Title: Sorry
Summary: I'm sorry I was a snake and you were a lion, I'm sorry I loved you, sorry that my heart broke and that he made you so, happy. But I can't be sorry if even my hearts broken your happy. I'm sorry I never had that lion courage to ask you out. And most of all I'm sorry I'll never get to say sorry because I learned the hard way…. and I was too late.
About: free verse in Snape's POV about his relationship with Lily and about the regrets he has, and why he 'hated' Harry.
I'm sorry
Sorry couldn't be a lion
(Just like you)
Sorry I was a snake
Cunning and sneaky
Not beautiful and brave
(Just like you)
Scared, black-haired and brown-eyed
Bullied and quiet
While your Lily
Fiery temper
Stunning beauty
Sparkling emerald eyes
Shining redredred hair
Brave and reckless
Loved and protected
I'm sorry
I wasn't good enough
Didn't have the courage to stand up to him
Didn't have the bravery to ask you out
To tell you I loved you
To say no to the other snakes
I'm sorry
Sorry I slipped-slid-slide away
Tripped up that day
Said that awful word
Then lived to regret it
But I never was a lion
I never knew how to say sorry
You were my light
And when you left in fell in to the dark
The one you hated so, much
The stag
You fell for him at last
As I always knew you would
You always were the sweet, innocent doe
But that never stopped my heart from
Breaking-crumbling-dying
But you were happy
Joyously-mesmerizingly-happy
That's all I ever wanted
So, I wouldn't-couldn't
Hurt you
Because you were Lily
(Even if he was my sworn enemy)
I'm sorry
That I was dark
(Death eater)
And you were light
(Order of the phoniex)
I never looked at your eyes
Because my heart would break more
At the sad-devastated-mourning look
I'm sorry
That I never said sorry
That I never could
That I realized too late
I'm sorry
That I had to lose you
I betrayed you
(Even if by accident)
Then I just couldn't fix it
Hard as I try
There are some mistakes you can't fix
Some words you can't take back
I never forgave him for taking (killing) you
But what could I do
Dying wouldn't change or fix this mess
But teaching your son would
He killed you and I double-crossed him
Turned spy for the light
I'm sorry
This is what it took
I'm sorry
I turned a blind eye
To your son
Just because he was his son too
I guess some scars run deeper then others
And it was just another twist of the blade
When he became a lion
Just like you all those years ago
I lost the green eyes once again
I was a spy
I couldn't love him (like a son)
For if I lost him then after I lost you
My heart wouldn't heal
It was easier to try to hate him
But I couldn't
Try as I tried
Hard as I did
I couldn't
Not when he had those emerald green eyes
Your eyes
I'm sorry
I was so, hard on him
That I couldn't save him from a hero's tragic destiny
From your sister I hate so, much
Try as I try
How do you save?
What wants to run headlong into danger?
(I never understood the lions)
Twice as hard when you're a spy
But I was always the snake
Cunning and sly
I hid behind the mask
Easier to hate and avoid
To think of him as Potter's son
Not yours
But the green eyes
Your eyes
Every time made me think he was
Just like you
As much as he looked like my enemy
But most of all I'm sorry
That I was a snake
All those years ago
(The headmaster always said he thinks we sort too soon)
That I never had the courage to say
I love you
That I didn't fight harder
Didn't try harder
To save him from a hero's tragic fate
So, much gained with so, much bloodshed
At so, young the weight of the world
I'm sorry I didn't try harder
Didn't help hold it up
Didn't treat him as my own
Or as your son
But I hope this counts for something
Even if younever forgive me
Because you have no reason too
But I said sorry
I let go of the petty childhood grudges and ideas
I grew up
I tried and tried my best
To save him
Protect him
Even when he ran headlong into the fire
I judged him fairly in the end
Helped him understand
Gave him the memories
(sad and true with happiness too)
A better picture to paint by
Showed him (and you) where my loyalties lie
And I got to see his (your) eyes as I died
I saw that sadness but happiness that would have been in your eyes
I saw him as your son in the end
So, I'm sorry
But I hope this counts for something
A lion in snakeskin
(or a snake in a lion's den for Pettegrew)
A Slytherin that died like lion
I looked past the red and green
I'm just sorry this is what it took
For me to realize
But once bitten twice shy
And an eye for an eye
I finally learned the truth
So, I'm so, sorry
I hope you can forgive me
Because I know he did
And he's just like you
I can see that now…
And if I could I would
Go back and do It all again
Do it right
So, we all could get that fairy-tale happy ending
That you loved so, much
But some things can't be fixed
I learned that the hard way
And I'm so, sorry….
AN: is it just me or did that rhyme sometimes….away hoped you liked it. And um…..review! please!
p.s if you can't tell who snape is talking about then you must re-read the deathly hallows. No the whole series!