Hiya people! Ok so this is dmy first fanfiction story so i hope you like what i've got so far. This chapter may be confusing but if you go along with it it'll all make sense... eventually! Anyway some parts of this story actually happen to one of my friends. I'm not gonna tell you who or which parts. Anyway my friend knows who it is and this story is dedicated to them. Please review!!

PS I do not own the character of Twilight. As much as i wish i did :(

"When you are in love and you get hurt, it's like a cut... it will heal, but there will always be a scar."

Ch.1 Painful Past, Fresh Future

I awoke in the still darkness feeling sweat roll down my face. I whipped my head around the room and realized that I was in my bedroom. I sat up quietly and wrapped my arms around my knees trying to keep myself together. I told myself over and over again in my head that it was just a dream. I can still remember that day so clearly in my head of the huge blazing fire and the smell coming from the pool of blood that came from the road.

As I sat there rocking myself back and forth trying to regain my emotions. I needed at least a little bit of sleep since school started in the morning. Flashbacks of last year started to replay in my head.

Flashback:

I walked down the hallways blankly staring down at the ground as if there was entirely interesting there that nobody else could see. I continued walking that way until I knocked into something hard and tumbled toward the ground. When I was just about to say sorry I looked up and saw on of the most gorgeous guys on the planet. He had bronze hair that fell over in front of his face and the most amazing chocolate brown eyes.

He looked at me and his eyes soften as he said, "Sorry about that. I wasn't paying attention to where I was going. Are you new here?"

"Yes," I mumbled feeling my blood rush up to my face.

"So you must be Isabella Swan, it's nice to meet you. I am Kyle Anderson, do you want me to show you to your class?"

I nodded shakily as he took my hand and walked me to my English class. That was the first time I felt my heart skip a few beats and I begun to fall in love for the first time.

End of Flashback:

More hot tears started to roll down my cheeks as I thought to myself what an idiot I was back then. I can still remember all the times he was nice and kind to me. He made me feel better about myself and because of him i was able to forget the horrible memories of my past. Then a girl named Lauren became jealous and begun to threaten me, so I decided to do the only thing that I could do to get rid of her which was to ask him out.

Flashback:

When the last bell rang at the end of the day I rushed out of the classroom over to Kyle's locker over by the hidden staircase and waited for him. I waited for a long time till there was no one left in the school when I finally saw him coming down the hallway.

He noticed me and ran up yelling, "Hey Bella what are you still doing here?"

I ignored his question and mumbled, "Will you go out with me?"

He looked taken back by my questioned, but then just smirked at me. Suddenly I could feel his hot lips press up against mine. I could taste the sweetness of his mouth as me and him battled with our tongues. I put my arms up and over his neck and entangled my hands into his soft bronze hair. He responded by wrapping his arms around my waist, soon I had the sudden urge to be tighter up against him.

Slowly his hands started to roam up my shirt as he started to massage my breasts. I moaned in pleasure. Then as one hand stayed massaging my breast his other went down into the front of my pants, he slowly started to rub my clit. Then he stuck a finger inside of me and kept on moving in and out a whole lot faster. I felt the need and desire to scream his name out but didn't want to get caught by unsuspecting eyes.

Then his hand started to undo my pants. Suddenly a thought drifted into my mind. Is this what you really want? What if he was just using you? Those thoughts broke my heart and I wasn't in the mood to go on.

"Stop it!" I said sternly panting out of breath. "You never answered my question will you go out with me?"

"Sure babe." As he tried to carry on where we left off, he tried to pull down my pants until I slapped his hand away.

"Not today."

"Why not?!" he said sort of angry.

"Because I'm not planning just to be another girl that gets used. You have to prove to me that you love me before you sleep with me." This clearly pissed him off as he stomped down the hallway.

"Whatever bitch! I could probably get into hotter girls pants anyway. But you just looked so easy so I thought what the hell! By the way you should work on your kissing technique it kinda sucks!"

When he was gone I redid my pants and fell down to my knees and sobbed there on the staircase.

End of Flashback:

Ever since then I've been untrusting of guys. Kyle told a bunch of his friends about what happened except he said that i had sex with him and next thing i knew I became the slut of the school. All the girls hated me and all the guys tried to have sex with me. Becauseof all of these rumors I decided to switch schools to get a fresh new start. Now, these day I hide my emotions by a complete different mask which acts happy and outgoing. But that still doesn't change the fact that my heart is broken and I still wake every night crying my self to sleep.

My tears finally started to cease as my eyes felt as dry as the sand. I kept on telling myself about my fresh new start and about how everything is going to be alright. Tomorrow was the start of my junior year at Forks High Academy.

ok so that was my chapter. i hope you all like it. AND DON'T FORGET TO REVIEW!!