Green light lights up the night and I wonder if you saw it coming

Saw it in my eyes every time we fucked

No you didn't, did you?

You couldn't have, I hide what I am too well

Sometimes even I start to wonder

Where it all started, where I began

People say life begins at birth

But I know better,

You don't really know you're alive until you've seen death

i guess that's why I'm alive and your not

I merely glimpsed his true glory

You chose to waltz with him for eternity

And I must confess myself jealous

My time with him was so short so intimate

You interrupted us

And I hate you

You think it was fun what I did

What I went through

just to be torn from his sweet embrace

The pinching flesh

the bloody razors

Have you any fucking idea how it hurt

When I slipped and caught the bone

It used to be your name I cut into my flesh

But I ran out of room

And now as I cut into your still flesh

I find my lines, my intricate lettering

Is blurred by darkened blood

I write his name into your flesh

And I am filled with regret

About things that were done wrong

Things that should have been different

You should have been alive for this

I wanted to hear your screams

See the pain in your face as I cut a little deeper

Feel the brightly coloured, warm life flowing between my fingers

Instead of the cold, purple blood that oozes lifeless from you

I knew you too well and that's your fault

You were careless and easy to lure

An address, a time, a piece of bloody parchment

Too easy, and im disappointed again

Filled with the rage that comes too easily

You muddled up my plans and I cant fix them.

You thought I played with razors cause i had no one

you thought you could save me

from myself

you needn't have feared for me, I knew he would always keep me safe

perhaps if you weren't so concerned for me you would've seen this coming

seen me coming.

But you've already seento that

You thought it was funny when I screamed

When nails and teeth tore at your flesh

They didn't believe me when I told

You lied so easily I was almost proud

You thought I was having a good time

And at that point when the pain became too insistent

I glimpsed him for a moment

He brushed his hands across my flesh and I was finished

And you were finished and you whispered in my ears

The redundant lie of lovers

And I loved you then

When I found I could hate you so completely

And when I found there was evil still lingering in me

I sought to purge it from myself

I prayed to porcelain gods for many mornings before you knew

You wanted to marry me, fool

I tore it from my flesh the day you proposed.

And they stitched me up again.

But they cannot stitch you back together

There are too many pieces

It looks like too much and too little

The way he or she looked

When I cut it into pieces

And its here again

The rage fills me

And Im screaming wordlessly into the night

He looks at me and I know

He calls me to his arms

I raise the metal one last time

Above my head with two hands

And sheath it in myself