Disclaimer: I do not own beyblade or any of it's wonderful characters.

WARNING: This is a dark lemon fic. Meaning it includes descriptions of sexual rape, drug usage, and angst. Flame me if you wish but I just wanted to write it and did.

He didn't remember who he was, the boy he had hurt so bad. What he did know was that he had scarred him for life, taken away something that should've been his to give to the one he loved. His special gift to whomever he choose, and in a few breathless minutes he had taken away that privilege leaving him with a deep wound that he knew would probably never fade.

Why? Why had he done that? Why had he lost control of himself? Why did he just happen to be there? Why did he have to be so damn helpful, always looking so vulnerable? And why couldn't he stop himself?

All these questions haunt him. He didn't know the answers and knew he probably never would. All he did know right now, the only thing he was sure of: he was now just like them. He had fallen into their trap and could never change what he had done. Staring at them now he hated them, it was their fault. They had made him do it, whether it was with their nasty drugs or deceitful words he couldn't be sure. But he was sure it was their fault. It just had to be. Didn't it?

/flashback/

"Come on Bryan don't be a puss!" crystal eyes bore into his teammate.

"Yeah man. You can't judge something until you've done it." crimson eyes also stared intently, moving from one occupant to the other. "Just picture it like this. Your hearts pounding, your body's tense, you never know if you'll be caught or if you'll slip by again." he was about to continue when the other joined in taking the words right out of his mouth.

"The sound of him yelling, screaming, crying. Begging you to stop, thrashing around wilding. Desperately looking for an escape. Your adrenaline shoots up like a rocket, you start to sweat wildly. And then all that's left is the pleasure, the great pleasure of good hot sex!" Tala finished smirking evilly at his other companion.

"You two are sick! I'm not going to got out and rape some poor guy that I don't even know. And frankly I think you two should go see a shrink. I mean how could you do that? How could you ever do that!" the last sentence came out more as a statement rather than a question.

"It's easy, and don't say it like that. It's not rape, somebody is bound to take them someday. We're doing them a favor." Tala stated indignity.

"What do you mean your doing them a damn favor!" Bryan stood up enraged with his two supposed friends.

"Just what I said. This way they'll be ready for the world, and besides what guy wouldn't want to fuck with hot bladers? They should be thanking us for choosing them, they should feel honored." Tala laughed at the end of his comment and Kai soon followed joining in on the fun.

"Yeah this way their first time will always be memorable!" he laughed harder thinking about the many he had taken this way.

"First time? Dammit! It's bad enough you two are fucking poor kids. But your going further by fucking poor innocent VIRGIN kids!" he glared daggers at the two other Russians who in turn glared back.

"Don't get all fucking righteous on us Bryan! You aren't exactly the 'perfect' Christian either!" Kai spat back straitening up to glare at the elder.

"Well at least I'm not sick." Bryan turned to walk out but stopped short when he felt a strong hand clamp down on his shoulder.

"Wait Bryan! Don't go. Alright you don't have to do it, and we won't pressure you anymore. In fact we won't even talk about it. Just sit back down and we'll get you a 'special' drink? So how's that sound?" Tala practically pulled his teammate back down into his original sitting position.

Bryan glared at the two before sighing and closing his eyes, "Whatever. But after this I'm outta here, you two are really starting to piss me off." he spoke harshly never even flinching.

"Great, come on Kai. Let's go get Bryan a 'drink'." Tala flashed his partner in crime a quick wink before pulling him away.

Upon returning Tala set a drink down in front of his teammate before setting down his own and pulling his chair back to him. Kai followed Tala's latter actions and sat down next to his fellow Russians, smirking for an untold secret.

"Cheers." Tala announced holding his glass in the air waiting for the others to join him.

"Cheers." Bryan mumbled back sighing as he took a swig of the liquid that occupied his heavy cup.

Kai did the same but remained silent as he used all his will power not to smile at the Russian on his right. Taking a drink he winked at Tala and set his glass down with a loud 'thud'. He turned to stare at the third occupant in their little party and glared as he watched Bryan take small sips as he stared off into space.

"C'mon already. Stop milking it Bryan. Just drink the damn thing already!" he spoke quicker than he had hoped for and pretended not to notice the glare Tala was so graciously sending him. He let out a breath he didn't even know he was holding when Bryan just rolled his eyes and took a bigger drink, seemingly not noticing the urgency in his deep voice.

Finishing the drink finally Bryan let the glass drop to the table, not even caring if it broke or not. His head was spinning and his mind clouded over, the only feeling was the irregular burning in his groin. 'What the hell? Must've drank that shit to fast. I'd better just wait it out.' sighing reluctantly he leaned back in his seat and tried to ignore the many men that walked past, each one causing him to twitch and shift uneasily.

A cheery voice announced the arrival of another, the voice sounded familiar. Soft and soothing, it was like gentle music during a raging war. He heard his name called and looked up.

"Huh?"

"I said, Hey Bryan." the voice responded.

"Oh yeah, hey." looking around for a moment he decided it best to leave, the smell of this damn place was giving him a headache. "Nice chattin' with you guys but I'm takin' off." Standing he took a step towards the door but was stopped short by the sound of Tala's voice.

"Hey Bry, you don't look to good." the Russian watched his friend with fake concern.

"Yeah well you're no prince charming yourself." Bryan sneered back turning to leave again.

"No I'm serious. Are you sure your gonna be okay? I mean it's pretty damn cold out tonight and I don't know if it's exactly safe for you to be out alone when you're drunk." turning to look at Kai Tala gave him a devious smile.

"We're in Russia, it's always cold out. And I'm not drunk." the tone in his voice clearly spoke for itself, showing his irritation.

"Ya know Tala's right, it's not safe to be out by yourself when you drunk." tilting his head to the side Kai looked at him in a 'if-I-say-your-drunk-then-your-drunk' sort of way.

"For the last time I am not fucking drunk. And i don't need a fucking babysitter to hold my hand and walk me home." he growled at the two annoyances sitting before him.

Kai continued as if Bryan hadn't uttered a syllable, "Ya know I would take him but I gotta stay here and wait for Tyson and Max to show up."

"Yeah and I already told Spencer we could stay for awhile. Hmm...I guess I could just go home anyway i mean Spence would be upset but he would understa-"

"I'll take him." the third chirped up his voice a still soft and soothing.

"You sure?" Kai turned to look at the fourth party of the group, cheering in his head about how the plan was working out better than expected.

"Yeah it's no problem, really. I was gonna head back to my hotel anyway and I could just walk with Bryan, it's on the way anyway." the owner of the voice was certainly a crafty person, making it sound like he was just walking that way and not really taking Bryan home. He obviously knew that Bryan would object because he spoke up again. "Actually Bryan is the one doing me the favor, I don't like walking alone. So now I have some company."

"If you can get him to speak more than a sentence I'll be amazed." Tala muttered under his breath while rolling his aqua eyes.

"Oh shove it Tala." Bryan hissed back to his captain before turning on his heel, "Well c'mon then." his voice softened a bit as he invited the last occupant of the group along with him.

"Okay!" there was a scuffling of feet and a slam of a door and just like that the two were gone, lost in the infinite darkness of the night.

The two remaining Russians exchanged a look, before Kai gave Tala his award winning smirk. Leaning in he nibbled on the other's ear earning a small moan from his surprised lover.

"Your place or mine?"

"Yours, I still haven't cleaned mine up from our fun last night." Kai answered back his lips ghosting over the other's neck.

Bolting up the two surged towards the door not wanting to waste another moment they could spend fucking each other. Walking out the door Tala spotted the burly blonde and yelled out to him, "Hey Spence I'm headin' out c'ya tomorrow k!"

"Alright." Spencer's deep voice seemed to rebound off the walls until it reached the waiting Tala.

Kai nodded his approval and they were off, "Good thing Max and Tyson called and cancelled." he turned to grin at his companion as they walked down the cold streets of Russia.

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"This is you isn't it?" the mystery person stopped Bryan by dropping a tanned hand on his shoulder.

Bryan who had been lost in his own thoughts was pulled back into the harshness of reality by the soft touch that seemed to make his world spin with unknown feelings. "Yeah thanks again." pulling his keys out of his pocket he clicked the lock and pushed the door open, the warm air from inside hitting him in the face. Upon hearing the sounds of soft footsteps he turned to see the retreating back of his night helper and grinned. It felt as if something else kicked in and took over, like he was forced to take a back seat view of his own actions. He heard his voice but he couldn't remember actually speaking the words that drifted across the cold air.

"Ya wanna come up?"

"Sure!" the same cheerful tone answered as he and his 'guest' entered his warm apartment building climbing the stairs until they reached the dark oak that was the door to his new life. As soon as they entered he could see himself rounding on the creature and shoving him against the door, slamming it closed and locking the deadbolt in the process.

A whimper of pain echoed through the apartment and the startled stranger looked at Bryan with wide eyes fear evident in the golden pools, "B-Bryan?"

"Ssshh" he hushed the boy and pressed his lips to the soft rose ones in front of him. He felt the person squirm and try to push him away. But to no avail, he was much stronger than the lithe form trying to take control of the situation. He pushed his body against the other's and deepened the forceful kiss, pushing his tongue into the other's warm mouth ignoring the whimpers he received. When he pulled away he could see the other's eyes starting to fill with tears and he spoke to him again. "Bryan I wanna leave now. Let go of me, this isn't fun anymore." the voice cracked and faltered at times showing the obvious emotions.

"Leave now? But the fun is just getting started." he smirked reaching down to pull at the other's waistband. Hearing an abrupt sob he looked up, his eyes glazed over with poisoned lust. The other's golden eyes were filled with fear his small body racking by his silent sobbing. Ignoring the other's pleas he used one strong hand to hold his wrists while the other worked at his clothes. When at last the pants and boxers were off the shirt followed in suit, all left in a cold pile. Lilac orbs scanned the brilliant peace of work before him a sadistic smile playing across his usually stoic face. Grabbing the other he easily slung the him over his shoulder acting oblivious to the boys shouts of protest. Kicking his bedroom door open with his foot he trudged to his bed throwing the other down and starting to work at his own clothes ripping them off anxiously.

The boy grabbed the sheet trying to cover himself to regain some dignity, and more importantly his safety. The thin material didn't serve as much of a shield from the watchful gaze of the falcon who was moving towards him, clothes discarded. "Please Bryan I don't want to do this." the other choked out tears streaming down his face as he made a desperate attempt to reach the door.

Bryan was to fast, snatching the boy and throwing him down pouncing on the squirming form. Straddling his hips he gave the other a hard slap to the face his eyes dangerous. "Shut up you little bitch. Stop your damn whining, or I'll give you something to cry about." he snarled grabbing the others chin in a tight grip. Leaning down he slammed his lips down in a bruising kiss pushing his tongue past the boundaries of the others lips. The victim didn't listen as he whimpered and cried louder his desperate calls muffled by the lavender-haired bladers mouth. Pulling away Bryan quickly found himself tired of foreplay desperate for release, sitting up he moved back taking full control of the limp body wrapping the tan legs around his torso.

Positioning himself at the other teens opening he shoved in dryly not bothering with stretching the other, or even using lubricant. Giving an appreciative grunt his pulled out of the virgin entrance slamming in hard reveling in the scream he received. Pulling out again he repeated the same motion repeatedly feeling himself nearing his climax. Reaching forward he grasped the others erect length giving it a rough jerk. "STOP! PLEASE STOP!" the other yelled with a hoarse voice tears flowing from his eyes wetting his desert dry face. Pumping the dripping cock his movements became quick and erratic his body hitting spasms as he shout his own release.

/end flashback/

"What did you do to me? What did you fucking do to me!" Bryan shouted feeling tears well up in his own eyes his voice desperate.

"What do you mean, 'what did we do to you?" the other played his crystal eyes full of amusement.

"You know what I'm talking about!" Bryan screamed grabbing the front of Tala's shirt and slamming him against the wall. His heart was racing, eyes full of pain and anger.

"Jeez, if this is how you say thank-you I'm definitely not getting you a birthday present." Kai joked a smirk placing itself on his rose lips.

"SHUT THE FUCK UP HIWATARI!" Bryan sneered turning on the other landing a solid punch across his jaw.

Standing up Kai colleted himself keeping a cool exterior as he popped his jaw back into it's proper place. Shaking his head he gave a small smile before rounding giving the falcon a slicing fist to the gut, watching with amused eyes as the other doubled over in pain. "We just gave you a nudge Bryan, you took it from there. You raped him and you can never change that. And now, you are just like us." the last words ghosted throughout the room cutting through the air like a knife in butter.

"No. No that can't be true." Bryan shook his head standing only to trip over himself, "I-I didn't, I couldn't of." he stuttered his mind shattering as he stomach started to churn.

"Yes you did." Tala smirked standing over the fallen teammate.

Burying his face in his hands Bryan felt the tears streak down his face, 'I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, Rei.'

A/N

Yeah it really sucked, but what can I do...nothing really. Review anyway, even if it's to tell me how badly I screwed up this thing. Well catcha' later.

-Tawnie