A/N: another new story. riverkirby sent me a message requesting a story, so here ya go! enjoy! Review! hope you like it!

Chapter 1

Sitting on her bed, Quinn Fabray ran her fingers along the side of the pages from her journal. She flipped the page and saw the picture of her and Beth after she was born, within the pages. Picking it up, she stared at it. Trying to consume every detail of the picture. A tear rolled down her cheek as she looked at the daughter that she gave up not too long ago. She felt a sad smile, creep up on her when she remembered that she only remembered being happy in her life at that moment.

Not wanting to cry any longer, she closed the journal and leaned back against the pillows on her bed. Closing her eyes, she began to think about the upcoming school year. She was once again, Captain of the Cheerios, and she promised that she wasn't going to lose it this year.

Last year, everything went to hell for her: she got pregnant, got kicked off the Cheerios, thrown out of her house, abandoned by her family and so called friends. But this year, she was going to remain on top, no matter what happened. She wouldn't risk being at the bottom of the ladder again.

Sighing, she opened her eyes and looked over at the alarm clock by her bed. She still had time to go for a run before, she went to bed.

Getting off the bed, she walked over to her dresser and fixed her hair into a ponytail. Her eyes glimpsed at her in the mirror, then glanced down. There on her mirror was a picture of her and Rachel.

After the pregnancy and giving Beth to Shelby, the girl's bonded and spent most of their summer together. Talking and sometimes the other would cry and the other would do the comforting. But for the past few weeks, neither girl kept in communication. She released another sigh and pulled out a pair of shorts and a tank top. With her running shoes tied, she left the house with her I-Pod firmly in her ears and on her arm. The cool, summer, night breeze filled her lungs and refreshed her face. The Cranberries began to fill her mind shortly.

Reaching the park, she saw someone on the swings. From the light of the nearby streetlight, she saw that they had brown hair and was close to her own age. She slowed down her run and walked over to the swings. Upon arrival, she saw that it was Rachel sitting alone on the swings. Something was wrong.

During the course of the summer, Rachel had told her that she would always come to the park if she need time to think about things, or if she was upset, and that way she would always know where to find the girl. Quinn walked over and sat on the swing to the left of the brunette, the diva didn't even noticed; she was too lost in her own thoughts.

Grabbing hold of the chain, Quinn took out her ear buds and said, "What's the matter Rachel?"

The blonde's voice sliced through her thoughts and she turned and saw Quinn sitting on the swing next to her. Quinn had a look of concern on her face and Rachel offered a small smile, "Nothing is the matter." Raising her perfectly sculptured eyebrows she said, "You're a terrible liar, Rachel. I think that after two months of hanging out with you, I'd be able to tell whether you're telling the truth or not."

Rachel chuckled. "Says the girl who convinced Finn that he got her pregnant through a make our session in a hot tub."

Shrugging, "We all have our special talents. Lying just isn't yours. SO come on, tell me what's bothering you."

After some reluctance, she said, "I'm just mentally preparing myself for the school year. I realize that what we have will be over and everything will return back to normal. Meaning you will be head cheer leader, and I'll just be another loser at school." Quinn opened her mouth to protest, but Rachel cut her off. "Don't. It's okay. I understand. Don't worry, I won't tell anybody about you and I. I won't ruin your rep. I know how important it is to you."

Rachel leaned over and suddenly, Quinn didn't know what was happening. She felt a magnetic pull towards the brunette and wanted nothing more than to take her in her arms and kiss her passionately. Erasing all of her worries. But she couldn't do that. She only just began feeling these feelings a few minutes ago when she found her on the swings. "Rachel…" She breathed, taking in the strawberry scent of the girl.

Before she could say anything else, Rachel closed the gap between their lips and kissed her softly. For a moment, Quinn was taken off guard, then just like that, she gave in completely. She pulled the brunette closer to her and ran her tongue over her bottom lip. It was quickly granted and Quinn pushed her tongue into her mouth. It was getting heated and when they pulled away, Rachel said, "I love you, Quinn."

Those three words were enough to break Quinn out of her trance and get off the swing and ran home without saying a word to the brunette.

Slamming the door to her room, she fell against the door and rested her head in her hands. She couldn't be gay. No way. She just gave birth not too long ago, with Puck nonetheless. And she definitely couldn't be gay for Rachel Berry. The girl was insane. Wiping the tears away with her hand furiously, she got to her feet and promised to hide these feelings the best she knows how: taking it out on Rachel. Those years of torture will be nothing compared to this one.

A/N: What do you think so far? riverkirby, is this what you had in mind? Review!