Never Meant to be Moon
by zizi luna
pg-13
note: read, review, and read some more. That's all I ask.
****important***** To save readers from confusion about setting and season, pay close attention: Set partly in first season with only Diamond from the other season. Present time. Usagi is still in school.
Chapter 1:Quitting
It all felt like some long dull dream. The quiet chitchat was rather uncomfortable for I could feel tension growing steadily under their breaths. In addition, Diamond's hand rested on my bare shoulder still and I resisted the temptation to peel it away.
They talked forever about frivolous things then about art. Diamond hugged my shoulders and I smiled smacking myself in my head at this act of hypocricy.
The show must go on, right? This party, these fancy drapes, and hundred-dollar cocktails; this waxed marble floor, these people wearing silk and jewelry mounting a country's worth. All these random elements pieced together the jigsaw of fine people....high class. I belonged nowhere in this jigsaw. Odd piece out. But the show, the facade I must continue for
Diamond's sake.
I much less wanted to gag. Gag at what I have become. Gag at the super- ficiality that surrounded me like heavy cigarette smoke. And at. . .
What is done, is done, so just look ahead, I thought in remembrance of my mother's wise words.
Forever it seemed till the moment that Diamond drove me home and led me safely at the footsteps of my home. I bid him good night and waited not a response from his curved lips.
Trembling, I leaned back against the closed door. I sighed with relief. At least I didn't need to see him until next Saturday, I thought. Diamond's negotiations are rather annoying and boring but tonight, it had been thoroughly irritating because of the fact that I was asked to do another job which conflicted with Diamond's.
I climbed up the stairs with a lighter heart and sat on the bed yawning. I threw my high heels across the room and laid back before I heard a soft meow from
the window.
"Where have you been lurking on this starry night?" Luna asked softly as she transformed back into a human..
"Don't get all poetic on me," I replied immediately. " Anyways, I don't need to inform you of where I go as long as I help you with that mission that I consider stupid. That last crystal wasn't *the* one and we have searched so many places working our butts off. You haven't even told me what it's for."
Luna didn't know that I worked for Diamond Shard, owner of the Zlon Jewelry Company and that I had worked double shift, one for free and the other for profit scanning the entire jewelry exhibition for Luna's stupid crystal.
Luna gazed at me gravely with her dark ruby eyes somewhat flaring in the darkness. " If you consider this mission 'stupid' as I dare say, then, why do you follow?"
I felt another argument brewing. By now, there had been so many that I no longer cared to count them. "I never followed. *You* were the one who followed me around with, uh, Rayne and what's-her-face always begging me to come along and me, feeling bad for you three, I helped you a bit."
Luna was about as fed up with my attitude, past lies, and secrecies. She put her hands up in the air in defeat, and pulled out her suitcase. "Fine, if you're so reluctant in helping, then leave us be. You can keep the locket if you want. Do whatever you want, I don't care anymore."
Luna laid it out so simply for me. All this time I deemed it difficult to give it up and now here I was, at the brink of throwing away this life forever.
"Sure, okay. I quit then. I quit. I think that'll be the best for all of us," I stated.
Her eyes were still boring into mine and her face set in stone. And then she disappeared. Like mist dissipating after dawn, she had vanished and I somehow felt empty and somewhat guilty. Maybe it was the way I forced it into her that made Luna angry. Or was it because I was finally quitting and she wanted me to be part of little scout group.
But there's something she doesn't know and that is that I am not what I appear to be. I'm not for justice. I'm *against* it. That is why I didn't want to join in the first place. I promoted the evil in the world.
*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^ Luv it, hate it? Just review so I can know about that. I get reviews, I continue to write, that's my system.
note: read, review, and read some more. That's all I ask.
****important***** To save readers from confusion about setting and season, pay close attention: Set partly in first season with only Diamond from the other season. Present time. Usagi is still in school.
Chapter 1:Quitting
It all felt like some long dull dream. The quiet chitchat was rather uncomfortable for I could feel tension growing steadily under their breaths. In addition, Diamond's hand rested on my bare shoulder still and I resisted the temptation to peel it away.
They talked forever about frivolous things then about art. Diamond hugged my shoulders and I smiled smacking myself in my head at this act of hypocricy.
The show must go on, right? This party, these fancy drapes, and hundred-dollar cocktails; this waxed marble floor, these people wearing silk and jewelry mounting a country's worth. All these random elements pieced together the jigsaw of fine people....high class. I belonged nowhere in this jigsaw. Odd piece out. But the show, the facade I must continue for
Diamond's sake.
I much less wanted to gag. Gag at what I have become. Gag at the super- ficiality that surrounded me like heavy cigarette smoke. And at. . .
What is done, is done, so just look ahead, I thought in remembrance of my mother's wise words.
Forever it seemed till the moment that Diamond drove me home and led me safely at the footsteps of my home. I bid him good night and waited not a response from his curved lips.
Trembling, I leaned back against the closed door. I sighed with relief. At least I didn't need to see him until next Saturday, I thought. Diamond's negotiations are rather annoying and boring but tonight, it had been thoroughly irritating because of the fact that I was asked to do another job which conflicted with Diamond's.
I climbed up the stairs with a lighter heart and sat on the bed yawning. I threw my high heels across the room and laid back before I heard a soft meow from
the window.
"Where have you been lurking on this starry night?" Luna asked softly as she transformed back into a human..
"Don't get all poetic on me," I replied immediately. " Anyways, I don't need to inform you of where I go as long as I help you with that mission that I consider stupid. That last crystal wasn't *the* one and we have searched so many places working our butts off. You haven't even told me what it's for."
Luna didn't know that I worked for Diamond Shard, owner of the Zlon Jewelry Company and that I had worked double shift, one for free and the other for profit scanning the entire jewelry exhibition for Luna's stupid crystal.
Luna gazed at me gravely with her dark ruby eyes somewhat flaring in the darkness. " If you consider this mission 'stupid' as I dare say, then, why do you follow?"
I felt another argument brewing. By now, there had been so many that I no longer cared to count them. "I never followed. *You* were the one who followed me around with, uh, Rayne and what's-her-face always begging me to come along and me, feeling bad for you three, I helped you a bit."
Luna was about as fed up with my attitude, past lies, and secrecies. She put her hands up in the air in defeat, and pulled out her suitcase. "Fine, if you're so reluctant in helping, then leave us be. You can keep the locket if you want. Do whatever you want, I don't care anymore."
Luna laid it out so simply for me. All this time I deemed it difficult to give it up and now here I was, at the brink of throwing away this life forever.
"Sure, okay. I quit then. I quit. I think that'll be the best for all of us," I stated.
Her eyes were still boring into mine and her face set in stone. And then she disappeared. Like mist dissipating after dawn, she had vanished and I somehow felt empty and somewhat guilty. Maybe it was the way I forced it into her that made Luna angry. Or was it because I was finally quitting and she wanted me to be part of little scout group.
But there's something she doesn't know and that is that I am not what I appear to be. I'm not for justice. I'm *against* it. That is why I didn't want to join in the first place. I promoted the evil in the world.
*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^ Luv it, hate it? Just review so I can know about that. I get reviews, I continue to write, that's my system.