Shepard shot up in her bed, glancing around the room she sighed "damn it" even though she and her team had managed to destroy the collector's base but she was still having nightmares. Shepard ran her hand through her shoulder length red hair and closed her sapphire eyes recalling her dream…

Shepard was running towards joker who was still trying to save the first Normandy but no matter how much she ran she didn't move an inch and the hunt and ache in her heart grew and grew, she had known for a while she felt something special for the pilot but it was impossible to deny that she had fallen for the quick witted man and the feeling she got from fear of not reaching him in time was unbearable and it tore her up inside. Then the unthinkable happened, the area joker was, in hands gliding over orange glowing counsels, was ripped apart.

Shepard sighed as she climbed off her bed and slipped in to her alliance uniform and headed to the elevator with one thing in mind 'coffee'. She hit the button to the cafeteria as she waited for the get there she ran her hands through her hair getting most of the knots out. The elevator chimed letting Shepard know she had arrived, the doors slid open and she walked out sighing again as her thoughts wandered to joker yet again she thought of his wit, his smile, the way he could lift her spirits and make her laugh at the hardest to times but then she remembered that he was with EDI and that she didn't have a chance she yet again sigh she did that a lot of late, sighing helped her let out her frustrations without putting a bullet between the eyes. Filling her mug with coffee milk and sugar she sighed again, she had been avoiding joker as much as possible recently hoping it would get rid of the feelings she had but it just made them worse as she realised how much she missed talking to him and she was positive that he noticed and went looking for her on purpose and she couldn't help the butterflies in her stomach at that thought, Shepard sighed for the fifth time since she got up but hey how was keeping track.

"Well aren't we up late commander"

That voice Shepard knew it instantly joker god danmit

This was about to get very interesting…..