She refused to date him while they were at school together but when they are both in the Order of the Phoenix he is so much more interesting than he had ever seemed before and...and...

And it really hadn't been her fault when she kissed him.

But the Death Eaters had been so close and she had been so scared and he was just there.

And the chemistry was amazing.

He had never wanted to get into a relationship with her because he knew it couldn't end well.

But she was beautiful and funny and brave and sometimes she terrified him.

But she made him feel so alive.

"We've got to patrol tonight." She reminds him one windy night in October.

He grins and kisses her cheek, "Just standing around London with you, what could be better." He winds an arm around her waist and pulls her onto his lap as the meeting starts.

When her brother dies he is there to hold her and kiss her and make love to her.

He does not offer condolences. He does not try to make her feel better through words or convince her he understands how she feels.

He does not say a word.

He kisses her hard when he has to go away for work.

He kisses her hard when she has to go away for work.

He kisses her softly when a friend has to go to work.

And he kisses her possessively when ever they're alone.

It's a Tuesday when they break up.

She's angry and he's tired.

He doesn't understand what she's talking about when she asks him why they never talk.

She knows she's pretty but they'd stayed together for so long that she had begun to believe it wasn't about that.

"If all you wanted was a quick fuck you should have said instead of letting me get carried away."

She almost says 'Instead of letting me fall in love with you' but doesn't because she doesn't want him to think that he hurt her that badly.

He doesn't answer. And she thinks he is trying to be funny and walks away before he can see her tears.

He goes to sleep and hopes that when he wakes up it will all have been a bad dream.

He hears her the next day telling her friends that they broke up because he was only there for the sex and he realises it wasn't a dream.

He sees her flirt with other boys and feels his heart shatter.

He wishes he knew how to tell her it was never about sex.

He wishes he knew how to tell her how scared he is of losing her.

He wishes he knew how to tell her he loved her.

He lets himself get killed soon after.