Title: What If?
Summery: Kate deserved better but she didn't get it. As we lay her coffin in the hearse I keep thinking 'What if?'.
Disclaimer: Don't own them but I can still dream and wish.
Pairings: Tony/Kate
Spoilers: SWAK, Twilight
Tony's POV
As I walk up with Gibbs, McGee and her three brothers to carry her to her final resting place I feal guilty. I should have known, we all should have known that Ari's real target was Kate. We shouldn't have even been on that roof top. Its basic knowledge not to have a gun fight in an open space like a roof top were there is no cover. We all should have been more careful and now Kate has to pay the price. It's not fair. Why Kate? Why not me? Why did Ari have to fixate on her? This was Gibbs's obsession not hers so why did he have to drag her into this? There are too many questions and not enough answers.
She saved my life when I had the plague. She was with me every second of my suffering willing me on. God I miss her. She is probably in heaven right now getting really mad at all of us for being so sad. I keep on expecting her to walk in and ask what's wrong but I know that won't happen. Not now, not ever. Soon she will be six feet under never to see light again.
It's so unfair. I had just realised that I loved her and then Ari takes her away from me. I was going to ask her is she felt the same way but I never got the chance. As strange as this may have sounded to her I didn't want any more one night stands of girls who I couldn't remember their names. I wanted to settle down. I wanted her. Not as some woman that I had dated but as the woman I would spend the rest of my life with. I wanted to grow old with her by my side. But now that won't happen. Dam Ari. Why did he have to ruin everything? He shot her right between the eyes. Sniper shot. The coward's way out. I can still remember her blood on my face it makes me want to puke.
I can imagine her in heaven looking down on all of us. Our very own guardian angel. But I'd proffer if she could still have our backs from down here were all us mortals live.
Ari stole her like from her. She never married, saw the first birthday of her child or even had a child. When I find him I sware to God I will kill him even if it's the last thing I ever get to do. I will get revenge for Kate. Ari is on just about everyone's most wanted list now especially Gibbs's and mine. Maybe now with so many people looking for him they will finally find him and then and only then will I let my conscience rest. Kate deserved better but she didn't get it.
As we lay her coffin in the hearse I keep thinking 'What if?'.
Authors Notes: I havent seen Twilight or SWAK bacasue I live in Australia so if I have gotten something wrong I'm really sorry.