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Otoya's Point of View
I won't deny it.
It was my dream to debut. I wanted to become famous. I love singing and standing in the spotlight. I still love them now, but what's the use if the one you love is getting further and further away. Back then, I wouldn't even imagine that a day like this would come. A day that I would say "it was better when we weren't all that famous."
I never intended to join this group. Nor did I intend to fall for him.
It all started when I was interested in Nanami, our composer. The others were interested in her too, so she couldn't just choose 1 person and we formed a group.
He and I shared the same room. We were partners in the duet. He wasn't really sociable. He didn't open up. Until Nanami changed him. They grew quite close too.
It hurts. I felt a pang of jealousy. I thought maybe I was in love with Nanami. I didn't know the truth. I didn't pay it any mind when I didn't feel jealous when Nanami was with someone else other than him.
The year passed with me thinking that the one I like is Nanami.
We successfully debuted, and we were still together, with exception of 1 senpai taking care of us. That year passed too, without me realizing who I actually liked.
But after HEAVENS' sudden appearance, we were forced to take part in the Cross Unit program. My partner changed to Natsuki, and his was Syo. Mu heart started to hurt even more. The more I see them together, the more my heart stings. My head knows there's nothing between them, yet I couldn't stop my heart from feeling pain. I couldn't stand the pain. I didn't understand what's going on anymore. Nanami wasn't the reason for my jealousy. I was wrong about who I've been in love with all along.
It was then, that I realized I loved him.
The one I love is Ichinose Tokiya.
Yet, till today, I still have to keep this false bright smile as a mask and pretend that I don't love him and is still interested in Nanami. I don't know what I will do if he finds out and rejects me...
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