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A/N; I saw Prom Queen and watched the Jar of Hearts scene over and over again- each time realizing how much the lyrics were so the new Finn. Read, you'll understand- then tell me if you get it;)
I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
She hated being around Finn, but she loved it too. Whenever she was with him, all she could see was herself making out with Puck- she regretted that more than ever. That action had caused all the pain of the last few months. But she knew she wasn't mad at Puck, she wasn't even mad at Santana, she was mad at herself (say 90%- the other 10 she was mad at Finn). But when she found out he got back together with Quinn she wasn't as mad at herself anymore- she was mad at him- 50/50- but that wasn't for the same reason…
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
She decided she wouldn't be that girl, the girl that followed him around like a puppy, begging for any attention he would give her. She would be independent, focus on herself, her friends, and her talent. She deserved that.
You lost the love
I loved the most
He had lost her, he knew it. They wouldn't be together again, how could they? He hurt her again and again, broke her into little tiny pieces, and then expected her to pick them up by herself. He loved her, but he lost her, hurt her. Over and over again.
And I learned to live, half-alive
She wasn't the same, she was half broken, and the broken side belonged to him.
And now you want me one more time
He wanted them to be the same, to be friends. He wanted to put everything that had happened in the past, but every time he looked into her eyes he could see why he fell in love with her. He couldn't do that with Quinn, every time he looked into her eyes all he could see was prom, and maybe a sparkle off of a firework, but that died out when she started putting the posters up.
Who do you think you are?
Who did he think he was? She expected him to be jealous of Jesse; it was an instinct in every 'ex-boyfriend'. But did he have the right to tell her who she should or should not date? She knew what he wanted, everyone knew, it was obvious. He wanted her to stay single, alone and still following him around while he went back to dating his ex-girlfriend, who broke his heart, in a way much worse than Jesse did to her. But he couldn't see that, everyone else did everyone but him.
Runnin' round leaving scars
He had hurt so many people. He hurt Quinn, Kurt, herself. She knew he knew he hurt them- and she knew that he wanted them to say sorry- even for something that they didn't do. And thinking back- had he ever once said sorry to them?
Collecting your jar of hearts
She saw that jar, the jar of hearts in his locker. She went to get his water bottle from his locker when he was sick. A entire jar of hearts, all in different colours and inscribed with different girls names. She wanted to throw them out- break the jar and stomp on every little heart, but she didn't, she instead shut his locker, gave him his bottle then left- not daring to look back.
And tearing love apart
Sam and Quinn. They were happy, a perfectly cute couple. But he broke them apart, he stole Quinn from Sam, doing exactly what Puck did to him, but did that stop him? No, he was too much of a snob to understand what a jerky hypocrite he was being, and that was when she lost all faith in the old Finn coming back- the Finn that she loved.
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Mono, that a sickness- and that's what he caught. But worse- he got it from Santana, then gave it to Quinn- her worst enemies, why doesn't he just go make out Jacob, Karofsky and every member of Vocal Adrenaline while he's at it.
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
He always came back for her, if he needed help with a song or if he needed to feel better because Quinn called him stupid, he went to her, and she hated that, she told him how much it hurt, yet he started again, complaining hard it was to be with Quinn, yet, he still stayed with her.
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
She tried to avoid seeing him, but he always found her, no matter where she was or where she hid he found her, and then he complained, and she had to listen, grin and bear it, trying desperately not to slap him and yell endlessly at what a jerk he was. It was hard.
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
She promised to herself, to Kurt, to Mercedes, to Sam that she wouldn't go back to him, falling into his arms and give in to him. She wouldn't she promised, she was strong, and unlike him, she kept her promises as best as she could- but could she keep this one?
And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time
Who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
He knew he had hurt a lot of people, over and over again, and he knew he had a weird way of saying sorry, but in most cases, he was.
Collecting your jar of hearts
He threw them out, the jar of hearts, he threw it out. When he was cured he went to his locker, grabbed the jar and threw it into the dumpster, then stood there watching every heart sink to the bottom. He knew she had seen them, he could see it in her eyes, and he felt bad.
And tearing love apart
He broke them apart, they were happy and he broke that. He gained Quinn, but he lost his friendship with Sam, and Rachel, and probably the respect of everyone in Lima…
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
He got mono, that's like a cold right? He couldn't quite remember what happened when he was sick- but knew he must of hurt Rachel in some way, judging by the way she avoided him for a week.
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
Dear, it took so long just to feel alright Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
It took weeks after they broke up for her to come back, to start fighting for solos and to put her emotion into her voice- and that was because of him.
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
He remembered the first time they kissed, the picnic, the words, the feeling. He also remembered running off, he also remembered cheating on Quinn- but that doesn't matter because he wasn't the one being cheated on, he wouldn't get hurt- wait, did he just say that?
Cause you broke all your promises
He broke every promise they made- he promised to never break up, they sealed it with kiss, they then broke up, he promised to have children with her and raise them Jewish, they sealed that with a kiss, then he broke it –his children will now probably be raised Christian, there's nothing wrong with that, it's just…- he promised to take her to prom, they sealed it with kiss, then he broke it, he promised to go with her to New York, they sealed it with a kiss, he broke it.
And he knew every promise he broke hurt her, over and over again.
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all And who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are? Who do you think you are? Who do you think you are?
A/N: Well, after a while I lost it- I just wanted to tell tell you guys how much I hate Finn right now, when he said Quinn was the most beautiful girl he'd ever seen I pretty much screamed 'WHAT ABOUT RACHEL' and almost threw my laptop…