ben and hade had broken up because Mal said she had feelings for Ben and Hade stepped out of the way so love could grow he wanted to keep his best friend things had been awkward between the two

it was 10:00pm

Carlos had told Hade as they were setting things up on the roof for the new years party

Carlos said you have to tell them

i replied I can't it will ruin everything

Carlos said look if you don't tell them and things begin to catch fire you'r gonna end up getting burned

I replied if thats what it takes as I was trying to walk to get more decorations

Then you will force me to tell them myself said the son of Curella de Vill

I then walked away thinking that it was a lie

I saw Mal and Ben standing awkward trying to figure out what to do for midnight

They looked at me and I smiled and walked as if I everything was normal but it was not I felt as if the atmosphere int he room changed and I tried to avoid the for the rest of the night but it was very difficult went to Evie to see if she can give me something to do but she had nothing.

I was thinking about when me and ben broke up

2 weeks ago

Ben you need things I can't give you like kids I said as I was in tears trying to figure out ways for him to make it easier

Ben said as he was also crying "Fine I'm not gonna keep on playing with trash me and Mal will be way happier anyway have a nice life

when he left my room I broke down into tears

Present (10:30pm)

I then started to cry and I headed to the bathroom and got razor blades from the cabinet and slice myself in between my wrist and my elbow

Then the door opened Carlos looked as my arm was sliced

Knowing why I was bleeding he then reminded me about midnight while getting me napkins.

We left and i covered my slice marks and I continued with my first new years outside the isle I tried to hide my depression

My face turned red as I stepped outside in the cold me and Carlos went to Fairy god mother and her daughter also Carlos's girlfriend Jane they were talking to each other about something special they had planned at midnight. I then asked Fairy God mother.

where are we gonna be setting up the noise makers.

Fairy god mother pointed to a box that was being taken upstairs by Jay I walked over as Carlos was putting his arms around his girlfriend.

I asked Jay if he needed any help but turned my aid down again I had nothing to do

If i had nothing to do than I found something I helped Audrey with finding the perfect outfit that was not hard, I helped Lonnie find her paper dragon that she throughs off the building each year I think that is an nice tradition better than mine by a whole mile. My dad would burn me with a a fire cracker it was bad but it was better than nothing I guess.

11:30pm

It was a 30 minutes till midnight we were all on the roof in our best out fit similar to the ones we wore on the coronation day.

I felt like and outcast even among the vks I went to Freddie to see if she was having fun but she was to busy dancing with some other students I saw her dancing and laughed as she and some other students were dancing good is the new bad and I joined and stopped when Ben and Mal joined me.

Everyone danced until the clock struck 11:59 and I was by myself I tried to walk to the exit before it was midnight but when the countdown ended the words "hade still loves ben and he has benign cutting himself because he hates himself for hurting Ben" The room went silent Ben looked at me Evie covered her mouth Ben grabbed my arm and pulled up my sleeve and saw my slash marks I pulled my hand back and I ran to my room and locked my door. I heard Ben yell from the other side saying

Hade unlock the door right now

Ben just shut the fuck up okay" he heard me sobbing

Hade stop putting yourself through pain stop please

You know m-maybe your right m-maybe it's time for the pain to stop

What are talking Hade about open the door

their was a moment of silence than I shrieked out in pain

Ben knocked the door down and saw me on the floor my wrist was bleeding he than picked me up and carried me to the nurse their he met Mal, Evie, Carlos, Jay, Jane and freed. Ben was crying he said "Please don't leave me I love you please don't die i'm sorry I should have fought for our love please be ok"

Mal and Evie were crying and jay was punching the wall Jane was comforting Carlos with a hug.

The nurse âme out and said "He's gonna be ok but were gonna transfer him to the hospital for some therapy before letting him go back" Ben then said I'll stay at the hospital with him to watch him'

hope you guys liked it the second chapter will probably be released tomorrow as you can see I used this plot from the show girl meets world.