My Meant to be Was Make Believe

A/N: I'm sorry if this is confusing. I just feel bored, bitter, and sarcastic—VERY sarcastic, I don't really know where I'm going with this…we'll I do…but blah add confused to the list lol. I guess this is kind of in diary form only written about the past? I guess. It makes since. I ramble a lot and am pretty sure I have ADD or something so if that bothers you…stop reading now! Well no give me a chance, well no I don't care… lol Okay I'll really STFU now.

I don't own HSM or the lyrics to Silly me by Carmen Rasmusen that I stole for the fanfic title…or anything else! Lol.. Tada.

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Chapter Un. (French is awesome)

"Will you go out with me?" He asked over the phone. Obviously I would, I've crushed on him for the last 8 months, everyone knew about it, his ex girlfriend threatened to kick my ass when they were going out 5 months ago, even though she didn't even know me, so why aren't I replying?

"Hello…? Are you still there?"

"Yes…" I replied, half way freaking out and half way trying to hide my happiness.

"So uh…what's the answer?"

"Yes!!"

"Alright! I'll see you at school then?"

"Yea!"

"Okay…bye…"

"Bye!!" I hung up immediately and started happy dancing around my room. How corny…I know but I did…if only I knew. This is where future me is bursting out in random song screaming at past me YOU SHOULD'VE SAID NO, but past me is too happy for this to happen, and there is no time machine, so future me will shut up at this moment in time.

So, I spent the rest of the weekend happy dancing, buying colbie caillat's (sp?) cd, and basically ignoring everyone because I wasn't sure if I had just dreamt that up and didn't want to tell everyone and then have it actually be a dream and look incredibly stupid. Anyway, TO MONDAY WE GO!!! SCORE ONE FOR THE LITTLE GUY!

I walked into the school, I was the first one there, because I've been a loser recently and enjoy standing by myself for 20 minutes staring off into space thinking about monkeys. Okay, not monkeys, I hate monkeys, whatever, I also wanted to make sure I did not dream up my weekend, alright ONWARD!

After I spent 20 minutes looking around staring at people, my best friend Ryan finally came, he's usually like the second person to come, cause he's awesome like that, you know…first is worst second is best third has something really random made up to go with the rest… onward…

Ryan is teasing me about Jason asking me out, he was there when it happened, he and Jason are best friends too. I'm getting really nervous swearing to myself that it was just a dream and don't want the entire school to think I'm physco.

"KELSI AND JASON SITTING IN A TREE K-I-S-S-I-N-G!!!" Ryan screamed, oh the fun of this. We got to make fun of the shy hopeless dreamer who finally got her first boyfriend, nice, real nice slick! Of course I don't say any of that and just stand there blushing and smiling waiting for Jason to come.

He finally did, we smiled an held hands. Future me is getting very sick of this lovey dovey shit and wants to skip ahead a couple of weeks, but past me wouldn't like that, past me needs to feel happy, so future me will continue writing this…another day when she feels like reliving the past some more.

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A/N: Sorry that was short and stupid but it's midnight and I'm currently incapable of being up past 11 without being half asleep and staying up past one, and I have this issue that I can't stop in the middle of something. So uh I hope you like it. R&R? Should I tone down the randomness? Anything else? Lol.