Dream

There are times where you or your parents just plan your life out for you when you're like, 12. I see a lot of people going for being a doctor, teacher, engineer or businesswomen or businessmen. There are also quite a few where I see parents trying to take control of their child's or children's life. Is that what you want? Maybe you might want to go for the usual careers that are "common". And of course, I would never want my parents to take control of what I do. I want to do what I want. Sometimes, I feel lost and don't really know what I want to do in my life. Sometimes, I had felt that I had a goal, but didn't know how to get there. I even questioned myself before why I was here. Somehow, somewhere, I had found the one and only career that was going to be mine someday. This is my story of it...

Thursday, June 12th, 2008

It was finally summer! Sixth grade had been an awesome year. But I needed a break from it. Weeks passed by. It was so boring though. Everyday, I would go on the computer, watch TV, or practiced playing my violin like a good little girl I was. I thought that being a professional violinist was going to be my career. But something changed.

Thursday, August 7th, 2008

The summer was turning out okay. I still practiced singing when I was home alone, because I didn't want anyone to hear me practicing. I practiced whenever I could, but in the beginning of August, something gave me a boost to knowing who I really want to be. I was surfing the web as usual and I somehow went to Soompi Forums and saw something about auditions. I clicked on "Auditions" and that my friend, was the path to the gates to my dream.

"Help For SM Entertainment Auditions," was the name of a forum page. No, I didn't need help, but I never knew that there were SM Entertainment auditions! Some of my idols were working under SM Entertainment. I have no idea why, but I was so excited! So I clicked on that forum and found TONS of information. Ever since then, I knew what was right for me. I just had to go and audition for SM Entertainment. All I had to do was to find a way to get there and audition. And I choose to go there now. But how?

I had already tried talking about it with my parents. But I had no idea they'd just reject the idea. Three weeks later, everything still stayed the same. Except, school started. I was going to 7th grade this year, and there was nothing that was "unexpected". 7th grade wasn't a big deal. It actually sucked for me. There was absolutely nothing special.

What was a pain in the butt for me was that my parents were thinking of moving to San Ramon. I live in Cupertino and San Ramon is forty-five minutes away from my house. That meant that I was to live in a whole different community... if I moved. The place was much better than Cupertino. But in Cupertino, there was Monta Vista. It was a better high school than Daugherty High School in San Ramon. And why do I have to move to San Ramon? Because my family can't afford old looking houses that cost over a million dollars that's close to a good school around the Cupertino area. Unlike Cupertino, San Ramon was a quiet, peaceful community with great houses that cost less than a million dollars, which was close to a pretty good high school. Plus, Daugherty High is HUGE! At first, when my parents drove around that area, I thought Daugherty High was a college! But seriously, it's probably a size of a college. I bet so. Besides, the high school is only a few ranks lower than Monta Vista. It's not too bad. But it's such a big dilemma! Should I stay in Cupertino, or move to San Ramon? I feel like my head will explode just thinking about it. I feel extremely confused thinking about it too. How will things work out for me?

What do you think?