Gwen was stood above the Wales Millennium centre the wind blowing through her hair. No matter how hard she tried she couldn't shake the feeling of loss from her heart. She had lost Ianto, Tosh, Owen and Jack. He'd been gone for three and a half months now and everyday she didn't see him was another day that a little bit of herself died.

She thought that having the baby with Rhys would make everything better, would make her forget all about Jack Harkness, and mend her broken marriage to Rhys, and they tried so hard, but everytime she looked at Rhys it was Jack she saw staring back at her.

Deep down she knew that it Was Jack she was in love with and she did love Rhys, she loved him to pieces, but she wasn't in love with him. Instead she was in love with the Captain. Her captain.

Slowly she put her hand on her now flat stomach and another tear slipped down her porcelain face. The room had been set for their little girl, clothes and toys had all been laid out for her for when she was born.

But it was all for nothing.

Looking at her belly her face twisted into that of anguish. She never got to meet her little girl properly. As soon as she was born she was whisked away. Gwen could vaguely remember the words of the nurse who was stood next to her grasping her arm tightly.

"I'm sorry Miss Cooper, i'm afraid you lost the baby".

Gwen knew she was taking a risk by having the baby in the first place, but she had never told Rhys nor Jack. It was around two months into the pregnancy when she collapsed on her way to the hospital for an ultrasound. When she woke up the doctor informed her that she had a condition called placenta praevia. That meant if she has the baby, then she could run the risk of hemorrhaging, killing both her and the baby, or just her, or killing the baby.

It seems the latter came true Gwen thought to herself her legs buckling underneath her and she crumpled to the floor sobbing uncontrollably. Slowly getting her breath back she looked at her hand and saw her wedding ring. She forcefully ripped it off of her hand and stuffed it into her pocket.

Looking down below she looked at the almost completed Cardiff bay. Only a few scaffolding posts were left up and builders wandered idly about trying to find something to do.

The soft glow of the setting sun shone on her tear streaked face as she rocked back and forth on the spot. Gwen was always so strong, so brave, so bold, and so brass as her family described her. But now she was a broken woman, she didn't speak, didn't do anything, just hit the bar's every night and drowned her sorrows, and for a few hours it worked, then she'd wake up the next morning with a hangover and a bad taste in her mouth. The only way she could describe herself was like a zombie.

Rhys was out every hour of the day, not knowing what to do with himself. He was just as cut up as she was.

Slowly Gwen stumbled to her feet and with one last glance at the bay she turned and made her way down towards land.

This is all your fault Jack, everything she thought to herself jumping down through the gap and into the building below.

Gwen walked along the bay. She remembered the call she had got off UNIT to inform her that they were rebuilding the Hub and would inform her when it had been fully completed. Looking at the bay she knew she would get that phone call soon, and she couldn't wait, Torchwood was the only thing she knew she could throw herself into, but a part of her screamed to never return, the place had caused her so much pain and heartbreak. She didn't know what she would do, she would become the head of Torchwood three, she would have to recruit a whole new team, and bear the burden if anything happened to any of them, much like Jack did.

Walking over to the edge of the bay she leaned on the railings and looked at the water slowly coming in and out in a rhythmic movement. Putting her hand in her pocket she pulled out her wedding ring.

"I don't think i'll need you anymore" she said into thin air and threw her ring into the water.

Slowly she gripped the railings and hauled her light body over them. Now she was stood on the otherside looking down at the water below.

I've got nothing, i've got no one, i can't do this anymore she thought and with that she shut her eyes and plunged into the icy cold waters below.

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