It's Henry's first Christmas with JJ and Emily, but since Emily became Hotch's right hand, she rarely comes home anymore, when the team gets called on a case a few days before Christmas JJ questions if this is the life she wants … No Will AU Jemily

Just a little Idea I had for the holidays, as always I don't own Criminal Minds. This will be a short one.. Happy Reading

Chapter 1

Ever since Haley died Hotch has been putting all his focus into raising Jack, Emily has really stepped up and offered her knowledge and skills.

JJ has been out on maternity leave with their now 3-month-old son. Emily and JJ have been married for five years and decided to try getting pregnant two years ago.

In the beginning their marriage was perfect, Emily was the most amazing caring wife. She catered to everything JJ wanted and then some, she loved to spoil the blonde. They worked together at the BAU where they met, and JJ was now dual media liaison and profiler. Now things have hit an incredibly rocky road and JJ doesn't know how to fix it.

Knowing her wife was home alone with their infant son was breaking Emily's heart, but she knew the team needed her as well. She took three weeks off to spend time with her wife and son but now she was back to work and she eventually wanted to become the unit chief, the brunette agent knew she needed to work hard.

Hotch and Emily had a long conversation just before JJ had found out she was pregnant. Jack was getting older and he wanted to spend more time with his son now that he mother was gone. It was hard to be away from Jack and having Haley's sister almost raising him. He had decided that this would be his last year as Unit Chief, he was not leaving the BAU but stepping down into a better role for his family.

It's been months since that conversation happened and JJ was still not happy with Emily's decision.

"Emily! I am six months pregnant and you decide to tell me now that you want to move up the chain of command and take Hotch's spot?! You would be my boss and who the hell is going to help me raise our son?" JJ's blood was boiling she was so angry at her wife for not telling her this sooner, she would never regret getting pregnant but this was a conversation that should have happened sooner!

"That's what you're worried about Jennifer? That I am going to be your boss! This is a great opportunity for me, just something else I did for myself without the political games from my mother" the brunette calmly told her wife.

"You're being selfish Emily! This is a great opportunity for you sure, but what about me? What about our baby boy on the way? Did you even think of us when you made this decision?" the blonde couldn't hold back the tears anymore as the scenario ran through her mind. "We are going to have an infant son in three months Emily, doesn't that mean something to you?"

Emily walked slowly over to her wife who was now sitting on the couch with her head in her hands. She gently lifted the blonde's chin in order to see those beautiful cerulean eyes. "I care about you and this baby more than anything else in the world Jennifer, I have waited my whole life for something like this to come along. This is an amazing chance for us, Hotch was able to do it when Jack was very little, this is the perfect time" she whispered softly.

Jennifer scoffed at the mention of Hotch taking the position of Unit Chief when his son was an infant, all she could think about is the fact that Haley is dead now, they were divorced, and Jack is now without a mother. Is that the life that she wants with Emily, or the life she wanted for her child?

"Yeah Emily that's exactly what I want! You to turn out just like Aaron Hotcher, never leaving the office, getting a divorce, losing the love of your life and possible child, that's exactly what I want. You're being a real asshole, Emily, think long and hard about your decision and make damn sure I will still be around to support you!" With that statement JJ rushed out of the bedroom and slammed the door. All Emily heard after that was the blonde's yellow Jeep Wrangler starting and tailing hard out of the driveway.

Emily was left stunned in their bedroom she thought she was doing something good for her family! She would be far more important, a true leader and getting the chance to work right alongside her wife, yes she was able to do that when they were profiler and liaison but now they were both profilers and could really work their brilliant magic. Isn't that what JJ wanted for them?

The couple had barely spoke leading up until the birth of their first child. They had both originally been so excited about bringing this little bundle of joy into the world and their lives. Now though it seemed JJ was one the one raising Henry and her wife was nowhere to be found. Every night was an excuse to why she had to sleep had the office, do paperwork from late night until early morning. JJ understood the life of a profiler of course, but she couldn't understand why her wife didn't want to be around her anymore and their newborn son for that matter.

At least JJ had a lot of help, the team really tried not to get involved in the choices the couple was making. Penelope had spoiled the child already and he was still an infant, Morgan was talking about what kind of football or baseball scholarship he could help him get, Reid saw Harvard in the kid's future, Rossi was going to teach him to make a mean lasagna. The only one who hadn't really bonded with Henry was Hotch.

JJ was worried about the relationship between Hotch and Emily, she had created all these scenarios in her head but she had this sinking feeling in her stomach that something was going on between the pair.

She sat on the couch cradling her son while watching The Golden Girls her insane guilty pleasure. She jumped when he phone buzzed to see it was a text from her wife.

"Sorry baby the case got a little out of hand, I know it's a few days before Christmas but I promise to be there for you and for Henry, I love you." JJ sighed while glancing at the text message over and over again, "I'm glad you'll be home Emily but I'm not sure if Henry and I will be." She picked up her now sleeping son and rested him in the crib in their room before dialing her best friend's phone number.

"Hey Jayje" a very perky Garcia voice came through

"Hey Pen, are you sitting down I have something I need to talk to you about…."

TBC