I stand here alone,
Through days come and gone.
O
I love them, I do…
But what must I go through,
To keep their trust here with me?
O
To keep their smiles,
Stretching half of a mile,
Dancing upon their faces?
O
Could I turn to my skills,
Count up my kills,
And beg them for forgiveness?
O
I fear not,
For through time's rot,
I've found myself attached;
The grey of their skin,
Insanity drawn in their grins;
They have become my family.
O
Here I stand,
To confuse and disband,
For it seems my only purpose;
Through wit and wile,
Strength and guile,
I'll strike them down to the bud.
O
I know that once our purpose is gone,
Time shall travel on and on,
For me, and not the others.
They will try to make me face,
The horrors caused by my disgrace;
But I will triumph, and strike them down as well.
O
I stand here alone,
Through days come and gone,
For I am the Noah of Sorrow.
O
Lavi stumbled back in shock. This explains so much…
Allen disappeared from the Europe branch of the Black Order five years into his service. The Order had frantically searched for a clue, but found none—not even a note!
His disappearance had thrown the Order into turmoil, for Allen was one of their top exorcists. Without him, they struggled to function; his absence left Lenalee unable to fight at her best, for grief had taken her over. Slowly each exorcist fell prey to the Noah clan, starting with the General Tiedoll. His death discouraged many of the soldiers—exorcist and finder alike.
Two years had passed since the death of Miranda Lotto, possibly one of the Order's most valuable Exorcists. After the event, Lavi left the Order. He remembered the old panda's lessons well: the Bookmen are neutral—they are never to take sides.
So Lavi kept his place out in the wild. He observed, but never interfered. Up until the culminating battle, that is.
Now here he stood, sobbing for the lives of his friends, breaking the rule of the Bookmen: never become attached.
After his grief was exhausted, he would set out to destroy those that had taken his friends and companions, and end the Bookman line with that of the Noah.
AN: This is based on my ponderings of Allen actually defecting to the Noah. Whether true or not, I had such fun writing it!