Prologue
Right, wrong, good, evil.
In every one of us, there is the ability to find and discover what causes us to make our choices. Why do some choose to take the noble route - choosing selflessness and devotion to others and promises, while others choose only to serve their own selfishness? Some of us choose to love blindly and recklessly or even when it isn't returned while others are driven only by their own fear or disloyalty. Some of us choose to follow a road of noble destiny while others choose to believe that our wrong, evil choices are proof that God has abandoned us and continue to dwell in the mind-set until it swallows everything inside of us.
I was in that mindset.
And my choice was vengeance.
What causes some of us to choose revenge over forgiveness? Choosing revenge may seem like an act of passion, of justice, but really it is the choice to indulge ourselves in self-pity, in malice, in bitterness, in anger. We think that we are owed something and blindly follow a path of revenge until it drives us mad to the point where nothing is enough. No matter how far we go - sabotaging, stealing...killing. It will never be enough and it will never suppress our own self-interest. Those who choose forgiveness, choose to live a life of tenderness, of superiority. There will always be dark times for us, for we are humans after all, but one who follows the path of forgiveness learns to look past times of trouble and are able to move on and enjoy life.
I was aware of all this, or at least I had heard this once or twice before, but I didn't care. I wanted to serve my own selfishness and I was driven to the very brink of insanity because of it. I was cold blooded and I didn't care who I hurt, as long as I accomplished my one goal. The bloodlust that had dwelled in the heart of the Sheriff who murdered my family became an infectious disease and now, the bloodlust dwelled inside my own heart.
And it almost killed me.