Okay so I shooulllddd be updating on my other stories *cough* but I'm not lol.

Here you go….

Waiting…

"Edward we should keep it secret," she looked up lovingly and I nodded my head in agreement. She was my love, my live, the other, more better half then me and no one is going to get in the way of me marring this beautiful woman.

"Okay, love." I smiled at her. I had asked her to merry me, she said yes. That is all that I needed to know before I was sure that I didn't care if any one knew all, that mattered was that she said yes, and she loved me back.

"Let get you home before your dad notice I kidnapped you," I smiled as she snuggled closer to my side.

"I don't care if he notices I just wasn't to be with you." she sighed and my hart warmed I felt like I could scream from the roof tops 'I'M IN LOVE WITH ISABELLA SWAN!' she was amazing. I looked down from her mahogany locks to her heart shaped face and big sparkly brown eyes and down her curvy body, she was perfect, and mine.

"I would rather not get shot by your dad today," I joked and laughed as she scolded at me, she was so cute. "You're cute when you pout like that" I commented and let my hands rest on her waist.

"Really now," her voice was husky and looked up with lust filled eyes.

"Yeah…" I breathed and inched my face closer to hers. she met me have way crashing her lips to mine, and I felt her moan into my mouth as my tongue slipped past her lips making me pull her closer to me. eventually we had to come up for air gasping for breath.

"Soon love, soon," I said which made her pout again making me chuckle, pecking her on the lips once more before pulling her to me to walk to the car.

We drove in peaceful silence, me holding her hand and rubbing circles with my thumb.

"So… are we going to tell anyone about the proposal?" she asked and I could practically hear my heart speed up at the thought that I soon get to merry this amazing women.

"Only if you want to honey," I slanted my head over in her direction giving her a warm smile.

'EDWARD LOOK OUT!" she screamed and I quickly looked over my shoulder so see two bright lights before every thing when black….

*****

"Mr. Cullen, Mr. Cullen please calm down we need to see if nothing is wrong with you." the doctor instructed as he tried to keep me seated on the stupid chair. I needed to see her, make her she was okay I could care less about MY stupid heath, she was my life line my only hope of survival with out her I'm nothing anyways.

"GET OUT OF MY FACE,I DON'T GIVE A FUCK IF ANYTHING IS WRONG WITH ME I NEED TO SEE HER NOW!" I yelled and he slowly back up with wide eyes, good. I dashed out of the room as fast as my sore legs would let me, looking at labels as I past doors before I finally read one Isabella swan. Now slowly I opened the door and gasped at the sight of my angel covered in tubes. No not her.

I let out a sob as I fell to my knees clutching her blackest in my fist. Why was this happening to me, to her?

"Son," I heard me father and felt his hand on my shoulder, I quickly shook it off. "Edward let's go home it three in the morning Charlie is coming and you need some rest. We can come back in a few hours." He said and I slowly looked up at him.

"Come back in a few hours? This is all my fault and you say let's take a nap and come back in a few hours." By this time Alice and my family has showed up looking at me sadly. "None of you know what I feel right now do you?" my voice was raising and all of them just started back. "I love her! With out her I don't want to sleep or even eat!" I shouted and every ones eye got wide this was the first time they had heard me say that. As far as they know we were just two people who met in school a few months ago. "She is my EVERYTHING and I asked her to merry me!" I yelled louder Esme and Alice were now in tears Emmett just looked like some one smacked him his eyes wide. "And you know what she said?! She said YES AND SHE LOVES ME TOO!!" by this time I couldn't even talk any more I just stood turned away from them sitting in the chair next to her bed. I looked up at her face so beautiful and peacefully unconscious. My body shook with more sobs as I clung on to any hope I could get, kissing her arm and lying my head on the bed.
I looked over to see my family looking at me their faces crushed Alice finally walked over and have me a hug, I cried on her tinny shoulder for support. Soon if felt every one surround me with a hug.

*flash back*

I crept up to her window knocking slightly, I needed to see her.

She came to the widow looking beautiful in her shorts and tang top.

"What do you want Edward?" she asked irradiated. God she must hate me.

"I'm sorry," I apologized looking down.

"There is nothing to be sorry about," she said and when to close her widow but I stopped her.

"Go on a walk with me?" I pleaded.

"Why would I go with YOU" ouch that hurt.

"Just a little drive of something," I suggested.

"Fine, but if my farther catches you then I wont object to him shooting you," her warned and thought I was going to piss my pants.

"Come on Cullen," she ordered as we ran across the lawn.

I drove quickly to the beach were we met, and looked as her face slowly turn up into a smile and she looked over at me.

"You remembered," she said her voice shaking and I nodded.

"How could I forget?" I smiled as I led her out of the car and to the sandy beach.

We sat down and watched the wave roll by.

"Why?" she asked breaking the silence and I knew at she was referring to.

"I didn't, you misunderstood she attached me, I couldn't stop it." I explained and she looked over at me a smiled.

"So you didn't ask her back out?" she sounded hopefully and I chucked.

"No why would I do that when I'm in love with someone else?" Whops, that wasn't supposed to come out, yet.

She jumped up angered walked away, okay maybe she didn't feel the same way.

"Bella look I'm sorry I scared you. Can we still be friends"? I asked hoping for at least that.

"No Edward we can not be friend when you're in love with someone eles hat is wrong!" I knew she would- wait what?

"Wait Bella I as saying I was in love with YOU!" I shouted to her and she froze and slowly turned around.

"w-what did y- you say?" she asked wide eye and I moved quickly to her side.

"I said I was in love with YOU, silly girl," I laughed brushing my hand across her cheek as blush began to rise up.

I slowly bent down and she looked up unsure before I brushed my lips on hers. She gasped and eagerly responded gripping my hair and tugging at my shirt. I groaned as she pulled closer to me letting me fell the warmth of her small body agents mine. All of a sudden we when crashing down both of us moaning as she landed on me. The kisses came more quick may hand trailed up her shirt as she gasped. I then stopped this is not how I wanted to do it on a crummy beach I wanted it to be special.

"Bella love?" I gasped out tying to get her attention almost giving up as I felt her grinned hard down on me making me let out a loud growl.

"What?" she asked breathless.

"Not now." I breathed. "I want it to be special." I gasped out still dibaiting if i really should stop her as she sucked down on my neck making me moan dipping my head back.

"This is spatial, I love you that's all that matters," she said I felt like I was glowing and I new it would be hard but I put my hand on her hip to make her stop moving though i desperately wanted her so keep on curling her hips again once i did.

"I know love but…" I tailed of getting an Idea.

"What? Edward tell me." she said she I looked at her and smiled.

"You love me?" I asked making sure before I asked the next quetion.

"More then any thing," She stated her eyes showing so much emotion it melted my heart.

"Merry me," I said and she froze.

"W-What?"

"I said merry me. Please?" I asked staring at her, her face e slowly light up in a smile and she nodded.

My whole body burst and I hugged her to me showing her face with butterfly kisses.

"You have no idea how happy you made me," I whispered she smirked.

"I think I have an idea…" she trailed of and my face reddened and I heard her giggle.

"I love you Bella, so much."

"I also love you, more then ever." She whispered back, and pulled her to me so we could go back to watching the waves

**end of flash back**

The happiest day of my life suddenly seamed like the most painful day.

My head laid by her body, listening to the genital rhythm of her heart beat that kept me breathing with her.

I waited forever for this day to come; now I'm waiting for her again but I would always be hare when she needed me forever.

But for now I am still stuck waiting…

WHAT DO YOU THINK? Please review! That was my first time getting close to a lemon the closet I have ever gotten was a kiss/peck wow right? was it good? Bad?

ANY ONE ELSE EXIDED THAT THE LOG IN IS WORKING CUZ I WAS SREAMING 'YAY!' WHEN IT WORKED!!!

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