Author's note: Because I refuse to actually go on my own computer and type this up, I'm just going to use my mother's computer and hope for the best. So, school is coming up for me tomorrow, actually, my first day is tomorrow, and I'm up so late. I feel dirty. So, this is going to be a five chapter story, really short and simple. This story was inspired by a youtube video I watched called 'When Five Fell' you can search it up. It's actually pretty nice.
My other stories: I will try to update as soon as I can – but my stupid brain keeps on making up new ideas for new stories and I'm trying to pack it all in. D: It's so stressing. I hate my creative brain, if I could only right this good in my English essays.
So, let's get this started.
When Five Fell:
Renji's story:
I knew when it happened, I knew when I started developing feelings for her.
We had been best friends since we were kids. Of course, I think my feelings developed after the consistent games of playing husband and wife.
We lost our first kiss to each other. I remember feeling my heart pound just a little bit harder after that for her.
We had been five years old when we first kissed. The first time our innocent lips had touched, in which we hastily stumbled apart, wiped our lips on the back of our hands as if we had gotten a disease from each other, and shrieked a loud 'ew' at each other and giggled.
I never lost those feelings after all of this time.
Instead, while I wished heavily they would go away after four years, they became stronger over time. I didn't know what it was. Maybe it was the deep connection I felt with her, our first kiss initiated this, I wondered if she still remembered.
We were eighteen now, and my heart pounded every time I looked at her, and she looked at me with her warm indigo eyes.
I remember all the times she would come to my house and plop herself on the couch and made her presence known.
"Renji, I'm here! Ready for movie night?" She asked me in her voice, soothing, not too sugary, but not too rough either. I peeked at her from the kitchen as I put the freshly popped popcorn in a large bowl and dribbled melted chocolate on top and grabbed a few cans of soda for the both of us. This meal was her favorite to consume when watching a movie with me. Every Friday night, it's our little tradition.
"Yeah, I heard you." I said as I plopped down on the couch right next to her, put the popcorn bowl on her lap, and put the cold drinks on the table. "Which movie?" I asked as I scattered the movie selections and she tapped a finger on her lips. Her soft pink lips folded over a chocolate covered popcorn piece as she thought. A smile hinting at her lips, which I stared at for a while. She picked up the DVD box for some cheesy romance movie I knew she would want to watch. I snorted at her decision, just to see her laugh as she slammed a light punch into my bicep. I inserted in the movie and I pressed play.
We don't talk during movie night. We just watch the movie, and just enjoy each other's company, that's the way it's supposed to be. That's normal for us. I lift up an arm and pull it around her shoulders, and she automatically leans in and rests her head on my shoulder. I breathe in her scent gently, vanilla and wild roses flitted into nostrils. I rest my chin on her inky black locks. I feel warm as she snuggles closer to me.
"I want something like that." She tells me quietly and I keep on staring at the screen.
"Something like what?" I know exactly what she's talking about. She's talking about the sweet romance the couple shares in the movie. She wants someone to make her feel that way.
"Like that couple Renji, it looks nice." She confesses and I shake my head and smirk while I chuckle at her.
"Falling in love isn't all it's cracked up to be." No, it's not, especially when the person you're in love with doesn't or probably doesn't feel the same way as you.
"You've never fallen in love before Renji." She throws back at me, she doesn't know that I'm secretly in love with her, she doesn't. I haven't confessed, and I've been in love with her for thirteen years.
"You don't know that." I mutter quietly as my lids feel heavy and I close them without her noticing.
"You would tell me when you do right? We're best friends, we're obligated to tell our most precious secrets to each other right?" She asks me as I can barely hear you, I'm drifting off to sleep, I feel comfortable.
"You know I would, you would do the same right?" I ask her and I can just imagine her smiling at the silly question.
"Of course I would fool, we're best friends, I tell you everything." I smile and I believe her words as I fall asleep on her.
We're drifting apart, I can feel it too.
I don't know why we are, but I have a pretty good damn reason on why we are too.
Two words: Kurosaki Ichigo.
As my hands grasp the bowl of melted chocolate, ready to pour over the bowl of freshly popped popcorn, I'm wondering why she still hasn't come yet. If she missed this one, it would be a whole two months she's missed out on our movie night.
I shake my head, she's been cancelling constantly ever since she started getting close to Ichigo. I know he likes her too, but she hasn't picked up. She's just oblivious to a guy's feelings towards her. She's always been that way. She still hasn't figured out that Kaien, Hitsugaya, Hisagi, and Grimmjow like her too, hell, they might even love her. But what's worse, is she still doesn't know that I'm in love with her.
I sit on the couch and wait patiently for her.
Ten minutes later, I get her phone call. She's probably running late. I flip open my cell phone to accept her call.
"Hey, you coming?" I ask hesitantly, I can hear her soft melodic laugh in the background before she hears me.
"Oh, hey Renji! I'm sorry, but I'll have to cancel again, sorry Renji." She says in a sorrow voice and I swallow a lump in my throat, I feel so abandoned.
"It's fine, maybe next week?" I ask hesitantly, knowing I'll get the same answer every time. I wait for her typical response she's been pulling lately when she cancels, 'Of course! Next week as always Renji!'
"Of course! Next week as always Renji!" She says in a chipper voice, I chuckle bitterly, knowing it's a lie.
"Alright then, you go do whatever you have to do." I respond and I can feel her smile as she fingers the Chappy chain connecting to her cellphone that I gave her a year ago.
"Love you best friend!" She chirps as she hangs up and I look down at my bowl of popcorn. I sigh, is that all it's going to ever be?
Just her love me as a best friend? Life was cruel.
It's been half a year since she started dodging our movie nights, and I'm sure I know why.
Kurosaki Ichigo.
I see her at school all the time like I usually do, but then, on Friday, I wait for her every night, and she doesn't call. Hell, she doesn't even bother to call me anymore to cancel, she just doesn't show up. And still, I'm dumb enough to fix that bowl of chocolate covered popcorn for her and just wait for her to magically walk through the door and snuggle up close to me.
It was another lonely Friday night and I munched on the same stupid chocolate covered popcorn as I scrolled on my laptop, no longer did I visit the movie store, because I knew she would never come anyways. I scrolled on Facebook and saw a picture of her and Ichigo smiling into her phone camera while they watched this new film that had come out this week. In another picture, I saw Ichigo feed her chocolate covered popcorn, I felt sick.
I realized she wasn't there to snuggle up with me anymore. There wasn't going to be anymore movie nights, because she was wasting her Friday nights, with Kurosaki Ichigo. I couldn't help but despise him, he stole my best friend away from me. The girl I loved, and all I could do, is pretend to be the understanding best friend.
God damn it, I hated my role in her life, why couldn't I be something more?
I stirred my Dr. Pepper in the large glass with my straw as I waited for her. She was free on Saturday, and she told me, to repay me for all of the times she had skipped out on movie night, she would treat me to a free lunch.
She was paying, and she told me to come since she had important news.
The waitress barreled up and tried to make herself look pretty in front of me.
"Are you ready to order yet sir?" She asked as she blinked long lashes at me, I didn't even look at her as I continued to stir my Dr. Pepper.
"No, not yet, my friend hasn't come yet." The waitress frowned and then she smiled prettily again at me.
"Well, tell me when your friend comes so I can help you." She commented as she skipped away and I shook my head. I heard the doorbell ring and I saw her take the seat right in front of me at our table and she smiled.
"Sorry about that Renji, couldn't find what outfit to wear." I examined her, she was wearing a simple lavender lace dress with a white cardigan.
"It's fine." I said smiling at her, another waiter came and he took our order and went away and returned shortly with Rukia's chocolate milkshake.
I thought she looked beautiful, even if she claimed she didn't know what to wear. I was hoping that she was trying to look her best for me, but I knew it wasn't possible.
"I have important news to tell you!" She chirped and I smiled at her.
"What is it?" Before she can even answer, the waiter brings the food and she smiles excitingly at it.
"Our food is here, let's eat!" She says and I pick up my cheese burger and watch her dig into her pasta.
We finished the food and I take a quiet sip of Dr. Pepper and she links her fingers together and places it under her chin.
"Guess what best friend?" She taunts at me and I roll my eyes at her childish behavior.
"What?" I ask nonchalantly, but my heart's pounding, I want to know why she's asked me to lunch. Was she going to confess that she was too, in love with me? Or would it be something that would break my heart? I was trying to be positive.
"Well, you know how I said on our last movie night that best friends tell each other everything important?" She asks and I nod quietly, holding in that our last movie night was about half a year ago.
I loss count after half a year.
"I have something really important to tell you Renji." She continues and she sucks in her breath as she smiles giddily.
"Me and Ichigo are together! Isn't that great?" She exclaims, there it was, a happy gleam painted on her face, and I struggle to keep on mine. I felt my heart splitting in two, this wasn't fair, not at all.
I looked out the window and stared at a little girl tugging on her mother's hand.
"When did this happen?" I ask in a bored voice and I can see her still smiling, she must be too excited.
"It happened about a couple of days ago, we made it official on our most recent date. It was a bit unexpected though!" She says and I turn at her and smile and place a hand over hers.
"I'm happy for you." I say, even though I know that I'm struggling not to scream at her that I'm in love with her and she should've been with me. I look at her and examine her face, the face I fell in love with, the girl I was in love with was sitting right before me. Only, she was excited not because she was with me, but because she was in love with another guy, who wasn't me.
It hurts so much. I feel my insides boiling, they're screaming in desperation of trying to repair my splitting heart, my heart pounds, this is the end. I've lost my chance, I know it too.
"I knew you'd be the right person to tell Renji! I love you best friend." She says as the door rings again and Ichigo comes in and sees her. She stands up and hugs him, throwing her arms around his shoulders, she used to do the same with me.
He looks back at her and they share a tender kiss, I wince.
I wish that was me kissing her, but I know it won't be.
"Oh, Renji, I've got to go now for a date with Ichigo, is that okay?" She asks me as she intertwines hands with him, I wish that was my hand.
"Yeah, it's fine." Getting up and I get out my wallet ready to pay and she covers my hand with hers. I try not to jerk it away from her, it hurts. I hurt so much.
"Oh you don't have to pay! I already gave them money." She exclaimed as she gives me a gentle hug and then we all walk out the door and she says good bye to me and they walk off, abudant in happiness.
I stare as the two walk and disappear in the crowds of Karakura Town.
I keep on staring, even when both are long gone and I grip my fist.
Why Rukia, why?
Why couldn't it have been me?
Why did it have to be him that stole you away?
Author's note: This is the end of Renji's view on the relationship. When Five Fell will continue when I feel like updating on all of my stories again, but I've got them pretty much planned out. I hope you enjoyed this and I hope to see you guys again!
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