she cried
he frowned
she laughed
he was confused
she said 'you'll never love me will you?'
he said 'I'm sorry'
she cried
he wished he could love her
but he only loves the sea
and now matter how much her voice is breathy like the sea
no matter how she reminds him of the sea -
recklesss
ebrasive
untamed
stubborn
angry
passionate
no matter how much he wanted to love her
he couldnt
because she isn't the sea
and she cries
because no matter how beautiful their children would have been
no matter how much she would pine when she left
no matter the scorn and shame it cast upon her
she loved him
and she'll cry when he leaves
but he still won't love her
he'll misss her
miss the way her hair felt between his fingers
and how she mews in her sleep
and how she can somehow forgive everyone
he knows she'll never forgive him
and he knows its not fair to stay
because he'll never love her
so he goes
and she cries
just as predicted
because she loved him
and no matter how he tried to force the feeling
he didn't love her
because she wasn't the sea
so when she looks down from the cliff
feeling the spray of salt on her bare shoulder
and she jumps
feeling the whoosh of adrenaline shoot through her veins
she lands in the sea
and she doesn't cry
and she doesn't feel scared
because this is the most peaceful she's felt in years
where nothing -
not memories
not dreams
not rumours
not feelings
can reach her
so when she starts to feel tired
and the water rushes down into her lungs
she thinks that maybe she was destroying her life
right from the start
so she dies
right there
in the substance
that stole the heart of the man she loved
and continued to love
until finally it all became too much
and he awakes
cold in his bed
dead in his heart
and he hears shouts from Gibbs and Annabelle
and knows that they've found a body in the water
and it's dead
so he rises
and he knows what happened when he sees her body
lying on the deck of his ship
swept his way by the sea
the sea he loved instead of her
and he doesn't allow himself to cry
even when Annabelle covers her mouth in horror
and Gibbs stares at her blue tinged face sadly
and he wants to cry
he's the one that left her
he deserves the pain
deserves to suffer
and he's Jack Sparrow
and she's Elizabeth Swan
and she's dead
and suddenly elizabeth doesn't exist anymore
she's just dead
just dead
dead.
killed by the thing he loved more than her
killed by the thing he still loved most
the sea
.
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