'Where am I…?' is the first thing I tried to ask. But my voice wouldn't come out no matter how hard I tried. I softly opened my eyes but fail to recognize where I am. All I could see was my pure white skin surrounded by black and my silvery hair as it flowed freely around my head. It's dark… And cold… And quiet.
'What am I doing here…?' came next. I was falling…? No… I was floating. I hugged my knees as I curled up into a ball. There was no feeling of water. I didn't get dizzy as I rolled in midair.
'What happened…?' My voice still failed me. Even if I could, there was no one to answer me either.
'What was the last thing I remember…?'
NNNGGG−!
A sharp pain shot through my head… No… That's wrong… It wasn't my head that was in pain.
It was my heart.
Again, I tried to remember. It hurts…
It hurts…
It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts. It hurts.
The pain jolted through me repeatedly.
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'Why does it hurt…?' Because I didn't want to remember.
'Why don't I want to remember…?' Because it hurts.
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My thoughts were going in circles.
I won't get anywhere like this.
If only 'he' was here…
Wait…
'Who was 'he'…?'
NNNGGG−!
It hurts again…
Again…?
Does that mean 'he' is the reason why I'm hurting…?!
'Remember!'
NNNGGG−!
I open my mouth to scream in pain, but my voice doesn't even make a sound.
'Remember!'
NNNGGG−!
I know I must remember. But it hurts so bad.
'That doesn't matter! Remember!'
NNNGGG−!
With my eyes closed, I struggled and squirmed in the vast, empty space as I searched through my memories. Noise clouds my recollections. Static ripples through my vision. But I ignore it. I ignore all of it. A feeling within me told me that I knew what I was looking for. I just had to remember 'him'.
Crack
Suddenly, a crack appeared in the sky above me. Light poured in through it like rays of hope in the darkness. But it didn't feel enough. Again, I dove into my memories.
Crack
The more I tried to remember, the more the cracks spread.
Crack Crack
CRACK
Shards of glass… No… Ice fell around me. Reflected on their mirror-like surfaces were familiar images. Their angles were weird. The images looked like they were taken in someone's point of view, like they were snap-shots of what a person would see as they lived their normal lives.
Here and there, the shards fell around me. Images of familiar faces and places I ignored but a few seemed to level with me. It was as if the shards were trying to show me something. Several of them surrounded me and formed a jagged circle while slowly spinning.
All of them featured a familiar boy.
His smile was natural, but he looked goofy. He looked handsome, but his hair was a mess. His eyes weren't perfect, but they were kind nonetheless.
A single name comes to mind… and suddenly, all my memories began rushing into my head.
I ignore all the distant ones and began shuffling through the most recent ones. I had a feeling that I needed to look. My heart ached at the sight of his face. I was anxious. I was worried. Something happened that I had forgotten… No… that I had forcibly erased from my memories.
'What happened? What made me want to forget?'
I found it.
The shards that surrounded me stopped their rotation and changed images. Now it was like I was watching a scene out of a movie in multiple screens but without any sound.
I saw his tired form. He was breathing heavily as he held out a hand. He was smiling as if he'd won. I must've been slightly bitter about losing because it took a while before a hand I'd recognize anywhere took his. He pulled me up and brought me to his chest. I looked up into his kind blue eyes and remembered that I was blushing then. He mouthed a few words that I could roughly make out.
'Don't break our promise now, kay?'
I lightly punched his chest before I used it to rest my head. Then the view began to pan out around our surroundings. I remembered that I had noticed the crowds cheering the fight and I also remembered turning even redder when they started to cheer us on after the fight. I'm now blushing even more than how I was before. He was blushing as well, now that the view returned to him as he spoke something. He must've said something rude because I pushed away from him and turned to leave.
But before making it three steps away, I notice a glint of light to my right. Just as I turned to face it, he jumps in front of it with his arms spread out. His body crashes onto the ground while I stood there, confused. I ran to his side. As I turned his body face-up, my hands were shaking in fear. I froze at the sight of his wound. A single black arrow protruding from his chest, right above the area where his heart should've been. My gaze shifted to his expressionless face. His eyes were wide open in shock. His mouth had a trickle of blood oozing out.
I remembered what I forgot…
No…
I remembered why I forgot…
It was because…
'He died…'
Then… everything turned white…
The shard-screens all flashed and vanished into nothing. The light that poured from the cracks above my head began to surround me. Spilling into the void, the light swallowed darkness and turned it into pure white.
It was still cold. It was still quiet.
But now, everything was white.
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I curled into a ball once more…
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This place isn't any better than before…
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Now that I noticed it, my chest was burning in pain…
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I remembered everything, so my heart stung, again and again…
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This white cold world was much, much worse…
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Like an icy cage or a frozen curse…
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At times like this, should I ask, 'What should've I done'?
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No… Something more impossible…
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"Please… Please save me, Jaune…"