We're not as strong as we seem.
We get in trouble.
We get hurt.
And the people we care about the ones we don't intend to hurt get caught in the crossfire because of our petty jealousy.
But no matter what we still try to salvage what life we have to cling to.
(Set a few years after shadow souls…)
After what happened we split off, lost contact. Every once in a while I would get a call from Matt but even that was rare. He was the one who decided to stay in Fell's Church. Stefan had basically disappeared off of the face of the earth, I wouldn't be surprised if he were actually dead though I hate to think about it. Elena…I don't like hearing or even thinking about her. When Damon became human everything changed…she changed. It tore Stefan apart to watch her choose him, it tore me up as well. I couldn't even believe that I had any feelings toward Damon. Now days it disgusted me. But still I couldn't help knowing that it was inevitable that it would happen.
"Bonnie! Someone's here to see you!" Meredith called up the stairs
She moved in with me after Alaric broke up with her. He said he couldn't deal with this and that it was best that they weren't together. So she and I had been rooming together. We picked up the broken pieces for each other.
"Alright!" I called back
I closed the diary then hid it under my bed. Going downstairs I froze to see Stefan standing in the doorway.
"Stefan!" I said excitedly as he hugged me " I thought you had died or something."
"We'll go with or something." he said chuckling a little
"So are you coming in or are you just going to stand there?"
"I'll take that as an invitation." he grinned
"Hey Bon I'm heading out for a bit." Meredith said as she walked out the door
"Okay." I replied mindlessly
Stefan and I went int the living room and sat on the couch.
"So how was it disappearing off of the face of the earth?" I asked curiously
"Peaceful I guess. Then I remembered I still have friends and thought I'd come see you." he said putting his hand on mine
"I really am sorry." I whispered
I couldn't imagine feeling the hurt that Stefan feels or had felt. He did everything he could to be with Elena but she chose his his brother instead.
"Don't be Bonnie it's not your fault."
"Yeah that's probably why I don't date. I'd be afraid of being like Elena." I blurted
Silence filled the room.
"I definitely don't think you'd be like Elena. You're the one who would have to be able to trust someone with everything before giving them anything in my opinion...if that makes sense." he said breaking the silence
I just nodded thinking of Matt. how we had attempted to be together but he always got angry because he would compare himself to Damon and his own accusations against himself is what pulled us apart. I just shook the thoughts of the past from my head. I've been down that road before it didn't work out. I'm so screwed I thought to myself.
"You want to go out?" he asked catching me off guard
"Wait, what?" I asked
Was this the same Stefan I knew? Since when did he ever ask me to go out? Oh wait never. We never hung out with just us. It was seriously strange.
"As friends, I figured you're tired of sitting here around the house doing nothing."
"Oh…right, sure." I blushed
He just smiled and pulled me up to my feet.