Hi everyone, this is my second fiction, it has nothing to do with my other story: Three Little Words which is still in progress. After I saw 47 Seconds and The Limey I started to write this story. I hope you all enjoy it and please review it. And
Emma
Kate Beckett had barely seen or heard from Rick Castle all week. He wasn't even returning Kate's calls; all Kate got was one text saying he was busy. When Kate walked into the precinct after her lunch break she was hoping to find Castle sitting there on the chair next to Kate's desk impatiently fiddling with the elephant models on the desk while he was waiting for Kate to return. When she stepped out of the elevator her heart sank, there was no sign of Castle.
Kate had to admit things had recently been weird with Castle; it was almost as if he was pulling away. Awkwardly avoiding Kate would be another way to put it. All of this left Kate confused she had absolutely no idea why this was suddenly happening. Kate sat back down at her desk and on the big stack of paperwork that was constantly growing on her desk. Ryan and Esposito realised that she was missing Castle. Ryan came and sat on Castle's chair: "I know you are missing him." He started.
"Missing who?" Kate asked, not even looking up from what she was writing.
"I know you are missing Castle."
"No I'm not what makes you say that?" Kate asked looking at Ryan.
"Well, ever since Castle hasn't been around you have been kind of moody and you keep looking at the elevator every time it opens."
Kate didn't realise she had even been doing that. "And that makes you think I miss him?"
"Well, yeah. Have you heard anything from him?" Ryan asked.
"Heard anything from who?" Esposito asked, joining in the conversation.
"Castle."
"I've only had one text from him, has he been in contact with either of you?" Kate asked suspiciously.
"Nope, not a word, it's weird." Esposito answered.
"What about you Ryan?"
"Nothing,"
"Well maybe he has been with that chick." Esposito said.
"What chick?" Kate asked trying to keep her cool.
"I saw her getting into Castle's Ferrari after he left here, that was the last time we saw him." Ryan replied.
"Oh, I see." Kate said.
"He might not be sleeping with her you know." Esposito butted in.
"Well I don't care who he sleeps with, he can sleep with anyone he wants. The more the merrier." Kate said.
"Is everything okay between you?" Ryan asked cautiously.
"Oh I don't know. Why don't you ask Castle when he gets back, don't you two have some paperwork to do?" Kate spat.
After that comment Ryan and Esposito slunk back to their desks and got on with their paperwork, quietly talking. Kate continued to do the paperwork for the rest of the day, there had been no murders. At half past four Kate had finished all her paperwork so she decided to visit her good friend Lanie. As Kate was driving to Lanie's all she could think of was what could Castle be doing right now? Who was that girl that Esposito saw getting into Castle's Ferrari? Why wasn't he returning her calls? What if he wasn't coming back to the precinct? All these unanswered questions made Kate feel uneasy and she had the horrible feeling in the pit of her stomach about all of this.
When Lanie answered the door she gave Kate a big hug. "Jeez girl, you look like crap!"
"Oh it's nice to see you too Lanie."
"I'm sorry, but you seriously don't look good. What's wrong?"
"Castle…"
"Oh god, just hang on I'll get some wine and then we can talk." Lanie said getting up.
"Okay, sounds great." Kate absently replied.
Not long after Lanie arrived back carrying two big glasses full of red wine, she handed one to Kate. "So I take it you haven't told him how you feel yet?"
"I haven't, Lanie, he hasn't been to the precinct all week and he hasn't been returning my calls."
"Oh Kate, honey, are you sure something hasn't happened between you two?"
"Nothing I can think of. After that bombing we investigated he has been acting weird, it's like he is there in person, but mentally he is somewhere else. I don't know why he is suddenly just pulling away then not even talking to me. Lanie, what if I really have waited too long, what if I have blown all my chances with him?"
"I don't know Kate, I'm sorry."
"And I thought he meant it." Kate said sadly.
"Meant what? Katherine Beckett is there something you're not telling me?"
"He said he loved me…"
"Wha- when?"
"When I was shot, I pretended that I never heard him. I lied to everyone and said everything went black after I fell from the podium."
"Why?"
"I was just shot! That was the last thing I needed, I wasn't ready then."
"Wow, I'm not going to lie Kate, this really is a big mess."
"Yeah, I know it is. I was going to tell him but now since he isn't even talking to me I can't. Besides he has started sleeping with all these bimbos again. He had four dates in three days even."
"That's not good, but ask yourself why do you think he is doing this?"
"I don't know. But what I do know is he is back to his old ways with woman, just how he was when I met him. I don't get it. Unless…"
"Unless what? You are kind of leaving me hanging here!" Lanie said.
"Oh my god Lanie!" Kate cried, her eyes becoming wide.
"Kate, what are you talking about?"
"When I was interviewing a suspect about the bombing I said I was shot and remembered every second of it. I think Castle heard. Oh crap…" Kate buried her head in the cushions sitting on the couch. "What do I do?"
"Well for starters I think you should go to Castle's house now and explain!"
"Now? But…"
"Yes, now and no buts Kate. You want this fixed don't you?"
"Of course, I just need to think what to say."
"Well you can think of that on the way." Lanie said pulling Kate off the couch.
"Lanie, he thinks I don't love him, how do I explain I do and just needed time?"
"You are going to have to think of that on your own. But I can tell you one thing, every minute you let go by that's another wasted chance to tell him and him thinking you really don't love him."
"Okay, thanks Lanie."
"Girl, go! Text me how it goes!"
Kate took a big deep breath and walked to her car. She told people their loved one had died practically every day, she survived being shot, and so why was it so hard just to tell Castle? She could so this, now or never and the worst he could do or say-
Kate told herself to stop thinking like that as she drove to Castle's apartment. She had tell him, she owed it to him. Even if he never wanted to see her again after this at least he would know the truth, and Kate would know it he heard and why he had been acting so weird.
Kate parked her car and headed up to Castle's apartment in the elevator. She noticed her hands were slightly shaking and her palms were becoming sweaty, he shoved her hands in her pockets so she wouldn't have to worry about them. The inside of her mouth was becoming bone dry, Kate took a deep breath as she stepped out of the elevator and walked towards Castle's door. You can do this. Kate told herself, she paused then knocked on the door. Her hands were still shaking so she kept them in her pockets. Alexis opened the door: "Detective Beckett, hi."
"Hi Alexis," Kate smiled, "Is Castle around?"
"No, he's not. Hasn't he called you?"
I hope you all enjoyed this chapter. I'll try to update soon please do review and let me know what you think of it so far.