep glancing at his 'crush'. From head to foot, from foot to head. One time, two times, three times…until Magnus lost count on it.
There is no word that Magnus can perfect use to describe Alec at this moment.
'Hot? Handsome? Cool? Delicious…? Or… Sexy…?'
Which one is better? Which word will be more suitable to describe Alec?
This is the first time, Magnus hesitated and briefly appeared at a loss for words.
Alec seems noticed Magnus's glancing all the time. But Alec does not say anything on it. Sometimes, Alec feeling curious and looking back at Magnus with his confused black eyes. But once Alec accidentally eye-contacted with Magnus, Alec sure quickly turn his head to other direction.
'Eyes are the windows to the soul. But yours… The soul is pure and innocent. Too attractive. And, too good to me.'
Magnus had been heard in the past time that somebody else talking about Shadowhunter is the creation of Angel. Magnus doubted that statement before, but after saw Alec appeared in his life. Magnus becomes a believer now.
Alec Lightwood.
This name imprinted deeply on Magnus's heart.
Magnus smiling softly, inadvertently remembering that one old friend of his gave him love advice in years ago.
'I know you won't believe me, someday someone will come along who will tear down those walls you've built around your heart. And when that love comes back to you, you must do everything in your power to fight for it.' Ragnor Fell Said.
Magnus feels his heart is getting warm and melt by the memories.
Once again, Alec's eyes contacted with Magnus's eyes accidentally. Alec looks at somewhere else quickly, but Magnus keeps looking at Alec uncontrollable.
If we tried, even the results may not end up so well.
But at least we tried. No more regrets.
Magnus decided to give himself a chance. One more chance. One last chance.
He should deserve to be loved. He should deserve the happiness.
And now, his new target is waiting for him.
Magnus takes a deep breath, then he walking slowly towards Alec.
[To be continued]