Yeah, so this is my fan fic and it will probably be long. So, be prepared.
Disclaimer: No owning Inuyasha for me. :( I wanted to own my own demon.
Inuyasha was sitting in a small tree overlooking a vast field. She was on his mind of course. She was always on his mind. Everything he did or – saw someone else do – would remind him of her. She plagued his mind constantly and he didn't care; in fact, he rather enjoyed the thought of her. No one exactly understood why, but no one asked either.
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I woke up and to no surprise he wasn't there. He never is anymore. I stretched and went outside to look for him, though I already knew where he was. Of course, sitting up in the small tree, thinking about her. I can't blame him though; they were in love, and she betrayed him. Then again it was only Naraku pitting them against each other.
I got closer hoping he wouldn't catch me. The morning wind that carried my scent to his nose gave me away, and he turned to look at me. His face had a pleasant expression, but his golden eyes didn't deceive the pain he was really hiding underneath. Oh how I wished that it was me he was thinking about, but such thoughts were foolish and I now they were wrong.
I smiled back up at him before turning and walking away. There was no way I'd be able to hold myself together in front of him. I walked back up to the hut and greeted Miroku, Sango and Shippo. They were all hungry so I promised to get some of my food from my bag. Kirara meowed with excitement and rubbed on my legs as I retrieved the food from my bag.
The morning was just like any other morning. Miroku continuously tried to rub Sango's butt. Shippo talked so fast that you couldn't understand what he was saying. And Inuyasha stayed outside not talking to anyone. My mind was a million miles away, worrying about Inuyasha, but I still managed to fool Miroku and the rest into thinking nothing was wrong, I commented regularly, laughing at the appropriate times just enough to keep their suspicions at bay.
When traveled I chose to stay with Sango instead of riding on Inuyasha's back. I couldn't even be near him anymore without thinking of how much pain was in his eyes. As much as I hated to admit it. I loved Inuyasha, and knowing that he cared for someone else who was dead instead of me hurt. I couldn't wish her away; that would be extremely cruel and heartless. I had to come up with some other solution.
That night when we were camping out, Inuyasha came up to me. He sat down next to me and looked out at the stars. For the longest time he didn't say anything and I almost wondered if he knew I was even there. He turned to me, for once, an unfamiliar emotion burning in his eyes.
"Kagome?"
Wow, I was surprised he actually remembered my name. Wait, calm down. No need to be rude, he's having a rough time. Then again so are we but you don't see us complaining. Ugh, there I go again.
"Kagome, are you happy here? Are you happy with me?"
He continued with questions, but I ignored them. I didn't want to here the rest. He was asking me the same questions I was asking myself everyday, and I still didn't answer them even to myself.
"Kagome, I want to leave and search for Kikyo. But, I will stay if you want me to."
My heart dropped to my butt. There was no right answer to that. I couldn't keep him here, he wanted more than anything to find her. But I couldn't let him go, I needed him. I knew either answer would hurt someone. I knew he wouldn't really stay if I asked him to. I heard the way he strained to even say her name.
I knew what I had to do. I stood up and ran. I ran all the way to the shelter where everyone waited. I could here Inuyasha call my name but I didn't look back. I grabbed my book bag and my bike and kept running. I found a path and hoped on my bike pedaling as fast as I could. This time I could hear everyone calling my name.
I felt searing hot tears rolling down my cheeks and it only drove me to pedal faster. I found the familiar well, and prepared to jump in. I looked back only once. Inuyasha was staring at me in disbelief but he didn't say or do anything. I closed my eyes and turned back toward the well. This was the last time I would see him. It was the only solution. I could at least make the best of my final goodbye.
I turned around and crashed my lips against his, hard. He didn't move. I could feel my tears flowing quicker. He wound his arms around me and secured me there. He uttered one single word while I cried into his chest.
"Kikyo."
I looked up at him and pulled away. It was true, I meant nothing to him. I turned and jumped into the well without so much as a spark of doubt. I meant nothing to him.
That's the fist chapter. Now you need to click the little review button and leave me a message. Good or bad, but no flammers. There is a difference between flamming and constructive criticism. Sorry for grammer/spelling errors I'm only human. . .unfortunately though sometimes I wonder. . Anyway I'll update ASAP!
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