I'm doing it again. Thinking of what

I once had. And can never have again.

I've lost all hope in that form of happiness.

No light toward that tunnel,

all darkness, and solitude.

Am I destined this form of fate?

Destined to not have someone?

Someone to not care about me the

way you once did?

Am I meant to be on my own?

Damn this all to hell.

Damn my mind and its thoughts.

Damn myself for loving you!

Damn it all!

There I go again, letting you

rule my mind again.

Letting you back into my mind

and personal thoughts.

I don't think you've ever left.

Damn it all to hell.

Damn my mind and its thoughts.

Damn myself for loving again.

For loving you.

Am I meant to be in this restless

solitude for all eternity?

I guess only time will tell won't it?

Time will tell, when my heart is

ready to love. . .again.

Time will tell me when it's right,

the right time to have someone

to care for me, the way I do them.

Guide me through this storm,

as I guide them through the darkness.

Until then I damn myself,

for loving you.