Almost forgot: Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters from Naruto.
Warning: This is a SasuNaru with a bit of Sakura kind of story. Yes, there is Shounen-ai...maybe a bit of yaoi down the road. For those of you who don't know what Shounen-ai or yaoi is, it's boy's love (aka: guyxguy). If you can't appreciate this pairing, the back button is right there. No need for flame. Be civilized and use that back button, it's your best friend.
As for the rest of you, please enjoy the story!
Sakura twisted her fingers around the fabric of her shirt anxiously. Currently, she was watching Naruto go through his katas as he warmed up for early morning training. She had double checked at the front mission's desk to see if he had any assignments to do today, and was relieved to know that he was free the entire week.
She had arrived that morning to training ground 7 and sat down to watch Naruto train after greeting him.
Say it. Just tell him already!
She felt ice spread throughout her body and stop her from opening her mouth just as she gathered the resolve to call out to him and tell him about what happened. Internally, she screamed at herself. She couldn't go on like this. Every night since that incident with Sasuke had her waking up in a cold sweat and sobbing her heart out.
"What he doesn't know, won't hurt him." Sasuke had muttered the morning after.
It might not hurt him, Sakura thought darkly, but it sure as hell is eating me alive.
"Ne, Sakura-chan, is everything alright? You look a little pale."
She looked up at Naruto who was now standing in front of her with a worried expression on his face. His blue eyes shone with emotion so easily understood by anyone. In them, she could see his love and concern for her.
"Sakura-chan?"
Again, that feeling of ice spread through her and made her unable to speak. Her heart pounded in her chest and her tongue felt heavy. She stared up at him in near panic, light green eyes wide with fear and regret.
Without even realizing it, she had grasped onto the front of his orange jumpsuit with her shaking fingers. She couldn't even hear Naruto's frantic calling, asking her if she was in pain. What was it that was hurting her?
Somewhere in Sakura's mind, Naruto's words echoed. What was it that was hurting her? Her mind scoffed. All she did was betray his trust, his bonds, his love for her and Sasuke. She had no right to feel hurt, after all, he would hurt much worse once she told him. Her breathing hitched and a wave of vertigo hit her.
She just wanted it to STOP. Her heart pounded rapidly and her breathing was shallow. God, she felt sick from keeping all the secrecy inside-the guilt. She couldn't take one more day, one more hour, minute or second of Naruto's trusting face and smiles. His laughs that would resound with joy and happiness when all three of them were together. The trust and love he had in them.
And we've broken that trust. We've betrayed him. He's going to hate us. He's going to hate me. Hate. Naruto is going to hate. Naruto's heart will be broken.
Tears started spilling from her eyes then. Naruto. Sweet, caring, brave, honest Naruto. The one who always loved and thought he wasn't worthy of any love in return. How could she have thought that he wouldn't break at first? He was so strong and yet fragile.
"Dobe, what's going on?"
Sakura froze.
"Teme, I don't know. She looked like she was sick or something, then just started crying."
"Hn."
Sakura felt herself being lifted off the ground by her shoulders and tossed onto a broad shoulder.
"I'll take her to Tsunade to see what's wrong with her. You just keep on training, Naruto."
"Are you sure, Sasuke? Maybe I should go with-"
"It's fine, dobe." Sasuke interrupted with a quick kiss to Naruto's mouth.
Sakura heard Naruto give a resigned sigh. "Fine. I'll see you at home later tonight, then."
"Hn." Sasuke turned around and started heading off in the general direction of the Hokage tower.
"Hope you feel better, Sakura-chan!" Naruto called and waved his arms around like a little kid as Sasuke carried her off.
"What were you thinking?" Sasuke asked in a deadly calm voice.
After circling back, he had taken off for the apartment where he lived with Naruto instead of the Hokage tower to see Tsunade.
He had tossed Sakura onto the couch and began pacing back and forth. Meanwhile, Sakura sat there with a vacant look in her eyes, hand grasping the cloth of her shirt in front of her tummy.
Sasuke spared her a glance as he continued pacing the floor. Honestly, he almost panicked when he saw Naruto and Sakura together, especially with the latter crying. Luckily, judging by Naruto's concerned look, she hadn't told him anything.
"Well?" Intoned Sasuke when Sakura didn't answer.
He wasn't fazed at all when she looked up at him with haunted and tired eyes. As far as he was concerned, what happened that night a month ago was an accident brought on by the consumption of too much alcohol.
Naruto had been away for a mission that had taken two months. Sasuke was still on probation and not allowed on any missions outside Konoha, and had decided to visit the bar. Coincidentally, he had bumped into Kakashi, Yamato, Sai and Sakura, who were well into their fourth or fifth drink.
They had left around ten. Kakashi and Sai had a mission the day after and Yamato was helping out at the Hokage tower. Sakura was too inebriated to go home by herself, and so Sasuke was left to deal with her. Though, he was also slightly tipsy due to a comment Kakashi had made about Sasuke being too delicate for sake.
Vaguely, he remembered what happened between them that night after they made their way to Sasuke and Naruto's apartment, it being the closest.
He couldn't remember how it even started, just that he was feeling too stuffy in his clothes and the hands on his body felt good against his flushed skin.
Suddenly, they were naked and going at it right there on the living room floor.
Sasuke pinched the bridge of his nose. The morning after that was awful. Sasuke had woken up to a warm body, and still in his drowsy state, had pulled it closer to himself thinking it was Naruto. When he nuzzled into the head of his supposed dobe, he had found that the usual smell of musk, sweat and ramen wasn't there. The more he thought of it, the more he was starting to realize that it was not his dobe he was holding in his arms. The body was much too soft and thin.
An accident. That's what they had deemed that incident as. An accident that was kept just between the two of them.
Sasuke narrowed his eyes. Just the two of them. Yet, there Sakura was. Opening her big mouth and almost condemning him to a life of hell if Naruto ever found out.
"I can't do it anymore, Sasuke. It hurts too much to keep it from him." Sakura finally answered. Her voice was pitifully weak.
"Hn."
"I keep having nightmares of Naruto saying he hates me. That he can't believe how I could do this to him." Sakura kept going. Her voice getting higher in pitch.
"Hn."
"But, we didn't mean to. I mean, we were drunk. It's not like we did it on purpose!" Sakura cried out.
"Hn."
A yell alerted Sasuke to a lamp being thrown in his direction, and caught it just in time before it smashed into his face.
"You asshole! How can you just stand there so calmly! How can you go on deceiving Naruto like this? Don't you feel anything?" Sakura panted in short angry breaths.
Sasuke put the lamp down on the table behind him. "I would appreciate it if you wouldn't break anything. Naruto chose all the furniture, and he would be sad if any of it was broken."
"Sasuke!"
"I know already!" Sasuke yelled back, startling Sakura. She remained speechless as she watched Sasuke stare at the lamp on the table with an unreadable expression. Sasuke had never yelled at her that way before, as if almost in desperation.
"Of course I feel guilty. I'm only acting calm right now because I don't want to worry him. I don't want him to hate me forever for a mistake that happened once. I don't even want to think that it did happen. I just want to forget it ever did, and go on living like how we used to." Sasuke closed his eyes as if willing everything to disappear from existence.
It was at times like these that he wished his blood limit would just burn the memory from his mind, not even leaving the ashes behind, and hope that in doing that, erase it from ever having happened in reality.
Sakura stated at the floor. She understood where he was coming from. She had also tried to make like it had never happened. It worked. For about three days. Whenever they got together, there would be an awkward atmosphere hanging over the two of them. Even Naruto would pick up on it and ask if everything was alright.
"But, we can't. Sasuke, it happened. There's no changing that." Sakura reasoned calmly. She felt a little calmer than before, now that she knew she wasn't the only one suffering from the guilt.
"…"
"We need to tell him. Before things get worse." Sakura reached out to tug at Sasuke's sleeve. "Because it is going to get worse if we don't tell him soon."
"How could it be worse?" Sasuke laughed humorlessly.
Sakura remained silent for a while. When she didn't say anything, Sasuke finally turned to look at her. She was still holding onto his sleeve with one hand, but she was doing something with her other hand that got his heart beating and his blood running cold.
"No."
"Sasuke-"
"NO!" He spun out of her grasp when she tried to take a step toward him. His mind was going a mile a minute, trying to figure out why. Just why did this have to happen to him? To them?
"Sasuke," Sakura started in a broken whisper, "I'm pregnant. Four weeks along."
His fingers carded through his hair, almost ripping them out by the ends. What was he going to do? A baby? What was he going to say? What's Naruto going to say?
"What do we do?" Sakura whispered, absentmindedly rubbing her lower abdomen. Sasuke glared at the spot where her hands rubbed soothingly over her skin.
Just as he was about to say something, another voice interrupted them. "Yes, what are you going to do?"