A/N: Oke, just for the start. I'm known here as roses' evil twin and I wrote this…because I have too much spare time, to be honest. I want to know what ya'll think of it so comment please and give me tips but be nice please. That was about it, hope you enjoy! ;-)

Last sacrifice § Chapter 1

I was going crazy in here! I got up and started walking up and down my cell again.

It had been 5 days since I got convicted and all the time I had been locked up in this damned place. Lissa had only once visited, three days ago. She had tried hard to let her in and eventually she got an idea to get her in. She said she used her winning personality.

Yeah, right!

I got dizzy again so I sat down. barely eating something for 5 days doesn't really help me staying strong.

Yes, you heard right. 5 days without barely any food. They're probably afraid that I'll break out or something. Don't know how they're expecting me to do that though, you know, considering I'm being guarded by about 12, 13 guards.

Suddenly I heard muffled voices at the top of the stairs that lead down to my cell block. A dozen of guardians came down and I froze as I saw who was being dragged down between them and thrown in the cell opposite of me.

Dimitri.

I stumbled back to the wall till I hit it with my back and I slid down to the ground.

Ow, no!

No! No! No!

I thought they'd leave Dimitri alone because I surrendered, but they locked him up again anyway!

Damn it! Now it really had been for nothing!

In his cell Dimitri collapsed into a weak huddle of clothes. It was obvious he had been in a fight.

His lip was bleeding and he had a cut above his left eye. He even had a black eye! I had never seen him this…messed up! Not even during our field experience when he fought on a daily bases.

I noticed I was staring at him and I felt my heart ache.

I wanted to get back at the guardians for hurting him like this. I wanted to…

I called myself to a halt. Don't do it rose, don't do it! You can't attack them now anyway and besides, why would you? Dimitri doesn't love you anymore, remember?

I actually had my doubts, well; I was very confused about that since he gave me that look in court.

That look that said 'If you ask me, I'll fight till I bleed. I'll protect you, if that's what you need…' (A/N: I couldn't help the rhyme. Read it somewhere on internet and thought it fit perfect for R&D ;-))

As soon as the guardians moved away, leaving only two more behind to guard us, Dimitri cradled to his feet. He crawled over to the bars of his cell and his eyes lit up when they found mine.

He stared at me in awe, like he just had seen the thing that made him forget everything else in the world. I turned my head away from him, not able to look in his eyes without remembering how he used to look at me. Before…you know, that time…

"Roza…" he croaked. He was sounding even worse then he looked, but that wasn't what brought tears to my eyes.

It was that name. That fucking nickname he gave me.

Memories washed over me. How he used to laugh during our practices and then sigh when I had been my impulsive self again. "Oh, Roza…" he'd sigh and that was all it needed to make my whole freaking day…

But then you had something called The Irony of Life.

Today it only made me feel worse, because now, with the all the sweet words he had told me his last real words to me came back too.

Love fades, mine has.

They cut my heart open and pierced it, every time i repeated them in my head.

Which was a lot.

And now he was looking at me with such relieve in his (still beautiful) eyes that it seemed like he hadn't told me to move on, give up on him because he gave up on me. That he never told me he didn't love me anymore.

More talking at the top of the stairs and I only then realized that Lissa was coming down. My own emotions had been so out of control that I hadn't realized she was this near, probably trying to get to me again.

"Princess, she asked us to let no one visit her except her lawyer if it was really needed."

Lissa sighed defeated. Then her eyes lit up as a plan formed in her head. I groaned.

I taught her way too much sneakiness.

"Well, then I want to see Dimitri, he hasn't ordered me away has he?"

The guardian sighed and let Lissa pass.

I refused to look at her and turned my back to the bars.

Lissa called me in her head.

Rose? Rose, come on! Please let me talk to you! I just want to make sure you're alright! That they're treating you well…

A laugh escaped my lips.

It wasn't a very cheerful one though, more a 'can't believe you thought they might do that' laugh.

The guards had taken some distance from Dimitri and Lissa to give them privacy so they couldn't hear the next words that escaped my lips, even though I had sworn I wouldn't talk to them.

"What? Do you really think they'd threat the murderer of their queen like in a freaking spa?" I hissed sarcastically.

Lissa flinched at my words and I felt how much I hurt her through the bond. Immediately I felt so sorry, I wanted to get up and give her a hug through the bars.

I restrained myself with difficulty.

Dimitri had heard me too and through the bond I heard how he asked Lissa if I could hear her.

What a stupid question! Even for a rotten bastard for who I had risked everything to save him and then he had dumped me.

Lissa nodded as an answer and then she got an idea.

I was too shocked to react as she practically pulled me into her head and so it felt like Dimitris next words almost seemed to be really spoken to me.

Which made it all that much worse…

"Rose? Rose, I beg you… listen to me." His voice sounded so pained…

"We want to help you! We're going to get you out of here, but you have to let us come to you… I…I want to tell you Rose… what you mean to me. I need to speak to you, Rose. Please… please, Roza."

I stiffened.

He didn't just say that!

That swirling feeling that mastered me always when he said my name like that was paired with something else now…

Hate.

Hate for the love I felt for him though he rejected me so many times.

Hate for the fact that now! NOW! He wanted to speak me!

When I tried so many times and he wouldn't even look at me.

That's exactly what I told him.

I sprang up and pressed myself up against the bars.

"OW SHUT UP! Stop it with that fucking Roza! NOW you want to talk?" I hissed fiercely but when Dimitri and Lissa flinched this time, I didn't care.

Who the hell did he think he was?

I was Rosemarie Hathaway, for fucks sake!

Did he expect me to come back to him immediately when he called or what like i was his freaking puppy?

"Roza I…" he started but I wouldn't let him finish.

Instead of the blazing hatred my voice had sounded like earlier it now turned cold as i walked to the back of my cell.

As cold as my heart when I thought about Dimitri.

"My name… is Rose, Mr. Belikov. Rose."