Chapter 1: Realizations & Blame

I just couldn't stand to see one more person die because of me. Because of my existence, I thought. Tonight Klaus almost killed Jeremy, and he would stop at nothing to get what he wants. Which is me, the doppleganger.

Now it's my fault that Alaric is in the hospital, after he pushed Jeremy out of the way of the car that almost took his life. I flinched as the scene replayed in my head. The guilt coursed through me, shaming me. If I could just drain my blood and give it all to Klaus, so he would just leave the people I love alone, I would.

I knew that it could never be that simple, if I died it would hurt to many people. Jeremy, Alaric, Bonnie, Caroline, Damon, and probably Stefan too. My heart broke as I thought of each one of the people I was hurting. If I died it would never be enough for Klaus, he wanted more.

I knew what I had to do. I had to go with Klaus, let him take me far away, so he sould use my blood for hybrids. I had a few conditions for Klaus, though. He wouldn't get off that easy.

I packed my bag, throwing in almost all my clothes. I left my cell phone on my bed, knowing Damon and Stefan would try and track me. I left 8 goodbye letters on my bed, each varying in size. I almost cried as I sat there, staring at the letters, knowing how they would break so many hearts.

I turned, pushing the thought of it away, and swallowing down my emotions. It was going to be a very hard day.

I heard Jeremy's voice at the bottom of the steps calling me down stairs for school. I grabbed my room, and with one lat wistful lok at my room, I shut the door behind me wiht a sigh. I walked down the stairs, taking in every inch of the house I could, a million memories flowing into my mind, knowing this would not be my home anymore.

We arrived at the school, students bustling about easily. I was jealous of all their lives, never burdened with the horrors that followed me everywhere I went. To everyone else it seemed as if I breezed through the day, as I moved quickly from class to class, keeping mostly to myself. But what they didn't see was how the day seemed like an eternity for me, and how my stomach twisted in knots, incessant thoughts of fear consuming me, pulling me away from reality.

The last bell of the day rang, and my heart thumped loudly. I walked toward my car, searching the crowd for Jeremy. I saw him taking to Tyler, and I approached him, waiting to rattle off an excuse for a reason I couldn't give him a ride home today. He turned to me with that sweet smile of his.

"Hey, Elena." said his voice calm and casual, "Me and Tyler are gonna go up to see Alaric in the hospital, you wanna come?"

"I would Jer, but I'm not feeling well, I'm just gonna head home. Okay?" I said, trying my best to keep my voice from being shaky.

"You want me to come home with you? We can see Ric later, If you want." he said his smiling disappearing and his eyes full of concern.

"No, thanks. I'm okay, Jeremy I'll see you later." I turned to walk back to my car, but spun around and gave Jeremy a quick hug, knowing it would be the best goodbye I would be able to give.

I turned back walking towards my car, practically speed-walking. My goal was to avoid Stefan, Caroline, and Bonnie, and find Rebekah. I saw the blonde heading towards her expensive car, after giving a smile to Matt, got in her car and started it. I quickly got in and started my car following her.

I pulled out of the parking lot, relieved. I had made it this far, and I had to be strong to finish this plan, because it certainly wasn't easy. I followed Rebekah's car through the silent country side once we got out of the main part of Mystic Falls. As I drove in silence I thought about the letters I had left, reciting them in my head, hoping they were enough to express how I felt.

Dear Jeremy,

I am so sorry. Everything that's happened to you, is all my fault. You almost died yesterday because of me, and I cannot stand to put you in danger anymore. Your the best brother any one can ask for. Please, Stay safe. Now that I'm going with Klaus he has no reason to come after you. Try your best to stay away from supernatural beings, besides our friends, and always wear your ring for protection. Alaric and you are the only family I have, and I'm sorry for leaving you like this, but it's the only way I could keep you safe. You guys are all that's left of our small, broken family. Please, Stay together. I'm sorry Jeremy. I love you.

Dear Alaric,

Please take care of Jeremy for me. And take care of yourself. Thank you for everything. I am so sorry I have been a great cause of a lot of your pain. Don't come after me please. I'm going with Klaus, and I don't plan on returning. You're my family, Ric. Please don't hurt yourself trying to come find me. It's better this way. Trust me.

Dear Caroline,

You are like sister to me, and a person couldn't ask for a better friend than you. I blame myself for why you became a vampire, why all of this happened to you. Be careful and stay safe, I love you.

Dear Matt,

I'm sorry for everything that's ever happened between us. You mean a lot to me, and are an amazing guy. Try not to get to wrapped up in this vampire mess. I've put you through enough. I'm sorry.

Dear Tyler,

Take care of Caroline for me, okay? Thanks for everything.

Dear Damon,

I'm going to go with Klaus. It's the best thing to do. I know your going to try and come after me, please don't. TRy to move on wiht your life. I do love you, Damon, please remember that. I'm sorry.

Dear Stefan,

I'm leaving with Klaus, I'm not sure if you would come after me at this point, but if Damon attempts to persuade you don't listen to him. You guys need to take care of each other. I love you, Stefan, and I miss when it was just us. I understand it cannot be that way anymore. Stay Strong, I know you can do it.

Dear Bonnie,

I am so sorry, you've been through so much trying to save me. I cannot describe in words how sorry I am. I love you, and your my best friend. Be careful with your powers, and please don't try and find me. It' for the best. I love you. I'm so sorry.

I wish I could wrote everyone paragraph long letters, telling them how much I would miss them, but there wasn't time, so these would have to do. I gripped the steering wheel tightly, as I watched Rebekah pull up to the large mansion. I watched her go inside, and then pulled my car over, and got out. I started to walk up the drive way, my hands sweating. I was so nervous. I knew what I was doing was dangerous.

I told myself to be strong and was halfway to the large ornate home when I felt a whoosh, and suddenly landed on the ground hard. I cried out in pain and looked up to see Rebekah on top of me, her legs pinning my arms down. I struggled to get free, my heart going into a frenzy as I panicked.

"Honestly, dear. Hope stupid do you think I am?" she asked me her fangs bared and the veins beneath her darkened.

"Please. Rebekah. I'm sor-" I began to plead for my life, but then a blur rammed into Rebekah, pushing her off me. I sat up dazed, watching Klaus and Rebekah start to fight. Finally Klaus had her pinned.

"Now, little sister, you don't want to frighten are guest would you?" asked Klaus.

"Frighten is an understatement." Rebekah said through clenched teeth.

"Now, Rebekah, it's my home, and I say who gets killed and who doesn't. Okay?" said Klaus, keeping his calm.

"Fine. I'll leave her alone. For now." she spat back. They stood up with lightening speed, and Rebekah gave me one last sneer, before stalking away towards the house.

I stood up, as Klaus turned toward me, his eyes curious, but a small polite smile on his face.

"Now, love, To what do I owe the honor of having you come to my home?" Klaus asked.

My stomach flipped and my heart pounded as he addressed me. Stay calm, Elena, you are strong, you can do this, I thought.

I looked up to meet Klaus' eyes, and said, "I'm here to surrender."

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