Wham!

I walk out of an alley in Port Angeles. My shoes are dangling in my hand, my white dress once perfect now wrinkled. I don't even the notice or care about the looks I'm getting. My eyes are too glazed over and my mind in a deep haze.

Before I realize it I'm at my car unlocking the doors. Before I get in I throw my purse to the passenger side before sliding in and immediately start the car. The fleeting thought that maybe I shouldn't be driving, but I don't care I just want to leave. I pull my car onto the road ready to get out of the retched place, leave it behind.

I head in the direction of La Push. Home. I know I need to stop in Forks so I can go to the hospital. I don't even remember arriving but I pull into the parking lot of the hospital looking for any space. I find one that's a bit far but I just shut off my car staring at the entrance. I finally get out of the car only grabbing my purse not even thinking about my shoes. I enter the hospital Emergency Room and go straight to the desk. The receptionist looks up at me immediately with a warm smile.

"Hi, how can I help you today?" her welcoming smile still there. I wish it would go away.

"I've just been raped." my voice is just a breathy whisper. I'm not even sure if I even said it out loud.

The receptionist immediately wipes the smile off her face and calls for a nurse to take me to a room. The nurse leads me to a white room, its cold. Not a very welcoming feeling place. I usually don't like hospitals but my mind is too blank to care. The nurse tries to ask me what happened; I just look at her, with a look that says leave it. I'm ordered to lie in the hospital bed while they take a few tests.

It feels like years that I'm just lying there staring at the white walls. I hear a noise at the door; I look over and see Charlie Swan, Chief of Police in Forks, Washington. Figures they would call police, they have too. I look at him; he looks awkward and sympathetic. He has brown hair and brown eyes. I wonder if Bella takes after her dad. After that thought I shake my head knowing I can't think about that right now.

"Kassandra Sage?"

"Yes."

Chief Swan makes a soft coughing sound, and I know he's ready to start questioning. He shuffles for a minute, obviously trying to figure out how to start. Has he ever had to deal with a rape before? Forks is so welcoming.

"Miss. Sage I would like to ask you a few questions"

"Okay"

"Where did the incident take place?"

"An alley in Port Angles"

"Around what time would you say this happened?"

"I don't know maybe an hour or so ago."

"Do you remember what the man looked like?

I bite my lip, and look away I really don't want to think about it. I figure if I don't answer he'll leave.

"Mam? Is there anything you can tell me about the man?"

"No. Now please leave."

"Miss sage-"

"I'm done answering questions. Please leave." I look up at him with pleading eyes. I watch him stand there, having a war in his head. His lips are thinned and his forehead is turned into a frown.

"Okay. If you would please stop by the station sooner or later so we can have a follow up?"

I just nod, turning my gaze back to the white wall in front of me. I hear the door shut and I tilt my head back finally deciding to look at the ceiling now, I sit there waiting and counting the markings on the ceiling, though I'm really paying attention to numbers. This is why I hate hospitals; they make time feel never ending.

I'm brought out of my thoughts by the door opening as a Doctor walks inside. He's pale, blond hair but his eyes are golden. I know immediately this must be Dr. Carlisle Cullen. I watch as he closes the door behind him for privacy.

"Miss. Sage, I am here to discuss your results" he has the kindest voice.

"Okay"

"My name is Dr-"

"Carlisle Cullen adoptive father of the Cullen vampire clan."

"That's correct. I see the La Push pack has told you everything"

I look at him curiously for a second.

"Their smell is all over you" His voice isn't mean or judgmental, he's merely stating a fact.

I let my gaze shift to my hands in lying in my lap. I take notice that my hands are pale enough to rival his skin. I hear Dr. Cullen take a breath.

"Miss. Sage, your results say that everything is okay, there is some bruising on your legs, and I would expect you to be sore for a while. There was some tearing but nothing to serious. Luckily it won't need stitches. However there is something that you should know."

I look up at him, his voice is now full of sadness, and his eyes hold a look of concern and pain.

"Miss. Sage, were you aware that you were 12 weeks pregnant?"

My eyes widen and my hand immediately goes to my stomach. My action doesn't go unnoticed by him. He lets his eyes close for a moment as if remembering something. It's not too long before he opens them back up. No smile.

"I'm very sorry but due to the brutality of the rape, you've had a miscarriage." He's looking into my eyes, gaging how I'm going to take this. My eyes immediately fill with tears and I cover my face with my hands. I feel as if the world has stopped around me. Dr. Cullen comes closer to my bed and I shield away from him. I can feel his sorrowful gaze on me.

"Miss. Sage, I know this is hard to take. I would just like to let you know that if you feel the need to talk to someone-" He doesn't finish the sentence. Maybe he feels awkward offering a wolf girl a shoulder to cry on. Sam's right he is very kind, maybe just maybe not all leeches are bad.

I just nod my head, letting him know I heard him and I understand. I can tell he would like to say more but I don't want him to. I just start shaking my head, hoping he gets that I don't want to hear anything else.

"I am terribly sorry for your loss. Would you like me to call anyone? It says in your file you are living with Sam Uley." He stands there waiting for an answer.

"No but thank you. I'm allowed to go right?"

"Yes you are. Are you sure you'll be okay to drive?"

"Yes I'll be fine. Thank you."

Once Dr. Cullen leaves I sit in the bed for a little longer thinking. I can't help but blame myself. If I had been smart enough to wait for him to take me, this would never have happened. If I hadn't been blinded by hurt and anger that he would ditch me once again, with no call not even a text. My tears are still flowing down my face. I can only hear the sounds of my sobbing. My petite body is shaking. I don't even hear the sound of my ringtone going off multiple times. It's all my fault. It's all my fault. I'm so sorry my baby. I'm so so sorry.

When I finally pull myself together, I decided I should probably check myself out and head home. I see my clothes lying on the chair in the corner of the room. I push the covers off of me and swing my legs off the bed. I sit there for a minute letting my hands grip the edge of the bed, biting my lip begging myself hard to stop the tears. I slowly pull myself so I'm standing up. I walk over to the door to lock it before heading to the chair to gather my white wrinkled dress. It's painful to move as I take off the hospital gown and put on my dress. I can see the bruising on my thighs, and I do feel very sore down well there.

I see my purse on the chair as well and go to pick it up looking for my phone. I glance at the screen 10 missed calls. I flip open my phone. Emily. Emily. Home. Home. Kim. Kim. Kim. Jared. Paul. Paul again. I know they are all probably freaking out. Sam probably sent out a search party.

I felt tears sting my eyes there is still nothing from him, nothing. Gosh, is he even at Sam and Emily's? If so why is there nothing from him? The one person I want to call.

I snap my phone shut and throw it back into my purse while shaking my head trying to rid the thoughts that will make everything worse than it already is. I walk out of the room and down the hall to the receptionist desk. I let her know I want to check myself out. I fill out the forms and leave. Today I had woken up with a smile on my face an than wham!

So for a first chapter what do you think?

For those who have read this already I didn't really change this one but other chapters have been changed! I hope you enjoy the changes.

FYI NOT A JACOB/BELLA ENDING! I'm sticking to mostly what the Stephanie Myer created.

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