Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho. Please read this all the way. This
is how I imagined how Kurama and his Mother would take his telling her that
he is a demon. This is not yaio. Just no way I would make this story/poem
yaio. I personally think this story is sweet. I marked where Kurama POV is
and where Shiori's POV is. Just read and review please. Thank you very
much.
Kurama and Shiori
Kurama's POV
I am so very tired
I worked hard today
I thought that if I worked hard
I would be able to forget you
I told you how I felt
I stood there in shock
I do not know what happened
I told you all of my secrets
I let you glare at me in rage
imagined that you would tell me to go away. I told you my feelings for you
and you just stamped your foot on them. Mother, would you have been happier
never knowing who I really am? If you are, then I am truly sorry that I did
tell you that I am a fox demon. I left the house when you yelled at me to
leave. I went back to my apartment and sat down on my bed. I sat there and
cried.
Shiori's POV
How long has it been
How long have I not known who you are
How long did you plan on keeping this secret from me
How long must I suffer
How long did you really planned on staying with me
How long did you hate me
How long will it be before I forgive you
When you told me that you, my son, were actually a fox demon, it had
shocked me. I did not want to believe it at all. Why did you tell me now?
Could you not tell that your secret would hurt me so very much? I thought
that I knew my own son. It turns out that I never knew you at all. Do you
know how that makes me feel? If you do not know then I will tell you. I
feel absolutely foolish. You took me for a fool and I was and still am a
fool. I hope someday that I will be able to forgive you and I hope that it
is soon, because I think I still love you as my son and I do not want to
lose you.
Kurama's POV
I am so very sorry
I wish that I could take back my words
I wish that I could see your face right now
I would have given my life for you
I still love you no matter what
I still hear your words telling me to leave
I will always be here for you
I still will watch over you always
I wish that I could take back my words and never say them again. I
still do not understand how I could have been that stupid. Mother, I am so
very sorry. I never meant to hurt you like that. I hope you find it in your
heart to forgive me someday for the pain that I have caused you. I tried to
be the perfect son so that you would not think that something was up. I
really tried to keep you from worrying about me. I never did intend for you
to get hurt. I wish that I could take back my words so that you would never
have been hurt by my words.
Shiori's POV
Why must I put up with this pain
Why can I not go back to the way things used to be
Why did you have to tell me about yourself
Why did you not let me live with the illusion of yourself
Why did you take away the illusion
Why could you not let me be
Why can I not hate you
Why must I suffer now in silence
Why must you be so perfect
Why must you have been so smart
Why did I not see all of this for myself? I wrote everything down in
your baby book, but I never connected the pieces myself. Looking back in
your baby book, I see that you were always far too smart. I remember the
day when I took you to an indoor garden. Most young children did not take
time to really look at the plants, but you stood in front of the roses and
looked at me and told me that the roses were going to die of a disease. I
told you that the roses were taken care of and I had to go find you when it
was time to leave. I found you in the rose bushes. The next day I read in
the paper that the garden we visited that the roses did indeed die from a
plant disease. That should have been my first clue something was different
about you.
Kurama's POV
I still miss you very much
I still want to be there for you
I still want to be your little boy
I still want your love
I still want you to make my breakfast for me
I still want you to check on me while I am sleeping
I guess I will always love you. You gave a lesson in love to a cold-
hearted fox demon. You taught me that love is the greatest treasure of all.
If you never want me to show up at your front door again, I won't. I hope
that you will not mind if I still love you. I will arrange for someone to
send you cards and small presents on your birthday, Christmas, any other
holidays, and for no reason at all. Mother, I really do love you and please
do not think that I do not love you.
Shiori's POV
Why did I not see that you were different
Why did you have to be so well behaved
Why do I still love you
Why can I not hate you
Why can I not just talk to you about this
Why are we so different
Why do we seem to be the same
Why do you not just come home
Why do I not pick the phone up and call you
Why do I always seem to make big mistakes? I should be proud that you
told me who you are. I guess that it was quite a shock. I suppose that I
should have expected something. I mean, you were always smarter and more
independent then what a little boy should have been. Your Father, my first
husband, once asked me if you were normal. He said that he saw you talking
to the rose bushes out in the front yard. He said that you asked them to
grow bigger, faster, and longer. I used to think that he was joking when he
told me that. Now when I think about it, I see that he was right. I once
caught you talking to the rose bushes, but I thought maybe you were lonely
and that it was your way of letting your troubles out in the open. I think
I will call you and ask you to come home.
Kurama's POV
I can never make up for all of the pain I caused you
I hope someday you can see fit to forgive me
I still love you very much
I need to do this before I lose my nerve
I will miss you
I do not want you to think you lost your son
I am sorry I am not your son
How can I ask you to forgive me when I can not even forgive myself. I
should have known that I am undeserving of such love from a mother. Please
do not worry about me. I am not at all worth any worrying about. Please do
me a favor and do not grieve for me. This is the only way I can make up for
all the pain I have caused. I can no longer stay here in the same world
with you. I miss you so much. After you saved me from getting seriously
injured as a child, I took time to reflect on all that you did for me. You
loved me for no other reason then being your son. I wish I would have left
when I originally intended to, at least then neither one of us would be
going through pain right now. You gave me unconditional love and never
asked for anything in return. I gradually learned that I did love you and I
would do anything for you. I sit here tonight with a knife held over my
wrists with tears rolling silently one by one down my cheeks to splash on
to my shirt.
Shiori's POV
Why do you not answer your phone
Why am I running over to your apartment in bare feet
Why do I feel like something terrible is happening to you
Why am I feeling fear that you did something
Why do I feel like I should have just come over to you first
Why do my keys keep slipping out of your door lock
Why are my hands shaking
Why do tears keep clouding my eyes
I get your front door open and I rush into your bedroom after calling
your name. I find you slouched over on your bed. Last I knew you had white
sheets on your bed and not red ones. I say your name and walk over to you.
That is when I noticed the knife on the floor next to you. I realize that
the red sheet is your blood. I watch as the blood clots and your wrists
begin to heal right before my eyes. I put you down on the floor and sit
next to you. I smooth your hair and before I know it your eyes are open.
You look at me in confusion and ask me what I am doing here. I tell you
that I am sorry and that I still love you. I tell you that you will always
be my son and I want you to come home at any time. You reach over to me and
grab me in a tight hug and say that you are sorry and that you love me.
Kurama's POV
I did tell you who I was
I did try to kill myself when you rejected me
I am happy that you still love me
I have finally found a place where I belong
You came to my apartment everyday until I was completely healed. One
day you asked me why I did try to kill myself and I told you that I did not
want to live without your love in any of the three worlds. You then asked
me how I had healed myself. I told you that it must have been my energy
going off of my last wish. My last wish was to see your face and never let
you go as long as you lived. My energy responded to your presence and when
you showed up, my energy just healed me otherwise I would have died. Thank
you Mother for all that you have done for me.
couple of days to write this. Different then what I usually write. Meaning
there is no yaio. I am disappointed in myself. I was thinking about making
it yaio somehow, but I thought it would not be right. Anyways, please
review this for me. Thank you again. Having a problem with the edit feature on ff.net.