Gone
My Life Now
My life now was less complicated than it used to be. Edward had left me almost a year ago. For months and months I struggled to keep it together, as if a hole formed in my heart. Thankfully, Jacob was there to help me stay strong. We developed a strong bond. He became my best friend.
Jacob lived in La Push where the Quileute tribe originated from. Not too long ago, he transformed into a werewolf. Of course, he was still human, he tripled in size, and his physical age looked to be about twenty-five, instead of sixteen.
I no longer cared that the Cullen's didn't reside in Forks anymore. I got adjusted to that a long time ago. Although, at times, I missed them. They were another family to me. Not only did I love Edward, but his family truly made me feel like another part of their family. Esme was so loving toward me, and had such compassion. Carlisle was a doctor, so whenever I ran into trouble (bleeding from a paper cut, for example) he would fix it up for me. Alice was like a sister to me. As for Rosalie…she gave me the cold shoulder, but nonetheless, she was still like family. Emmett and Jasper were great too. But their love for me never compared to the love that Edward had for me. Except that love no longer existed.
"Bella?" Jacob interrupted my thoughts as we drove in his car on the way back from La Push.
"Yeah? I'm sorry, Jake, I was spacing out." I admitted sheepishly.
"I have something to confess to you…." He said hesitantly.
I glanced up at him in amazement. "What is it?"
He struggled with the right words. "I'm…..in love with you."
I froze in my seat. Did he really just say that? I was confused. I was more than confused—I was bamboozled.
"You-you are?"
He nodded. "Yeah…I know you only care about me as a friend, but I've always had a bit of a crush on you, since we met."
I grinned. Sure, it had been obvious that Jacob liked me—well, loved me—but it took a lot of guts for him to come out and say it. I was astonished that he did. And I was happy, because I felt over all these months, I've connected with him. Then again, I wasn't sure. I wanted to think it over before we started any type of relationship that was beyond our friendship.
A few minutes later, we arrived at Charlie's house. His cruiser was parked in the driveway. I assumed he was watching a baseball game on television, like he always had. Jacob and I sat in silence in his car for a few minutes. It seemed he expected me to say something. Finally, I broke the ice.
"Um…Jacob," I started, then paused for a second to choose the phrases. Then I began again. "I'm not sure how I feel for you. Let me think it over, okay?" I said to him gently.
"Oh…that's fine. Take all the time you need."
I nodded. "I'll see you tomorrow. Pick me up around noon."
He agreed. "See you then."
I quickly jumped out of his car and headed into my house. Charlie was sitting in front of the television, watching the baseball game as expected. "Bells?"
"Yeah, it's me, Dad."
He poked his head from the archway. "How was hanging out with Jacob?"
I nodded. "It was great. I'm tired though, I'm going to bed."
"See you in the morning," he murmured.
That night, I dreamt about something that I hadn't in a while. Edward. I imagined we were in the meadow, and we were staring at each other endlessly. Then he murmured in my ear, "I love you." He also was kissing along my jaw and down to my neck while I tried to breathe. My eyes fluttered open as something startled me. It was when I woke up from my dream, and found someone standing in my room, watching me.