A/N: I don't really know where I'm going with this; it could be a one shot could be a story…..all depends on what you guys think. It's based on something that happened to me recently just put in with different names and setting. It takes place in not long after well I hope you like it, R&R love ya. Thoughts are in italics!

This takes place a little after Jess comes and tells Rory he loves her and leaves. It's not really about religion just the beginning.

Chapter 1: Bad Religion

Rory was never a very religious person, didn't go to church, never prayed, and didn't think about what happened after you died just assumed, there's a place you go. But today things were different, it was Ash Wednesday the day you review your sins and they are forgiven by "God". It may not seem like much for some people but Rory needed the guilt gone.

She sat in the back of the church alone, there were many people there most all different ages. There was an old couple sitting right at the front she could tell that they were probably regulars at the services, there was a group of kids most likely forced to be here for conformation laughing and passing notes to each other, there was a woman sitting behind the children shooting looks at them every time one of them laughed "too loud".

Rory felt tension between almost all of the members of the church, like there was gossip about everyone in here flowing through all of their veins, secrets just waiting to escape. When it came to Rory she thought all of them needed to be forgiven for something.

The pastor walked in and began speaking Rory wasn't really listening; she stood up when others stood, sang and repeated words when she was expected to. Then someone came around and handed out a small piece of paper to everybody.

"Write down your sins or something that you wish to forget, on this piece of paper. All of them will be burned and used as the ashes put on your foreheads." The pastor said. Everyone's heads bowed down scribbling on the pieces of paper on their lap.

Rory had to think, she knew she had many things that she wanted to forget about the past year, but which was really bothering her. All her thoughts went to Jess someway or another, she sighed tears stinging her eyes, no matter how many times she told people she was over him she knew she really wasn't. Her vision blurred as she wrote down what was making her feel guilty, Rory looked down at the neat script on the piece of paper it read:

I wish I could make things right with people I will never see again.

Rory folded the paper in half and kissed it lightly. She walked up to the basket at the front of the church and placed it down gently. She started to sob slightly and the conformation kids stared at her like she was insane, I have to get out of here.

When she got outside the tears came freely along with a light rain, the tears and rain mixed so no one could tell she was crying.

Where to go? Before she knew it she was at the bridge soaked through her clothes but she didn't care.

"That didn't make me feel better who am I trying to kid!?" She said to herself the rain getting heavier.

"It's his fault why am I so messed up about this! I shouldn't even care; he treated me like dirt Dean was right." Rory sat down and put her head in her hands.

"No, but he loved me and I loved him." She mimicked. "What a lode of shit that was!" As she said that lighting crashed.

"No it wasn't." Said a calm voice from behind her.

It's not him your mind is just playing tricks on you. Maybe he'll go away if I sit here long enough.

But as she slowly turned around she realized it wasn't her mind. Rory held her sobs her back shaking, "Why'd you come back?" she squeaked.

"I needed to see you." Jess said wiping away his hair that was falling in his face from the rain.

"Why didn't you wait for my answer?" She sobbed.

Jess stalled before answering "I don't know, afraid of the answer maybe." He smirked and put out his hand for Rory to grab.

"I love you too." She said wrapping her arms around his neck and kissing him.

"Dean and Lindsey are married, where does that leave us?" She asked her tears subsiding.

"Wherever you want us to be." He said kissing her passionately.

A/N: I don't know if I really liked it that much but I'm posting it anyway, might as well see what other people think. Review please because I hate it when people read and don't review! 3's