I noticed that Caspian was sitting alone by the water the night that Eustace became a dragon, and I couldn't sleep, so I walked over and quietly sat next to him.
I had always envied my sister's looks, and the fact that she could really make any guy like her, and Caspian seemed to miss her.
"I'm sorry..." I spoke softly, bringing my knees to my chest.
Caspian looked over at me, a bit startled. "For what?"
How did I say this without sounding like I felt sorry for him?
"Because Susan couldn't come back." I said softly and Caspian shrugged.
"Everything will work out in the end."
I think every girl fancied Caspian at one point, he seemed so confident and he was quite good looking, you can't deny it.
I think even I fancied him, but he was older, but at the same time, I was older. Narnia time confused me.
He tucked some of my hair that the wind knocked out of place behind my ear and I smiled slightly. "You look a lot like your sister, you know that?" He smiled at me as if he knew that's exactly what I wanted to hear. "But you still look like you should. Like a Lucy Pevensie should." He nodded, pleased with what he had just told me.
"Thanks Caspian..." I nodded and smiled, happy.
He put an arm around me to keep me warm and I leaned on him. I was smaller than him, but not too much smaller.
I did fancy him.
But my sister fancied him.
Although... She did talk about another soldier in her letter, so maybe she didn't care for him anymore... Then he was free and I wouldn't have to feel guilty anymore.
I felt justified.
But, why would Caspian like me if he once had Susan? Susan was braver and older and prettier and just... More.
I thought that my sigh was inside my head, but turns out I did it outside as well, Caspian looked at me.
"Is everything alright, Lucy?"
"Of course." I smiled and lied.
"I don't believe you." He was the first person to counter me when I lied.
"Why not?"
"People don't sigh sadly for no reason."
"Maybe I do."
"Not even daughters of Eve sigh sadly for no reason."
I wanted to tell him, but it'd seem stupid to him, my insecurities.
"It's nothing, really. Just some girl troubles I think..." I looked away.
"I may not be Susan and I may not understand well, but everyone needs someone to talk to..."
He almost convinced me, but I'd have to tell him that I fancied him to get it all out, and I wasn't wiling to take the risk.
"I truly am fine, Caspian." I nodded, hoping that he was done.
"What if I tell you some of my problems?" I shrugged and he began his story of his father, putting new parts into the story that I haven't heard before and I listened well.
"And now, I really like this girl, she's on this journey, but she'd never go for me."
"I bet she would, I mean, you're really good looking." I blushed and so did Caspian. "You just have to give yourself a chance." I gave him advice that I should be following.
"And if she said no?"
"At least you know that you tried."
He nodded. "Alright, I'm going to let her know."
I forced a smile, trying to be happy for him. "Good luck..." I sighed.
I was sad until he kissed me.
And I kissed back.
And it was amazing.
Until we heard a tiny cough and saw Reepicheep, then we both blushed.
"I'll leave you two alone." Reepicheep scurried back to Eustace and Caspian and I could only laugh.
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-Later, Caspian's POV-
I knew that they had to go, and it saddened me greatly to see them go, especially Lucy.
When Lucy hugged me good bye, I kissed her cheek and whispered in her ear, "I love you more than Susan," Because she had told me that she thought that her sister was better than her. She smiled through her tears, and left with her cousin and brother.
I won't find anyone like the Pevensie's again.