Prologue

My life changed on my tenth birthday, when my parents came into my room and announced that they were separating, like a divorce. They said that it would be for the best… but I don't think they meant for me. Especially since my mom had decided that I was leaving with her.

So much for better for me.

I watched silently out the back car window as we pulled away from the curb by our old house, leaving everything I knew behind. I couldn't stop this moment from happening as much as I wished I could've but… I knew that no matter what I did, it wouldn't change anything. I was leaving, moving to Arizona and saying goodbye to everything I loved and knew.

My eyes darted out the front window, watching the trees zoom past before returning my gaze to the road behind us as we turned the corner. As we neared the Cullen's house my breath caught in my throat when I noticed someone was chasing our car. His bronze hair bobbed as he ran, not fast enough to catch the car but as fast as his legs could take him. I moved my gaze to my mother. "Stop the car," I stated firmly, my eyes narrowing at her as I said that.

Her gaze moved to me as I said that and her eyes narrowed back. She didn't want to stop because she knew that if I got out, I probably wouldn't get back in. "Why?" she asked, her eyes showing hesitation.

"I just need to do one thing."

She pulled over quietly and watched me open my car door. "Just be qu-" her words cut off by the slam of my door. I ran towards him, knowing he saw me. We both slowed our paces as we neared each other, I could see he had been crying. He never cried so this was new for me.

He came close to me, before wrapping his arms around my waist. He pulled me to him, his cheek pressed against mine. "Don't leave me," he murmured into my ear as I felt my cheeks dampen with my own tears.

The move was inevitable, I had to leave and he knew this but yet he was trying to find a way to keep me here. I wrapped my arms around his neck before burying my head into his hair. I took a slow breath, inhaling how he smelt as I tried to calm myself, I knew I needed to be calm for him. I pulled out of his hug a little to get a good look at him, my arms tightening around his neck. "I'll always," I began, a small smile folding along my lips that didn't really look like a smile probably. "find my way back to you. This isn't goodbye."

He shook his head before saying, "Stay with me. I don't want to loose my best friend."

"You aren't loosing me, I promise."

His green eyes were red from tears as he met my gaze, there was a hardness in them. The way he looked at me made me feel like crawling into a hole. "You are leaving me," he said coldly before letting go of me completely and turned away. "I hate this. I hate not being able to see you again."

I sighed and slid my hands into my back pockets of my jeans as I looked at him. "I hate it too," I muttered before walking around to look at him. I hugged him again, before pulling out of the hug. "I'll call you."

I watched his hands tightened as I said that. But I sighed and walked towards the car, a tear sliding down my cheek. So this is what it felt like. To say goodbye to someone important. This wasn't my choice, I couldn't change anything. No matter how much I wanted to stay.

I got in the car and slammed the door shut. I could see my mother's mouth was opened as if she was trying to find the words that would comfort me. But I didn't want to be comforted. I wanted to stay.

8o8o8o

Edward plopped down on my bed beside me, his wet hair clung to his face as he flipped through one of my comic books. I sat down next to him, pulling out a different comic book and flipped through it. I'd read all of them but it was okay, this is what Edward and I did…

Its like that when you are best friends with a guy. I looked over at him, a frown tugging on my lips. "What's wrong, Eddie?" I asked, using one of my old nicknames for him as I closed my comic book.

He shrugged, his head moving with his shoulders. "Tanya kissed me." he said, making a face that said 'ew' all over it.

I laughed and nudged him with my shoulder, we were nine at the time. "Your gonna have to kiss a girl eventually."

He laughed with me before looking at me seriously. "Yeah, but I'd rather kiss you more than her," he muttered before smiling.

8o8o8o

With the memories of this place locked up forever in my mind, I promised myself to never forget him.

But even now, I wonder if he would want to see me. Its been years since I left Forks, I hadn't been able to go back.