Chapter 1
"I need to be alone at the moment Edward." I whispered. He looked at me in wonder and began to take hold of my hand with his icy fingers, I pulled back.
"I said I need to be alone EDWARD! TAKE ME HOME!" I screamed. The shocked and hurt expression on his face mirrored my own. I couldn't believe I had just reacted like that. What is wrong with you? I screamed at myself, as he silently led me to his car. Feeling embarrassed I sat down in the car and laid my head back so he couldn't see the blush spreading over my face. As the silent purr of the engine began I turned to the window to watch the trees turn into a green blur and thought of what led me into this disastrous situation.
Victoria is dead I watched her be killed, shouldn't I be relieved, no. No one was killed during the battle with the newborns, shouldn't I be relieved, no. I finally understand that I love Jacob Black and Edward Cullen shouldn't I be relieved, no. Nothing, I felt numb and confused. At this thought i turned to see Edward staring intently at me as if trying to read my mind even though he knew he could not. Thank God.
"Thank you for the ride Edward, i need time to think could you not come and see me until i call you?" i was decided if i was ever going to get past this I needed time to think i couldn't just leave Jacob or Edward without making sure i had chosen correctly.
"WHAT?" Edward fumed, "We have just ended a horrible, violent battle and you expect me to leave you on your own!"
"That is exactly what i expect you to do Edward, I'm not a child. The kiss with Jacob made me realise, he's right I do love him. I need time to think" I spat. He grabbed my hands and lifted my chin so that my eyes were looking directly into his liquid gold ones.
"Please Bella I understand, but your my fiancé I'm not going to give up without a fight, I can't just leave you here!" I pulled my hands from his for the second time today.
"You won't need to fight this is my decision if any of you two hurt each other I will never forgive you, no matter what my decision is I would like to remain friends with both of you. Now I'll call you when I'm ready. Goodbye Edward." He leant over to kiss me but I turned my head and swiftly exited the car. I did not allow myself to turn around I didn't think I could look at pained expression I assumed his face wore. Breathing in deeply I walked to the front door and opened it. I had to do this no matter how much it hurts I thought to myself as the smell of pizza filled my nose.
"Hey Bella, I ordered some pizza wants some?" Charlie called from the sitting room.
"No thanks dad I think I'm just going to take a shower and head straight to bed!" I replied as I heavily slumped up the stairs.
"Okay, I will be going out soon to check on Jacob, Billy said he was in an accident, nothing too bad but I still want to go see if he's alright" Jacob, I thought I hadn't even checked to see if he's alright!
"Okay dad, wake me up and tell me how it goes when you get back."
"Will do kid!" I started up the shower and sat down on the toilet seat rubbing my temples out of frustration waiting for it to warm up. This is so messed up, I need help I thought to myself as I stripped and got into the shower. The warm water trailed down the knots in my body relaxing me; almost an hour later I got out shocked at how long I had been in there. I towel dried my hair and combed through the knots before slipping into some comfy sweats and a large t-shirt. I lay on the bed, sleep just wouldn't come, bored I walked downstairs and sat on the sofa curling my feet underneath me. Maybe flicking through the channels could send me into slumber. Settling on a cookery show I began to feel my eyelids getting heavy when the door went. Arghh how could Charlie leave his keys I raged as I went to answer it. Angrily I hurled the door open to find a solemn looking Sam.
"Oh Sam, what are you doing here?" I questioned out loud, as I turned back towards the sofa.