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This means short poem. (Note made up the poem/song/whatever hopefully not too bad)
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Sirius use to talk to me before he went to Hogwarts. I know he doesn't believe in what our parents says, but even he doesn't speak up. I had a feeling that Sirius wouldn't be in Slytherin. Of course I didn't want to tell our parents that for they would have yelled up a storm and demand to know why I thought my older brother won't become a Slytherin. I remember Sirius promising to write to me and inside I was happy for I could show it too much for it is against the Black Family code. Even though our mother breaks that at times with yelling, screaming, and so on. I guess we can't show happiness I guess.
I found out Sirius was in the very very last house that our parents wanted him to be in. It was Gryffindor and our parent's were not happy at all. They sent howlers and caused an uproar about it even threating to take him out f Hogwarts. It was only been two days, but I was tired of all the talk that our parents did about Sirius. Talking about how they would might disown him, about sending him away, about taking him away from Hogworts, and I knew Sirius always wanted to go to Hogwarts. Claimed he liked the name and found it funny. So I decided to lie and cover up for my older brother Sirius.
I told our mother "Maybe Sirius wants to spy on them and explore their weakness so that in later fights he can use it against them. When he fights against those blood traitors and mudbloods. He could use their emotion against them. To blackmail, To hurt them, To make them beg, To make those mudbloods see that they are worthless compared to a Black, and powerless too."
Our mother smirked then repiled "Oh yes that must be it. That is cruel, That is evil, and that must be the reason why a Black was sorted into that damn house. He must have threatened the sorting hat. He must be pretending to defend them from us to win their trust."
A month went by and Sirius didn't write to me. I wondered why he broke his word, but maybe Hogwarts was just that wonderful. I guess I must write to him and maybe he was having so much fun he forgot to write that must be it.
I wrote on the front of my letter From The Black Family after all every letter I write I put that on the front.
Dear Sirius,
How are you doing right now? I already know your at Hogwarts. What is it like at Hogwarts? Who are your friends? Are you having fun? Do you remember your promise of writing every week to me. It's been a month and if you were worried about our parents reaction. I took care of the talking to them and you won't be leaving Hogwarts. It's alright your a Gryffindor, but you spare maybe two minutes to write to me. Maybe writing 'Hi, Regulus. I miss u. Love your older brother.' Or even 'Hi, Reg. Miss you. F SB' it would only take a minute or less. I hope your doing well, hope you have nice friends, hope you are happy, and hope you can write. I also hope you are not hurt and that your hand is not broken. I miss you and the house seems empty. You can even write 'Love u Reg' that would be only ten seconds. Heh, you can even write L U R that would only three seconds.
Anyway I have been reading more of the books here and I have learned more stuff. Well I must end this letter soon for it's almost dinner time and Mother will be yelling dinner time. In ending be safe and have fun at Hogwarts.
Love your Younger Brother,
Regulus A Black
-At Hogwarts-
Sirius took one look at the word The Black Family, not bothering to open it he tossed it at Snape, and laughed loudly. James, Remus, and Peter smiled at Sirius. Snape sneered, but opened the letter up and saw the words at the bottom
Love your Younger Brother,
Regulus A Black
-Back To Regulus-
I waited for a week for a reply, but I never recieved one. I tried to think up reasons as to why he would not write back. Maybe he was still having lot's of fun, Maybe he hates me, Maybe he thinks I hate him, Maybe he forgot, or Maybe he forgot about me. Maybe he just doesn't care enough to write, Maybe he thinks I'm annoying, Maybe he thinks I'm ugly, or Maybe that I'm fat. Wait Blacks do not worry for they do what must be done. I will fix everything and it will not fail. Since then I ate once a day which was dinner plus an apple. I made sure to scrub my face to make sure pimples will not appear even though that usually happens at the teen years, but better safe than sorry. I did all kinds of work outs and I still waited. I promised myself if he wrote back then nothing is wrong with me. I wrote every single week and yet still no reply. Sirius never replying was what hurt the most, I had cried into my pillow many times, I know it is shamefull, but my own older brother hates me. I waited a few months before I sent one every day.
My final letter was the day before Sirius goes onto the train and be back home.
Hi, Sirius.
You really must hate me, you must think I'm useless, annoying, stupid, ugly, worthless, and so on. Heck you MUST find me to be FAT, but you don't need to worry about it for I took care of the problem even though the healers had told me that I was the perfect weight about one month before you left. After a week with no reply I decided to start my diet of one meal Dinner and an apple. Well our parents didn't notice after all I think that would, but I was wrong. Just like I was wrong when I think you would write every week. You might be wishing I was never born. I'm not stupid for I read every day, I'm not ugly for I scrub my face every day, I'm not worthless since if I die then our family would get some money, and I'm not useless for the same reason why I'm not worthless. So I guess the winners are annoying and fat.
To be honest I was hoping that you would at least once to prove me wrong and I guess your friends mean more to you. Your wishing to never leave and dread coming home. At least say Hi to me when you return home then I'll be happy.
Love, Regulus Black
-Hogwarts-
Sirius had started a Tradition of throwing all letters from The Black Family at Snape and walking away. Snape read everyone of them and knew it was not from Black's parents, but from Black's younger brother. Of course Snape didn't tell Black about it. Black never told anyone that he had a younger brother named Regulus.
-Back to Regulus-
When my older brother returned he didn't bother saying 'Hi', he sulked around the house, and mother is back to yelling. My eyes were dry and I notice him writing letters amost every day to his FRIENDS. He never sent me a letter, but yet writes almost every day to his friends. His friends mean more to him than me and that did hurt, but my eyes no longer leaked out tears. My tears are dry, but my quiet laughter was still here. Sirius didn't talk to us, Mother seemed to be buying the lie, or maybe in denial about it all. I got my letter, Strange I do not feel as happy as I should be feeling about it. Sirius just ignored everyone and just kept on writing. I did not yell at him about never writing back and kept it bottled up. Sirius didn't notice I lost weight or anything. Of course I guess I do not matter to Sirius. He must know that I'll be in Slytherin. I have to be in Slytherin to keep to the Tradition and won't shame the family as my mother says. I got all of the things I needed for Hogwarts. I named my black owl Suiris and I smiled.
Soon it was time for the travel to the train that shall take us to Hogwarts.
I didn't know it was a lie,
That he would forget his promise to me,
That he would find me to be annoying,
That I would lay forgotten,
Just like a old and useless toy.
Why,
Why did he forget me?
He didn't speak to me,
Not even to say Hi,
Just passing me by,
Never noticing that something is wrong with me.
That maybe I wanted to change,
Guessing what you think you hate about me.
So I had decided a week after my first letter to you,
That I would change so much you would ask,
So that when you returned you would wonder,
What is wrong,
But it didn't work.
You must hate me and our parents.
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