Title: Silencing Fear
Author: Shikono Kamoe
Rating: PG – PG 13 I dun no
Paring: Not a cluuue
Warnings: Don't have any at this time. I'll probably know of some at the end. So if you want to know if there are any warnings at all go to the bottom this. Just be careful "cause I'm not sure at all how this is going to turn out.
Summary: Umm… nope don't have one yet.
Author's Note: I'm dedicating this to Sita Seraph. The reason for this is at the beginning of this year I thought male/male was wrong. …But not any more!! YAY!! Well there you go I did everythin' I'm suppose ta. Have fun reading. Oh Heero's POV.
I slowly walked down the hospitals corridor, and for once actually scared out of my mind. …But of coarse I'm not going to let anyone else know this. I easily keep my mask of hard rock as so no one truly knows how I feel inside. The young Krushrinada girl walks beside, along with Relena. They only came for one reason, me. Well at least Relena did the young girl only came, because, well, she's my employer.
I never intended to need medical attention, for I am the perfect soldier am I not? I never had imagined I… me, Heero Yuy would be here awaiting a doctor's opinion on what had happened to me. Sure fainting in the middle of a meeting was strange, but I could guess easily what was wrong with me. Lack of food, I never did eat that much, or maybe water, I hadn't had straight water for at least two days now.
My attention was brought back by the nagging voice of Relena Peacecraft. I slowly glanced over at her not very sure if I wanted to look at her or not. She looked right back at me when I did. I had to give her that, she never shifted her gaze from mine not even when I gave her the most deadly of looks.
"Heero have you been listening to me?"
"Obviously not Mrs. Relena, or he would have at least nodded to your consistent nagging."
I liked the young Krushrinada girl she was much more easier to get along with. After she learned what her father's real ambitions were she became a lot like him, and her mother. For someone so young she surly didn't act it, but neither did I. Without even noticing I had done it I had a slight hint of a smile on my lips.
"That was so not funny young lady." Relena scolded her.
"Well Heero seems to think so." She said with a smile on her own face.
"Heero why are you thinking this is funny?"
I waved off the question as we entered the doctor's office. Not even caring about the half whine half screech Relena gave. I didn't have time for this nonsense from her. I needed to get out of her, and back to work. Yes, that's it; get the lecture from the doctor, which I won't really listen to, about not getting enough nutrients, or some shit like that.
I sat down on the nearest chair, which was located in a corner, to the door. I still hadn't quite gotten over the hole 'corners are the only safe place in room' thing. Damn J for pounding training into me. I shitted a little from being uncomfortable. If Duo were here at this moment he'd comment about that one. Something along the lines of:
" OH… MY…GOD!!!! 'Eero's a human being?!" In a half shriek thing just to annoy me. Sometimes I miss his dry humor and smart-ass remarks. Oh, who am I kidding, I had fallen in love with the braided, American baka, but I had let him slip through my fingers and into Chang Wu fei's willingly open arms.
Well no time for the feeling of self-loathing. I looked up at the young Krushrinada girl she was certainly growing up nicely. It's been at least six years since the last war I'm now twenty-two along with most of the rest of the Gundom Pilots. When was the last time I contacted them I wonder, I think it was…
"Good afternoon Mr. Yuy." The doctor stated as he walked in and took a seat.
"Afternoon, so what is so wrong with me that I had to stay here for more than what was expected of me?"
"Well you might not enjoy hearing this, but…"
That was very strange in my opinion. A doctor who doesn't like to lecture? The thought of that just bewildered me. How hard is to lecture someone when you're paid to do it?
"You have a new form of…" he hesitated. Why the hell was he hesitating? " …Cancer."
I have what?!?! "What?" I said calmly.
I heard a loud clunk and turned to see Relena in a heap on the floor. Krushrinada was, well, very calm about the whole thing actually. I'll commend her for it later.
"I hope you are o-okay with this, for there's not much I can do. …Or anyone for that matter"
I sat there dumb founded out of my mind before answering.
"How exactly am I supposed to okay with this doctor? I mean I'm Heero Yuy the perfect soldier. Not some weakling with cancer. What am I supposed to do now?" I shouted not realizing I had.
"Well call all your buddies I guess. Tell them about the whole thing, or not. You could just go see them, not tell them, and leave before you die."
"Wait a minute did you say die?!" I couldn't keep my calm voice any more it was to much for me to handle. Considering I was the perfect soldier… wasn't I?
"Yes, that's what I said. You said your self you've passed out many times before, so we figure a year or two longer I your life span. We're very sorry Mr. Yuy, but that is, well, that."
No way this happening to me, me of all people. J told me I was perfect, along with everyone else that met me. Is this the way that God Duo talks about is punishing me? Maybe if I would have considered the people I killed, or believed in him, or… No, this is ridicules there is no such thing as God. There just isn't any possible way that there is such an almighty being like that.
"How did I end up with it?" I stated as calmly as possible.
"Well from your records, we indicated not eating properly didn't help the matters. We also came to realize that every time you fought it worsened."
"Then why didn't I find out sooner?"
"This new breed of cancer is never detected until now at its last stage before the carrier's death. Its really hard to detect."
"Why?"
"Well the reason for that is its always different. It actually becomes part of your blood stream system, unit, that is of coarse, it finds somewhere where stress is full force. Which in your case was your heart and lungs."
"So in other words good bye Heero Yuy?"
"Pretty much, yes."
"Fine."
After I had checked out, dragged Relena's knocked out pacifism but to the car, and did all the paper work on how to do a certain job (I'm not mentioning what that is) I had plenty of time to think of what I should do.
What should I do? I wonder to myself over and over again. Should I call them up and tell them, or just call them up to see them the last couple years of my life? Damn, this was a harder diction than I thought it was going to be.
I did the only thing I could, I picked up the com, and dialed Quatre's number. He'd know how to do this, and get a hold of everyone.
~byeness
Hope you like this one. '-'
Author: Shikono Kamoe
Rating: PG – PG 13 I dun no
Paring: Not a cluuue
Warnings: Don't have any at this time. I'll probably know of some at the end. So if you want to know if there are any warnings at all go to the bottom this. Just be careful "cause I'm not sure at all how this is going to turn out.
Summary: Umm… nope don't have one yet.
Author's Note: I'm dedicating this to Sita Seraph. The reason for this is at the beginning of this year I thought male/male was wrong. …But not any more!! YAY!! Well there you go I did everythin' I'm suppose ta. Have fun reading. Oh Heero's POV.
I slowly walked down the hospitals corridor, and for once actually scared out of my mind. …But of coarse I'm not going to let anyone else know this. I easily keep my mask of hard rock as so no one truly knows how I feel inside. The young Krushrinada girl walks beside, along with Relena. They only came for one reason, me. Well at least Relena did the young girl only came, because, well, she's my employer.
I never intended to need medical attention, for I am the perfect soldier am I not? I never had imagined I… me, Heero Yuy would be here awaiting a doctor's opinion on what had happened to me. Sure fainting in the middle of a meeting was strange, but I could guess easily what was wrong with me. Lack of food, I never did eat that much, or maybe water, I hadn't had straight water for at least two days now.
My attention was brought back by the nagging voice of Relena Peacecraft. I slowly glanced over at her not very sure if I wanted to look at her or not. She looked right back at me when I did. I had to give her that, she never shifted her gaze from mine not even when I gave her the most deadly of looks.
"Heero have you been listening to me?"
"Obviously not Mrs. Relena, or he would have at least nodded to your consistent nagging."
I liked the young Krushrinada girl she was much more easier to get along with. After she learned what her father's real ambitions were she became a lot like him, and her mother. For someone so young she surly didn't act it, but neither did I. Without even noticing I had done it I had a slight hint of a smile on my lips.
"That was so not funny young lady." Relena scolded her.
"Well Heero seems to think so." She said with a smile on her own face.
"Heero why are you thinking this is funny?"
I waved off the question as we entered the doctor's office. Not even caring about the half whine half screech Relena gave. I didn't have time for this nonsense from her. I needed to get out of her, and back to work. Yes, that's it; get the lecture from the doctor, which I won't really listen to, about not getting enough nutrients, or some shit like that.
I sat down on the nearest chair, which was located in a corner, to the door. I still hadn't quite gotten over the hole 'corners are the only safe place in room' thing. Damn J for pounding training into me. I shitted a little from being uncomfortable. If Duo were here at this moment he'd comment about that one. Something along the lines of:
" OH… MY…GOD!!!! 'Eero's a human being?!" In a half shriek thing just to annoy me. Sometimes I miss his dry humor and smart-ass remarks. Oh, who am I kidding, I had fallen in love with the braided, American baka, but I had let him slip through my fingers and into Chang Wu fei's willingly open arms.
Well no time for the feeling of self-loathing. I looked up at the young Krushrinada girl she was certainly growing up nicely. It's been at least six years since the last war I'm now twenty-two along with most of the rest of the Gundom Pilots. When was the last time I contacted them I wonder, I think it was…
"Good afternoon Mr. Yuy." The doctor stated as he walked in and took a seat.
"Afternoon, so what is so wrong with me that I had to stay here for more than what was expected of me?"
"Well you might not enjoy hearing this, but…"
That was very strange in my opinion. A doctor who doesn't like to lecture? The thought of that just bewildered me. How hard is to lecture someone when you're paid to do it?
"You have a new form of…" he hesitated. Why the hell was he hesitating? " …Cancer."
I have what?!?! "What?" I said calmly.
I heard a loud clunk and turned to see Relena in a heap on the floor. Krushrinada was, well, very calm about the whole thing actually. I'll commend her for it later.
"I hope you are o-okay with this, for there's not much I can do. …Or anyone for that matter"
I sat there dumb founded out of my mind before answering.
"How exactly am I supposed to okay with this doctor? I mean I'm Heero Yuy the perfect soldier. Not some weakling with cancer. What am I supposed to do now?" I shouted not realizing I had.
"Well call all your buddies I guess. Tell them about the whole thing, or not. You could just go see them, not tell them, and leave before you die."
"Wait a minute did you say die?!" I couldn't keep my calm voice any more it was to much for me to handle. Considering I was the perfect soldier… wasn't I?
"Yes, that's what I said. You said your self you've passed out many times before, so we figure a year or two longer I your life span. We're very sorry Mr. Yuy, but that is, well, that."
No way this happening to me, me of all people. J told me I was perfect, along with everyone else that met me. Is this the way that God Duo talks about is punishing me? Maybe if I would have considered the people I killed, or believed in him, or… No, this is ridicules there is no such thing as God. There just isn't any possible way that there is such an almighty being like that.
"How did I end up with it?" I stated as calmly as possible.
"Well from your records, we indicated not eating properly didn't help the matters. We also came to realize that every time you fought it worsened."
"Then why didn't I find out sooner?"
"This new breed of cancer is never detected until now at its last stage before the carrier's death. Its really hard to detect."
"Why?"
"Well the reason for that is its always different. It actually becomes part of your blood stream system, unit, that is of coarse, it finds somewhere where stress is full force. Which in your case was your heart and lungs."
"So in other words good bye Heero Yuy?"
"Pretty much, yes."
"Fine."
After I had checked out, dragged Relena's knocked out pacifism but to the car, and did all the paper work on how to do a certain job (I'm not mentioning what that is) I had plenty of time to think of what I should do.
What should I do? I wonder to myself over and over again. Should I call them up and tell them, or just call them up to see them the last couple years of my life? Damn, this was a harder diction than I thought it was going to be.
I did the only thing I could, I picked up the com, and dialed Quatre's number. He'd know how to do this, and get a hold of everyone.
~byeness
Hope you like this one. '-'