He knew he couldn't keep away from her. He needed her, her forgiveness, her love. Everything he owed to her, even his life.
Waiting for her in Bonnie's room was the worst. Bonnie tried to ease his mind but he couldn't blame Annalise if she couldn't accept him back. He couldn't sit on the couch. He had been pacing for an hour now but still Annalise hadn't shown up. He had just started leaning against the wall when suddenly he heard the keys in the lock. His heart skipped a beat and he hid behind the wall. He knew he looked stupid like that. He knew this moment would come but now it was here he wasn't so sure this was the right thing to do. Finally he took a big step and emerged from behind the wall.
She was looking at him with that cold stare. A stare he knew so well it made shivers run down his spine. Slowly he walked closer, unsure what she would do or say. Not so long ago she had wanted him to pull the trigger and kill himself. Maybe he should have done it, but he couldn't, not with Bonnie pleading with him. She had seen enough horrible things in her life. It just wasn't fair for her.
Her stare followed him till he was finally in front of her. He hadn't really planned anything, he wasn't that good at that. He felt his knees give out as he slowly sank to the floor. It took him a while to find his voice
"It should have been me, I know that, so... I'll do whatever you want. Go after the people who did this, find them... I'm here for you" he meant every word he said, even if she still wanted him to kill himself, he would. She stayed quiet. To quiet. He could hear Bonnie anxiously shuffling from one foot to the other. Annalise didn't move at all and with every heartbeat he got more nervous. He felt his tears run slowly down his face
Suddenly he heard her move. He felt her hand softly on his head and he couldn't stop himself anymore. He broke down crying grabbing hold around her leg and leaning his head again her side. She didn't say anything as he continued to cry but softly rubbed her hand over his short hair.
She still hadn't said a word to him, she just let him cry till finally he started to calm down. He felt her hand move from his head to his shoulder and she started to push him off of her. He wasn't sure what she was doing and at first he just grabbed on tighter but when she kept pushing he slowly sat back on his heels. He kept his head down, fearing the look in her eyes.
He heard her take a deep breath and his heart starting racing again
"Annalise..." he heard Bonnie say but clearly Annalise made her shut up with one of her infamous looks.
He felt her hand back against the side of his face, he leaned against her hand hoping she would understand. Her hand slowly traveled down to his chin and she pulled his face up towards her. He still tried to look at the carpet.
When all of a sudden the hand was gone followed by the side of his face stinging like hell but he kept quiet. He knew he deserved this.
"Look at me" she softly ordered. He was terrified of what he might find in her face but slowly he looked up, blinking a few times to see her clearly. He couldn't read her face at all and her gaze made him very uncomfortable. In the end he bowed his head down again which landed him another painful slap against the side of his head. Still he couldn't get himself to look up again.
"Go to the bedroom" at first he thought she had ordered Bonnie out of the room but when he felt another slap and didn't hear Bonnie move at all he quickly got up. Keeping his eyes on the floor he quickly made his way to Bonnie's bedroom.
Standing in Bonnie's bedroom he wasn't sure what to do now. He had closed the door behind him and was just standing there next to the bed wondering if he should sit down on it.
He could hear Bonnie starting to talk in the other room "Annalise?"
No answer followed and he could just imagine Bonnie starting to chew her lip or maybe they moved around.
"Annalise please" Bonnie again, sounding a bit more desperate "what are you going to do?"
"I need a drink" come the bored reply from Annalise "I can't deal with this sober"
His heart was pounding. He wasn't even sure if he should listen in but he couldn't help it. She was holding his whole life in his hands
"Can you forgive him?" The question sounded so innocent coming from Bonnie
"Maybe, ...maybe not" she sounded honest
"What more does he have to do?"
Oh Bonnie thought Frank, sometimes you are to nice for yourself. You of all people should know not all crimes can be forgiven
"How can I ever trust him again?!" The harsh reply coming from Annalise was filled with emotions
"He couldn't have known what they would do to you and your baby" bonnie replied
"He should have told me! I blamed myself for so long!" The emotions running high now
"He should have, but you know how Sam was, you can't keep blaming Frank for what he did for Sam."
It was quiet for a few seconds but it felt like hours to Frank
"You should make a decision, forgive him or not and if you need something from him to make you trust him again then please do that. You just can't keep him going insane like this"
Was he going insane? Maybe he was, standing here in a bedroom awaiting his faith. He felt stupid for even trying to make amends
"I need some time alone with him" Annalise finally said
"Don't kill him, please" she sounded even scared as she said that
No answer came as he heard movement in the other room
"Maybe get me some wodka" was the last thing frank heard as he heard the front door close
His heart beat was rising again, he could feel his whole body tensing up as he tried to keep his breathing calm.
Behind him the bedroom door opened and he stood as still as he could. He could hear her come in and close the door. As the door fell in it lock he felt a shudder run down his spine.
She slowly walked around him and stood in front of him. He looked at her beautiful pumps she always loves to wear.
"Kneel" the command sounded soft and it scared him more then if she had shouted at him. He knew he shouldn't go against her right now and slowly sank to his knees