Disclaimer: I do not own Big Time Rush

Alright! You all wanted a Ethan spin-off so you go it!

If you're a new reader, you may want to read my series (Hidden Feelings, Unbroken Feelings, and Everlasting Feelings in that order) first in order to completely understand what's going on.

Chapter 1

"Ethan, are you absolutely positively sure that you want to go all the way to Florida?" Pops asked.

"Could you please stop asking me that question?" I looked at him.

"I'm just making sure," he chuckled, sitting next to me. "I just don't want anything to happen to you or the baby."

"I'll be fine, besides Erika will be so close that I can call her if I need anything," I promised.

"Okay, I'll stop asking," he nodded, standing up to start dinner.

That was my pops, Carlos Mitchell, or as most of the world knows him, Carlos Garcia from Big Time Rush. He's married to my dad Logan Mitchell, who also happened to be in Big Time Rush. I've watched everything they've gone through to take care of me and my siblings…now it was my turn.

Just a few months ago, on my graduation day I found out that I was pregnant and right now I'm about 4 months pregnant. I thought about getting rid of the baby, but I had already did that once before just a few months earlier…call me what you want.

When I told my boyfriend and best friend Luke that I was pregnant for the second time, he was shocked, but he's been there for me and that's all I could ask for. The only time that things were a little shaky with my whole family and his was when they all found out on graduation night.

Flashback

My parents walked into the living room looking nervous. Emma, Evan and I were in here watching TV

"I'm glad you're all here," Dad said. "I need to talk to you guys."

"What's up dad?" Evan asked.

Dad held up the positive pregnancy test and we all froze. How could I have forgotten that I left in the bathroom! Stupid! We all knew it couldn't be theirs…Pops had just had a baby.

"…but that's none of my business," Evan took a sip of his drink.

"I don't even have a boyfriend," Emma reminded them.

Cool, and now I'm thrown under the bus. They both looked at me.

"Um…."

"We talked about this Ethan," Dad gave me a look.

It hurt to see the disappointment in his eyes, we literally had a conversation about this not too long ago. How could I have been so stupid to go and get pregnant a second time! I can handle a lot of things, but I really hate making my parents upset.

"Wait, you knew he was doing things?" Pops turned to Dad.

"Not important right now," Dad said, turning back to me. "Is this yours?"

They were all looking at me, waiting for me to say something, but what can I say? I sighed…here goes nothing.

"Yes," I said. "It's mine. I'm pregnant."

Collectively all of their jaws dropped, but I was really focused on Pops and the emotion on his face changed so many times in two seconds.

"I'm going to kill him!" Pops went for the door.

Dad grabbed his arms and held him back.

"Logan, let me go!" Pops yelled.

"Carlos, killing Luke is only going to put you in jail," Dad said.

"I don't care, let me go!" Pops yelled.

While holding Pops, Dad looked at me and just sighed.

"Ethan, do you not listen?" he asked. "We talked about this and I talked specifically about this. Not being careful is the reason all of you are here. I was telling you because I know what it's like to make a mistake this big and now you have the next 18 years to realize that you should've listened."

"Dad, I'm sorry," I felt tears prickling in my eyes.

"This isn't just something you can apologize for and expect to be better. What about school? Are you going to take care of a baby there? Even if you stay here, where is it going to sleep? We're out of rooms. This effects all of us in more ways than one and have you even thought about that? Did you think about what would happen before you even got pregnant?"

"Dad, everything will work out," I said.

"And how do you know that?" He asked.

"It always does," I said.

"You know what?" Pops took over the lecture. "You're going to bring this child into the world and you're going to take complete care of it. Since you're man enough to lay down and get pregnant, you're man enough to take care of it and if you don't go to school, you're getting out of here."

"That's unfair, I haven't had time to think about it," I said.

"Unfair?" Pops laughed. "What's unfair is the fact that you think this baby is our responsibility. What's unfair is the fact that you did this when you live under my roof. What's unfair is how your shaping up to have this baby born into bad circumstances. I've done all I can for you and more, so now it's your turn. Prove me wrong…prove that you can do this."

"You're 18, it's time to turn on the responsibility," Dad said.

The door opened and in walked Luke and his parents. Holy shit…everything got silent. I glanced at Pops who was fuming. Emma and Evan looked really nervous and Dad was the only one attempting to be polite with a smile.

"Did we interrupt something?" Luke's dad asked.

"Nope, you're right on time," Pops eye twitched.

Pops was eyeing Luke really hard, but I don't think he noticed.

"Ethan has something he wants to say," Dad looked at me.

"Dad," I gave him a look.

"Don't give me that look," Dad said under his breath, yet firm.

"Ummm…" I twiddled my thumbs. "So, I found out this morning that I was… pregnant.

Luke's eyes widened and both of his parents were frozen.

"Um, are you sure?" his dad asked.

"The positive test is in my dad's hand," I grabbed it and showed them.

"Are you sure it's Luke's baby?" his mom asked.

"What are you implying?" Pops spoke up.

Shit, what have I done?

"Are you trying to say that my son has been whoring around?" Pops looked ready to explode.

"Of course not, I'm just saying that we need to be sure," she shrugged. "After all, my husband has taught Luke about safe sex."

"And Logan has done the same thing with Ethan," Pops pointed out.

"It's no one's fault," Luke diffused the situation.

"We need to figure out what we're going to do from here," Logan said.

"Abort it,"Luke's mom said.

Pops narrowed his eyes at her.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" Pops asked. "They made the mistake, they suffer the consequences."

"Well, it's for the boys to decide," Luke's mom said.

All four parents were looking at Luke and I.

"We aren't aborting this child," Luke spoke up. "And when we go to school, we're just going to get an off campus apartment we're going to take care of our baby…everything will be okay."

I looked at Pops and his features softened. Clearly, he hadn't expected that to come from Luke. I told them that we were right for each other.

"Are you sure Luke?" his mom looked skeptical.

I could tell she was really getting on Pops nerves.

"I'm done bye," he started to walk upstairs.

"He can't be mad at me because he didn't raise his son to be careful," Luke's mom said. "I mean, we can tell where it comes from. Carlos has four kids himself and he's just passing it on to Ethan, poor thing, he basically taught him how to be a slut for babies."

Collectively everyone's jaw dropped. Pops turned around slowly, giving a look that could kill to Luke's mom. Evan looked at me.

"You've really done it now," he said.

That night was definitely a long night, but we got through it.

"Ethan," my sister, Emma said as she sat next to me.

"What's up?" I looked at her.

My little sister Emma. I'm only actually older than her by like four months due to the fact that my dad, Logan was raped by superstar Dak Zevon and gave birth to Emma and her twin Jade, who lives with my uncle Kendall and James. It's a really long story.

After the issues with Dak that lead to his death, things went back to normal for our family. Dak has been the cause of all of our problems since before I was born.

"Evan is in your stuff," she said.

"He can't keep his hands to himself," I stood up.

"Never has, never will," she laughed.

I started heading upstairs. I opened my room door.

"Evan, what are you trying to steal from me?" I asked.

"I'm just looking to see where I can put all of my things so I can take over this room," he said.

Evan, he's 15 and a pain in my ass sometimes, but he's my little brother and I have to love him. He's extremely smart…even smarter than I am and he's not weird about it like Dad is sometimes.

"I'm only taking a few things," I said. "Everything else is staying…I still need a room for when I get breaks so get out."

"You succkkkkkk," Evan sighed.

"Ethan!" Dad called me.

"Yeah?" I asked.

"Can you help me?" he called. "I'm in my room."

I left the room, walking down the hall to my parents' room. He was in there, holding Liam in his arms.

"Liam needs a change," he said.

"…Okay?"

"I want you to change him….to practice," he smiled.

"Daddddd," I gave him a look.

"Don't complain," he said. "Carlos thinks you need the practice since you'll be on your own and I agree with him on that."

I sighed, taking Liam from his arms and taking him into his nursery. Liam smiled up at me and I couldn't help but smile back. Liam is my youngest brother, just 8 months old now. He crawls all over the place and watching him makes me excited for my own to be born. I quickly changed the boy before taking him downstairs and handing him off to Emma.

"I'm going to go finish packing now," I said. "No one need me for anything."

THE NEXT MORNING

After eating a special breakfast that pops made, I went upstairs to collect my bags. Luke and his parents would be here any minute to pick me up and take us to the airport. I was lucky enough that we found a nice furnished apartment off campus for us to stay in.

I came downstairs with my luggage and pops already had tears in his eyes.

"Do you have everything?" Dad asked.

"Yes Dad."

"Your boarding pass?"

"Yes Dad."

"Your schedule…apartment key?"

"Yes Dad, I have everything," I laughed.

He looked at me with a smile playing on his lips.

"I'm so proud of you," he said.

He pulled me into a hug.

"I love you son," he whispered into my ear.

"I love you too Dad," I smiled.

"I can't believe you two are headed to college," Uncle Kenny hugged both Erika and I.

I got a hug from Uncle James, Jett, and Trevor and then Emma and Evan.

"I'm going to miss you," Emma had tears in her eyes. "Thanks for always having my back. You're a great brother."

"I love you Emmy," I hugged her.

Erika and Emma also hugged. I know she was really going to miss Erika.

"Come here Ev," I opened my arms.

He hugged me, tighter than I expected.

"Don't let anyone else know that I'll miss you," he said.

"You just said it out loud," I laughed.

I hugged Adam, Alex, Jade, and the twins, Zack and Zora. We were a big family, they were all like my siblings. Erika and I posed for a picture and then I got a hug from my crying Pops.

"I love you Ethan," was all he said as he hugged me tight.

"I love you too Pops," I said. "Don't cry, I'll be fine."

We pulled away and I heard a car horn outside.

"Well…this is it," Erika said.

"We're so proud," Trevor said. "We love you both so much."

We both smiled brightly at our family. I opened the door for Erika and we both stepped out. Jett and Pops were crying. This is it. I closed the door and walked down the walkway. Florida here we come…

And chapter 1 is complete! Let me know what you thought in a review? There's a lot to come!

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