A/N: Um.yeah, I forgot my old password, so I had to create a new account, and then I remembered my password, but forgot which email it was with, which really doesn't help me.anyway, then I read over this whole thing and decided to re-write it. Why? Because..I did..yeah..okay, good. Stupid computer keeps trying to correct my grammar..well what if I want there to be four dots instead of three, huh?! Did you ever think of that, Zilla! And, to everyone who reviewed before, thank you so much, I really appreciate all of your reviews and.stuff.what was I going to say? There was something I was going to say..oh, um, right.sorry that it took me nearly two years to update.everything's just been crazy. Oh, and obviously, this is not OotP compatible. Just because I refuse to admit that any of that happened. He's not dead, and Harry's not a brat, and Percy's not so PMS-y. Okay? Okay. Just a review: I am the writer formerly known as Geladwyn. Don't be dumb and say that I'm stealing her stuff because it's very difficult to steal things from myself. Believe me, I've tried.

Disclaimer: Don't own them. Never have. Never will. Also don't own the lyrics to My Sacrifice, cause.then I'd be Creed. Which I'm not. I think.

~Sirius' POV~

            "..The fuck am I doing here?" I groaned to Remus' back door as I banged my head against it. And then the nervous pacing began. You can tell I'm nervous when the nervous pacing begins. "I mean.I'm obviously here to see him..but why?"

            "Because I'm terribly handsome and charming?" the door owner said, nearly killing me with his abrupt there-ness.

            "Jonathon Livingston Seagull, Remus! Don't you knock?!"

            "Now Sirius, we've been through this, the person on the outside is the one who's supposed to knock. Which you did, by the way. Though by the looks of it, you're head's the one that got that privilege."

            "Wh-"

            "But if it'll make you happy, I'll go back inside, knock, and then invite you in."

            "Wh-" Clearly my side of the conversation was going well.

            "Just come inside."

            "Okay."

            Entering his modest house-if you could call something that was so blatantly falling apart a house-I was surprised by how much it resembled the flat we used to share. Actually, I think the flat was bigger than the "house."

            I picked up a god-awful greyish-greenish-yellow-makes-you-want-to-vomit lumpy pillow Lily had made us as a housewarming gift. It'd been the butt of many jokes.

            Lily never minded, though. She got us back with a few perfectly executed pranks of her own.

            "Couldn't bear to pick out a colour scheme without me, Moony?" I belatedly realized that insulting him might not have been the ideal thing to do after not seeing him for a year and a half.

            His eyes briefly clouded over, soon clearing with minimal leakage. I dropped the pillow and backed up towards the door. "I-I'm sorry...I shouldn't have come...I really shouldn't have come.."

            My hand was on the doorknob as Remus cried, "Wait! We haven't-and-but then I-you shouldn't-um.tea! Would you like some tea?!"

~*~

            Three pots of tea and many uncomfortable silences later, I was still no closer to figuring out exactly why I was there. It'd been nearly 20 years since we'd really talked.And who said we had anything to talk about anything anymore? As far as I was concerned, the past could stay in the past. Yup. That's it. That's exactly it.

            ..Now to just get that out of my mouth...

            "So, um, where're you staying tonight? Because.um.my guest room is free and it looks like it's going to rain tonight."

            My heart was trying to pound its way out of my chest as I calmly placed my teacup back on its saucer. I wanted to stay with him so much, but god only knows what could've happened and destroyed whatever chance we had of rebuilding our friendship. "I really don't think that's such a good idea, Remus."

            His face fell, lined with disappointment and hurt. "Oh. Of course not. Full moon's tonight."

            My jaw dropped. I gingerly took his hands in my own. "Remus, you idiot, I don't care about the fucking moon. If you recall, the reason I illegally became an Animagus was so that I could be with you during the full moon."

            "Yes, I know, but that was then-and you probably don't want-"

            "Then why? I told you, I have a guest room!"

            I jumped up and began to pace nervously. Oh no, not again with the nervous pacing.no good can come of this. I was desperately trying to not blow up at him. And it was working, for the most part.

            Until I figured out why I was there. Then it stopped working.

            "I'm still in love with you!" He had to know. "I'm still in love with you, and you couldn't care less!

            "Even when we were together you didn't care! You were just using me. You were just fucking USING me! I was never anything more than a good fuck to you! Meanwhile, you still mean the world to me!" So much for leaving the past in the past.

            I collapsed on the couch, exhausted from my journey there and unexpected tirade.

            "Oh my god." he whispered, obviously shaken. Bastard. He should hate himself for this! "Sirius, how could you think that of me?"

            "How could I think that of you? How could I think that of you? You were the one who wanted to keep us a secret from the others. You were the one who lied to us all those years! You were the one that never visited me! You were the one who never tried to get me out! Don't you understand?! You're the one that's hated me because of my family since before you even met me."

            "I never hated you, Sirius. If anything, I've loved you since I first set eyes on you."

            "You don't just leave people you love in a place like that!"

            "I...I tried to visit you..just to try to understand why you'd do something like that.I had no reason to believe that you hadn't killed them, Siri.I'm sorry."

            "But how could you not trust me? You'd known me for years! We'd been together for years..Even if you were just using me you'd have to have known that I could never to that to any of you! Especially James! He was my fucking best friend!"

            "I know...And that confused me more than I can say.But I didn't think an innocent man could have stood over another one of his best friend's supposed remains and fucking laughed.

            "But I still loved you. Even when I thought you had killed James and Peter; betrayed them, betrayed me! Even then I loved you. And I think I always will. No matter what you've done or what you wi-" I shut him up with a kiss. Good lord, the man could talk.

            I'd forgotten how right it felt..his lips against mine..Tears began streaming down my face, thinking of all the time I'd wasted. I had no idea how I'd lived for so long without this. We finally broke apart and I felt as though I'd been deprived of heaven. We stared at one another for a while.minutes, hours, days, I don't know, I was completely transfixed.

            And then he began to laugh. Hysterically.

            I leaped up. The nervous pacing quickly became an enraged one. I couldn't see straight, I was so upset. "I KNEW IT! You were just using me! And then, what? You thought you'd try and get your good fuck back, is that it? And then when you kissed me, you discovered that maybe it wasn't that good after all? IS THAT IT? Fucking ANSWER ME!"

            Through all of this, he just kept laughing.

            Finally, he calmed down enough to explain his sudden hilarity. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" he gasped out, "It's not that at all! It's just.things haven't been this crazy in a while.Just.think about everything that's just happened."

            ".eh?"

            "Alright then, I'll review:

            1) You talk to my door and bang your head against it, presumably attempting to lose some more brain cells.

            2) I find you losing valuable brain cells and talking to wood and invite you in.

            3) You insult my taste in colours.

            4) I invite you to stay overnight.

            5) You refuse and declare your love for me, as well as my supposed hate for you.

            6) I tell you I didn't believe you.

            7) I proclaim my love for you.

            8) We snog.

            9) You cry.

            10) We stare at one another."

            I stared at him in amazement, which only started his laughing up again. "It's really not that funny.."

            Abruptly, he stopped laughing. "No, it's really not."

            We contemplated this for a while, then jumped when the doorbell rang. "You have a doorbell?!!" Remus looked at me as though I'd grown three heads. "What?"

            "Sirius!" he hissed, "Someone's at the door!"

            "Yes, Remus. Someone is at the door. Would you like me to get it?"

            "No!" He growled. The guy is terrifying when he growls. "You're still on the run from the Ministry!."

".So..?

            "So? SO?! So I want you to become me loveable dog, Snuffles, you idiot!"

            "Ohhh..you know, I don't think that calling Snuffles an idiot will boost his self-esteem very much."

            Remus rolled his eyes and ignored this as he walked to the front door. He checked to see that I was safely dog-i-fied before opening the door.

            And he stood there. Gaping. Like a fish. (A manly fish!) Until an unsettlingly familiar voice worked its way to my ears. "Well? Aren't you going to invite me in? Or should I freeze out here instead?"

Hello my friend, we meet again

 It's been awhile, where should we begin?

Feels like forever

 Within my heart are memories

 Of perfect love that you gave to me

 Oh, I remember

A/N: Props to anyone who can tell me what the two references to two different cartoons were, and where they came from. Review, please!