a/n- ok peeps this is my first fanfic about twilight so plz review!

REGRETS

Chapter 1: MISTAKES

Standing as my front porch, I fought back the tears as they threatened to fall. I let a sob escape from me as I looked between my two loves. My heart broke in two as I saw the pained expression on both of their faces.

This can't be happening! This can't be real!

They were making me choose: one or the other. I knew Charlie was watching out the window hopping that there would be a fight and Jake would win but when gave him the death glare he quickly went back to whatever he was doing.

"DO I have to?" My voice broke; this was tearing me apart on the inside. Edward opened his mouth to speak but Jake cut him off.

"Look Bella it's either me or him you can't have both." He said crossing his arms. "Ant might I also point out that he left you once and no doubt he's gonna leave you again." I heard Edward growl. I looked at him and saw that he was struggling to maintain self control; I knew how bad he wanted to kill Jacob just then.

I looked into his eyes; the eyes I always seem to get lost in were now pleading me to pick him. I knew I was in love with both of them but which one did I love more? That was the question I was struggling to answer. I knew I couldn't live without Edward but Jacob was the person who kept me sane when Edward left plus I didn't want to hurt him.



"Bella." I looked up at Edward and into his eyes; they were a soft and gentle color. "I know this must be hard for you to choose between us but I want you to know that no matte what you choose I'll always love you."

The tears finally spring from my eyes as I heard what Edward had said. I knew the decision I was gonna make would be the hardest decision I would ever make in my life!

I looked directly in Edwards eyes, not knowing how long I could hold his gaze. I opened my mouth to speak but nothing came out. I tried again, "I can't Edward." His face fell and I was Jacob's face lit up and a small 'yes' escaped from his lips. I gave him a quick glare and looked back at Edward.

His face was hard to read but I could tell that were a million emotions running all around him on the inside. "Let me Explain." I pleaded, he nodded.

"Look Edward when you left me I was a mess…no scratch that I was broken. There was a hole where my heart was supposed to be. But then I found Jake and he took care of me and brought me back to life and I feel like I owe him BIG TIME."

I looked down not wanting to meet his gaze or see his reaction. It took a while but he tilted my head up with his hand to meet his gaze. I will NEVER forgive myself for leaving you Bella, but if this is what you want then I won't be in your way, I'll be leaving now."

"No Edward plea-." But I was cut off by seeing a Volvo speed away. My eyes began to water was I recognize what I had just done. "NO! Nooooooo! Shit this can't be happening! No!" I was trembling now. What have I just done? "Bella, Bella calm down!" Jake said trying to sooth me, "You don't need that shit head you've got me now Bella…BELLA damn it! You're gonna loose control! Bella? Bella?"

Jake was practically shouting my name out but I didn't respond.



I didn't care.

I all I wanted was my Edward back.

What have I done?

I began shaking uncontrollably and suddenly everything went black.

--3--

"Is she gonna be ok?" I heard a worried voice ask but I couldn't tell who it belonged to. "I don't know…wait, wait she's waking up."

I slowly opened my eyes to find two guys staring at me, their faces were all a blur but after a while I began to see them. It was Charlie and Jake and I was lying on our couch inside. I let out a groan as realization swept over me.

I let Edward go…I picked Jake over him and now I had to deal with the consequences. "Bella are you ok? You were calling Edward name over and over again when you were knocked out." I felt a blush creep across my face.

"Did he do something to you Bella?" Charlie asked getting all serious on me. "No dad he didn't." I sighed, "Um dad can I talk to Jake alone?"

He looked between me and him, "Um sure." I could tell that he didn't want to know whatever was going on.

"I regret it Jake and I'm sorry…I'm about to hurt you more that ever." I said with sadness laced through my voice. "Bella what are you talking about? You chose me didn't you? Don't you LOVE me?"

…..



I gulped this was going to be so hard I hate doing this to Jake, I don't deserve either of them, that is if I get Edward back.

"Jake…I'm sorry I wish I could die instead of this. I do love you really but I can't live with out Edward I LOVE him MORE that YOU. The problem is Jake, I only see you as a friend and nothing more and if you can't accept that then…I guess we can't be friends." My voice broke at the last part; tears welled up in my eyes.

"You know what Bella I'm so tired of this!" I winced at the venom in his voice this was braking me in two and no one; absolutely no one could piece me back together.

"Look Bella I don't want to be the third wheel you come to when things go wrong with that prick you call a boyfriend! So listen close and listen well! I'm done if I can't have you as a girlfriend then I don't want you as a friend and if you came back to La Push one more time to see me I promise you, you will regret it! Good bye Bella forever!" with that he stomped out of the living room and slammed the door shut.

I broke down crying. I saw Charlie walking back into the room but when he saw me crying he quickly turned around but then walked back to me with a careful look. "Bella are you ok? Um…I know Jake hurt you right now," I gave him a questioning look, "Oh sorry but it's not my fault that he was practically yelling…anyway I know he must have hurt you but you can't just cry about it ok? I know you're strong Bella so do whatever you have to, to mend the broken heart you have."

I blinked back the tears that wanted to fall. I was clearly shocked! Charlie was not a very deep person yet when he spoke those words to me I was in shock and I also realized that he was right.

I had to get over Jake he should have never been part of my life it was a mistake that I can now never undo. I know for sure that I will always be guilty for hurting him but now I have come to a conclusion on who I want.



EDWARD.

I had to get him back…no matter what. But I have my doubts, will he want me back? I knew that we both loved each other to death but what I did was…unbelievable, I REGRETED EVERYTHING. All I want is my Edward back but how?

At least I knew that he wasn't leaving me…maybe.

He sort of PROMISED right? I questioned myself. Charlie left me to think about things, a few minuets later I heard him on the phone ordering pizza. I guess he knew that I wasn't up for cooking today.

I climbed up the stairs carefully and went to my room; I had to think of something or someway of getting Edward back. Of course I could just go to his house but I wanted us so talk in privet and not let a bunch of other vampires listen on us.

I could always see him at school but what if he tries to avoid me? He's rally good at that! URG! This was driving me crazy! After a while of just laying down on my bed Charlie called me down to get some pizza but I didn't want any.

I suddenly sat up straight this is not how I should be acting. I need to go down there! NOW! I got m jacket and my car keys and ran downstairs.

"Whoa there Bella where do you think you're going." Charlie asked from the couch. "DAD I NEED t to go see Edward and get things straightened out!" I said desperately.

"Bells I know that you want him back but not at this time…it's too late. He would probably be sleeping right now, if not his parents are sleeping and I wouldn't want you to disturb them." Charlie said in a tone that I couldn't argue with.



I sighed in defeat and walked back upstairs. THIS was not fair! Lying back on my bed I fought to keep awake just in case Edward had come in the night; I had left the window wide open with my hopes high.

--3--

I woke up with feel of something cool around me. My eyes flew open right way in hope of who I thought it was.

Edward.

a/n: ok this is the first chap of two. Sorry if it seems that some of the characters are out of character. Anyway this is a two shot and after I finish I will be making a story called MY GUYS AND EDWARD! :)

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