That's just the way it is now…
I stare at the vast, blue sea. So calming. So beautiful. I sigh. I used to think that the sea was the most ultimate, most beautiful thing on Earth, besides me. But now I found something even more beautiful than the sea. Yumi… The farmer on Harmony Ranch. Her golden blond hair that reflected the sunlight. Her ocean-blue crystal eyes that assured you that everything was okay when you look into them. Her smile that seemed brighter than the sun, if possible. I was drawn to her. Yet now, I can't have her. I felt my stomach tighten as I remember the feelings I felt when I saw the ring on her wedding finger; shock, despair, like a part of my life, my heart, had been chipped, no, was broken into pieces. Those feelings intensified when you smiled at me. You are so beautiful Yumi, inside and out. You changed me, yet I can't have you.
'Hi Rock!' I turned with a jerk to see Yumi walk towards me that smile on her face. 'Staring at the sea?'
'…Yeah…' Just a little bit longer…Smile at me… 'Hey Yumi.'
'Yeah?' Her expressive eyes stare at me with curiosity and happiness. Happiness from her new life.
'Want to spend some time together?' See me…Be with me…Yumi looked at me with surprise and confusion.
'With you?'
'Yeah…' The yearning I felt in my heart grew. 'Just the two of us.' Yumi stares at me, her eyes searching mine for an answer to the question in hers.
'…O…Kay…' She says hesitantly, but I don't believe her words. Her eyes now show fear. She's being polite, being with me as friends. My mind realises the wrong I am doing.
'But what if your husband gets the wrong idea?' I hear myself say. 'I could ruin things for you!' I heard my voice grow louder. 'No! It's best that you don't.' Yumi's now looking at me with concern. Please…stop staring at me…with those eyes…
'Okay then…Maybe some other time.' She smiles and leaves. She's going back to her husband. I stare at her back. I feel the weight of her words. Maybe some other time…How I wish it could happen. But it can't. The chance I had has slipped away from me. I can't be with you. That's just the way it is now…