First Glance
Every day I wake up and put up a new mask to cover up the old one. Every day I drink until I don't know where I am or who I am for that matter. Today surprisingly marked a change in the pitiful timeline of my dysfunctional life. A certain blond walked into my office I know right cliche right don't you think, well I certainly do. But when she walked in something in me seemed to spark into life, it's hard to explain ok so don't look for an explanation I can't give you one. I smiled involuntarily under that thick mask I put on every day. Not wishing to trust anyone but at the same time desperately wishing that someone brake through into this neverending abyss that makes me think I should never feel any shred of happiness simply because. Besides, my amazing track record of picking the right person is literally nonexistent. So I decided to put my guard up even more so because of the man beside her the infamous Superman that takes the name Clark Kent in this planet. But I would like to clarify that I don't in any way hate him or any alien for that matter. My brother got what was coming to him but my hand still shakes a little when I shake his. The fear implanted in me coming out sometimes unbearable to come over making me lose myself beeper inside myself. But my focus gets sucked up totally by the women behind him. Not by her beautiful face ok I'm that shallow but by those incredibly blue eyes that hide behind those glasses of hers that make me lose concentration in everything else except her. My brain sensing this takes over for me and reality finally hits me when Clark talked breaking the silence. Well more like he insinuates that I am responsible and that I am like my family. It seemed kinda childish to me but whatever maybe he is right to a certain degree anyway. But all too sudden they start to walk out and in the heat of the moment out slips a phrase I never thought I would say to someone, earnestly of course. " I hope this isn't the last time we talk" and the in seconds after I uttered that all I thought was how an utter fool I really was and negative thoughts lingering in my mind come out in full force but the subdued the moment I hear " I hope not either". In the next moment, my shoulders relax and my hand declenched from the pen that I was holding until my knuckles turned white. while the negative inside voices get overtaken by that simple phrase that is repeated like a record in my head. Making my day surprisingly easy to handle. The meeting seemed less dull and the enormous stacks of sheets of paper were made easier to look at. But while my drain didn't realize the questions that would soon appear in the night, as well as the lurking negative thoughts awaiting for me, didn't appear before me I could honestly say I was finally felt content even if I didn't know why and I felt I could live with it, well at least for right now I could.
disclaimer: I don't own form the show supergirl till the characters till its storyline.
This is my first attempt on pushing anything that I write on here and English is not my first language so please go easy on me. look forward to the comments if I get any and I want to ask to please don't put negative comments. I will simply ignore and erase if I can. thank you.